“You’re looking like a little stripper today.”
“That looks like it’s going to burst.”
“You spent money on that?”
“Oh no one needs airbags because you’ve got two.”
“So what else are you going to get done?”
Oh my god.
Do you - I get this a lot.
And also people just saying like the list is never going to end.
Oh yes.
You’re just going to keep adding to the list.
My friends always say that to me, they’re like “Alright, that’s enough now.”
Yeah but why?
That’s enough.
I had a nose job and a boob job at the same time.
So yeah, I’ve had essentially a non-surgical hair transplant.
Oh wow!
Well I’ve had my nose done, I’ve just had the hump removed, and I’ve had lip fillers.
So I had a boob reduction.
I mean for me, I think I don’t want to get anything else done.
I think if you’ve got the money it would definitely become addictive.
Oh yeah absolutely, I think it’s ... If you’ve had one thing, because you do
get such a buzz from it.
Alcohol, loads of people drink alcohol, not everyone’s addicted to alcohol, but there
are some people who do get addicted.
Yeah exactly.
I think about two weeks ago I was like to my friends “You know what my lips are looking
a bit deflated.”
They’re like, “What are you talking about, put some lip gloss on.”
It’s becoming more and more accessible, and therefore there’s less hoops you need
to jump through, I guess.
People go and get it done for like a grand.
Yeah, of course, People go and get it done abroad as well.
This girl told me that she done her bum for like seven hundred pounds.
Nah that’s silly.
And I was like, “But what did they put in you?”
They’re filling that up with flour.
Yeah.
I did want to do it more and more, and there was I point where I went to the doctor, and
he was like, “No I’m not doing it anymore,” and I was like, “Okay.”
I think good surgeons will always tell you to wait.
Yeah, exactly.
It is a big deal and they can’t just change it back if you don’t like it.
“You must be really insecure.”
That’s the one that I get.
I mean aren’t we all insecure?
“You must be really insecure that you had a nose job.”
It depends to what extreme it is affecting you as well.
I actually openly answer and say, “Yeah, I was.
There was a time that I was really insecure about the way I looked.”
Yeah.
Popular media does make people, well maybe not more insecure, but just maybe think that
they need to change themselves.
Like I couldn’t wear certain clothes, I couldn’t go out in public without getting
unwanted attention.
And if there is someone out there who isn’t insecure about something, and they’re completely
one hundred percent happy, then please tell me.
Yeah, I’d love to meet them.
Yeah me too.
“Can I touch it?”
All the time, that’s the one thing.
Can I touch it though?
Yeah go for it.
Not really, because I don’t know where your hands have been.
They think you’re an experiment, I think.
Yeah.
And it’s almost like you can’t say no, because they’re so close to you and I’m
like I’ve literally had to stop someone before
and be like, “Just to let you know ...” Don’t grab my hair.
“... don’t pull it too hard.”
Pull it, but not too hard!
Yeah, like ... Just pull the back.
I went to the pub with a group of friends and this girl I’d met for the first time
was like, “You’ve had a boob job, can I touch them?”
Oh that’s the worst, when you’re drunk.
Yeah, elevating towards you and you’re just like, “Woah.”
I remember going back to work after I’d had it done, and I was really close with all
the girls I worked with, and I took them to the loos one at a time and I was like.
Oh it’s fine, you know, you’ve had surgery, you must be used to just getting them out
for anyone, you know, and it’s just like, that’s not the case.
I think it’s their own kind of curiosity.
Like little fantasy.
Yeah.
They want to come and they want to touch and feel.
I mean I can understand the curiosity, I had the same thing, about like, “Oh what do
they feel like?”
And like at first, obviously there’s healing process, but at first they’re really, really
hard.
Yeah, I can imagine.
The healing process was horrible.
How long did it take to heal?
Oh god, like fully healed, probably about six months.
It’s almost like you’re a fricking statue in a fucking museum, and people are like,
“Oh can I touch?”
Should I just flip it out like a fucking pancake for you, in fucking broad daylight?”
Oh.
“You looked better before.”
Well what would you like me to do, reverse my nose job, reverse my surgery?
Exactly.
Shall I just go back and ...? I’ve also had it where someone’s said
to me, “You were ugly before and you’re still ugly now.”
People don’t realise how cutting it is unless you’ve actually gone through it.
Thanks.
And you’re like, you know what, it doesn’t bother me, and then you just cry it.
I think it’s because they know you’ve had a procedure done.
Yeah.
People don’t like it.
I’ve definitely had people say to me, “Oh my god, why would you get rid of them?
They were big, and everyone wants big boobs!”
I mean for me personally, I don’t regret it, i think it’s like the best thing I ever
did, especially for my confidence.
Before I’d had the procedure, I looked up so many like before and afters, and I did
look up some horror stories, and there were some that were an absolute disaster.
Having two at once, in hindsight, was probably the worst thing.
You had two at the same time?
Yes, yeah.
On the same day?
Yeah, same day.
And it’s all about research as well, like I actually looked into a few companies, looked
at who seemed to have the best track record.
I regret that and it is painful and it’s not something that you would do light heartedly.
“Beauty is on the inside.”
But I also want to look good on the outside and that’s not a crime.
I think there’s a stigma.
When you’ve had, you know, cosmetic surgery done, people assume that you’re shallow.
Someone who’s vain can also be really kind.
Yeah.
And someone who’s vain can also be really considerate.
When I tell people, I work with young people and I’m a youth worker, they’re like,
“How can you be a youth worker and you’ve had cosmetic surgery?”
But why?
I have to say, I do envy people who are completely happy with how they look, no matter what.
What people can’t understand is that my looks, actually it’s not me, you know what
I mean, me, I’m the person inside.
People will always assume that I did it for other people, but my girlfriend at the same
was like, “Don’t do it.”
I didn’t do it for her, I didn’t do it for anyone, I did it for me.
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