Like I failed, which I did.
All the seasons leading up to this jail
made it seem manageable.
And the jail was 1,000 times worse and tougher.
And the experience was not what I expected to get out of it.
What you guys show on TV is just like a blink--
a blink-- of what goes on in there
and how you actually feel.
Jail, prison, whatever you want to call it
is literally hell on earth.
And I know I let a lot of people down.
But I don't know, I--
I got lost in my own head.
And I couldn't-- I just--
I couldn't accept it.
I just couldn't do it.
I went to--
I went behind the CO's desk, grabbed the soap.
And then I seen the medical forms.
And I just grabbed one medi-- medical form.
All the COs are soft.
They don't strike no fear into nobody.
I'm not going to sit here and be bullied around by them.
SHANESE: I have a food allergy to gluten
called celiac disease.
I cannot have anything with gluten in it.
My whole life, they misdiagnosed me.
And because of the misdiagnosis, I lost 90 pounds.
My hair fell out.
My hair was about this short.
It just sucks.
You know, every time I go to my tray, it's, you know,
nothing there that I can eat because of celiac.
Coming into this program, I thought that I
would be able to survive.
Because I believed and hoped that
they would have fruits and vegetables,
because I can eat those.
At this point, I've been here for five meals.
And salad was served once.
And then they've only had fruit once.
It's very easy to dismiss it as frivolous.
But this is my health.
There's nothing about my health that's frivolous.
So it's really affected my life.
ASHLEY: Shanese is struggling.
I don't think that she was, like me, prepared
for how bad it was in here.
I'm in my cell.
Miss Williams immediately starts taunting inmates.
We're not in here to be gawked at, but this is standard.
And then the night shift sergeant comes, I guess,
to check on Miss Williams.
Shut up.
ASHLEY: I would love to watch Miss Williams
get fired right in front of me.
That would be my dream.
WOMAN: Oh!
WOMAN: She's a bitch.
ASHLEY: So she walks out.
And I'm like, heh, I'm dreaming.
I don't know if she got fired or she quit.
But I hope that she never is going to come back to jail
again, that this is the last time she's in this facility.