I can't do this anymore
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so the question keeps coming up but the
answer has never come out what do you do
for a living
alright so let's start here 11 months
ago almost exactly to this date I
started this vlog in fact I announced it
right here I did so out of necessity
necessity for a change in lifestyle and
a change in mindset I had come to hate
so many aspects of my life who I was how
I used my time how I be remembered it
was 5:35 p.m. on March 10 2011 exactly
one day before the earthquake that
devastated Japan I was sitting in a cafe
in this location when the news came in I
was to be promoted to a full-time
management position at a company that
I'd worked for for the last couple years
and to start on April 1st it was a dream
come true at the time and I was ecstatic
the company was a communications
training company kind of like English
training but a little different and I
was given a position running an entire
branch the job was good it felt safe I
guess not all that different from
working at any other corporation but
what really makes a job is the people
and you see there was the thing that
went around this company everyone is
replaceable many disagreed and many more
left for some reason I stayed I don't
know maybe it was the security but I
never took the time to ask myself if I
was really happy
and then I woke up angry one night in
fact I was always angry and I asked
myself when had all of this started when
had I become so negative the only way I
know how to effectively make progress in
change is through consistent action and
so I started the vlog I kept my job but
I changed how I lived tried it out
videogames for video shoots and Netflix
nights for late nights I was determined
to change how I live my life I was
determined to do more in fact I put out
over a hundred videos in the last 11
months
I used the paid holidays that I have to
build up my life and even visit my
family in Canada for the first time in 3
years after this visit though that
everything changed the visited kind of
put me in touch with who I really was
and that was dangerous because I started
to realize that I really wasn't happy
that you coming back I just couldn't
take it anymore in fact I could barely
bring myself to put on my suit and go
into work in the morning the only time
that I felt like that was even alive was
when I was playing music or when I was
creating something so about the vlog
believe it or not I never actually
expect anybody to watch this vlog but
you know PR it was originally intended
as an outlet for me to develop my
mindset my skill set and my outlook on
the world in fact all of the little
messages that I have shared in this vlog
were originally for me or shouldn't my
life be short-lived for my loved ones to
remember me by
but along the way I've learned so much
about myself including the fact that I
love connecting with people and I love
creating all of this combined with the
time with my family was an eye-opener
that I just couldn't ignore anymore I
knew it was time for a much more serious
change
which brings us back to the bridge this
bridge this bridge has had a significant
importance in my life since I started my
career you see this bridge has always
been more of a portal between worlds to
me on one side fits the business
district where my career began in my
day-to-day work life took place and on
the other side were all the things that
I saw as life and freedom like Akihabara
ah sucks ah my home all the things that
I love so much you see I love walking
Tokyo helps me clear my head so when I
first started my career I would walk the
same route every night and cross this
bridge it was so symbolic for me
reaching this bridge was a gateway
between these worlds so with this bridge
being this symbolic I couldn't think of
a better place to make this announcement
and to share this with all of you on
April 1st of 2011 in its exact spot I
found out that I'd be starting a career
in corporate management at the time it
was a dream come true
but my dreams have changed so on April
1st of this year 2018 I quit so today I
walked this bridge with an extra special
significance because today the day that
I'm recording this scene right now is my
last day of this company I quit because
I wasn't happy because change is good
and while my life hasn't changed
monumentally my mindset has am I scared
oh yeah do I have any idea what's coming
next
no way but I do know that we'll be doing
it together
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you
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