I don't know what's gonna happen today,
because Chris and I talked in the
fantasy suite
about potentially getting engaged which
was a scary conversation like I love
Chris but it never thought I'd be here
I let my heart guide me on this whole
journey and keeps bringing me back to
Chris I don't make the lights together
we just are such a perfectly perfect
pair you ready all right take a deep
breath you good
this is right before you on the beach go
get them hands at
but down the stairs okay
today could either be one of the best
days of my life or the absolute worst
get silica in the back of my head like
Chris and I are both afraid of
commitment
what if Chris gets scared because I put
myself out there
like I'm happy it was just like so
miscarried I think maybe it's too good
to be true
okay okay
ah
ever since I came to this Beach I
honestly do not know this respect and it
wasn't smooth sailing I mean to be
honest there was a moment where I wanted
to give up a few weeks ago but it was
you that came to me and I listened
honestly crystal you've changed my life
you've changed me you've helped me
become a better version of myself a
better man but
not to be honest with myself and have to
be honest with you
and I'm so sorry Christine but
it would be unfair to the both of us if
I left here today holding your hand
because I want to leave here holding
your heart and I want to give you my
heart today tomorrow and for us I love
you so much and I honestly do not
picture a life without you you're the
woman I know I want to be with
oh my god
Nielsen oh my god
mom guess what I'm engaged
you