hello hello hope you're doing well boy
do I have a story for you today however
there is one thing that I want to share
with you before we dive into the story
and that is that I am making this to get
you excited about my new podcast I'm
going to talk about my podcast for the
next minute or two so if you just cannot
handle that then I'll leave a time stamp
and you can just jump straight into the
story it's available on no backup plan
as well as any platform that you listen
to podcasts so I'm filming it as videos
but so you can watch if you like but you
can also just listen half of the
episodes are going to be
solo episodes like this where I tell a
story or reflect on something about life
which is something I've been doing for
years at this point so the fact that I
haven't done this before doesn't really
make any sense the other half of the
episodes are going to be conversations
with guests and I've already gotten such
great guests I'm really excited about
this like for example here are a few
Snippets five years went by between your
most recent album and the one before I
find that just so inspiring I mean
seriously it gives me hope
because I don't want to live in a world
where you have to show up constantly
yeah I don't believe
that you can always show up with truly
great work that way you know it's like
this little voice is Whispering stop
enough and if you go too far it just
says yeah see too much I think of it as
this very rare bird in the forest and
once you've heard it the next time
you'll be able to recognize it when I'm
finishing a painting I'm listening for
that go check it out if you're
interested links down below and without
any further Ado let's dive in all right
once upon a time I am in Lisbon this was
actually my first time ever going to
Portugal and I meet this super cute girl
and I ask her out to dinner so we go to
a vegan restaurant
conversation is great I think it's
really easy to have a lot of fun when
you're genuinely just really attracted
to the other person this is an important
detail actually when I'm on a date
I think eye contact's really important
and especially when I'm really attracted
like I'll kind of get lost in the Gaze a
little bit
I don't know if that's cringy but that's
just kind of how I operate and so you
know when I'll be looking into someone's
eyes oftentimes the environment around
me will just melt away you know I'm just
really focused on their words and their
energy I just try really hard to be in
the present moment after dinner we go on
a walk it's very romantic I mean think
cobblestones the sun has already set it
was setting as we were having dinner
nights in Lisbon are just so romantic
you have the street lights but not just
the street lights the moon is out and
it's reflecting on the water actually
because there's a river that goes
through Lisbon and we sit actually along
the river I've been traveling like this
evening I basically just have my phone
in my wallet but my phone's on the
larger side it's like an 11 Pro Max or
something it's a few years old but it's
you know the larger model and I'm
sitting down the river's in front of me
she's sitting to the right of me and I
just put my phone down next to me on my
left but I'm turned to my right so
focused on her eye contact paying
attention laughing you know asking
questions and we're were fairly isolated
like if I look down to my left there's
some other couples and whatnot down the
river there's just not a lot of people
it's pretty sparse so I feel okay so I'm
super relaxed and I'm so in the moment
and I'm kind of thinking about like how
do I go in for a kiss these are the
thoughts that are running through my
head right I remember a few people kind
of walked by us along the river little
did I know that those people walking by
were about to completely [ __ ] up my
evening I'm really just enjoying this
conversation I'm laughing I'm paying
attention I'm asking questions my left
hand
reaches over for my phone I'm not even
facing my left okay just reaches over so
I can maintain the eye contact
and then I can't find it so I turn
slowly
and I see it's not there and my heart
just drops so I jumped to my feet and
I'm panicking and I'm looking around
like oh God where is it and she doesn't
know what the hell is going on because
I'm not communicating with her right now
it's just all the dramas in my head now
you have to understand I am panicking
because losing my phone in this moment
had massive implications during this
trip I've been staying with a friend the
plan was to keep him posted on how this
day was going you know texting him or
calling him I don't know the key I don't
know the codes back to the place this
was my only means of communicating with
my friends oh by the way I don't know my
friend's number so I just don't know how
to contact him so no options there I
gotta head home basically that's it the
phone's been taken away you're done the
date's over go home and this is where
things just fall apart I don't know why
I had this reaction but I just start
melting in this moment I'm embarrassed
I'm so embarrassed it's just so
embarrassing to be robbed I feel like
I'm an eight-year-old who lost his
lunchbox box obviously the Romantic
Vibes have completely gone out the
window you know I look around and
obviously there's no one to be seen I
put two and two together the people that
walked by they must have swooped in and
grabbed my phone while I was paying
attention to my date okay so now what do
we do well I'm not going over to her
place because we were not at that point
honestly and the vibe's gone I'm gonna
head back to where my friend lives and
I'm just gonna try and figure out how I
get back into the apartment we'll figure
things out one step at a time you know
what I mean like in a weird way this
felt a little bit Mission Impossible you
know way away Lamer way way Lamer
version of mission possible so I go into
the metro and at the very least I know
which line to take to get back to my
friend's place thank God and I also know
which stop thank God little wins so just
sitting depressed in the Metro car and
then I hear these words
emanate towards me
I look up
it's this Brazilian guy I know this
because that's a Brazilian accent and
I'm just like
what it's just Brazilian viewer who
recognized me and who knows that I speak
some Portuguese and I'm just like oh God
please not now please no please no and
this guy was a viewer of my videos and
of course he's so excited I mean he told
me this he likes my videos and my policy
across the board is take the time to
have an interaction with the person if
you take the time to watch my videos and
you recognize me in public and say hello
like I'm honored honestly that you care
about what I do about what I make about
what I say none of my life would be
possible without you know the support
that I get online but this is like the
worst time for me to be having an
interaction with a viewer because I am
just deep in processing mode right now I
don't even know how I'm going to be
where I'm going to be sleeping tonight
and he's so excited and he asks for a
selfie so this the phone comes out and
I'm trying to smile and then I make the
biggest mistake which is to tell him
what just happened that I just got
robbed I don't have my phone I'm just
trying to get home oh God and of course
he's the sweetest dude ever Brazilians
are such kind people so he's worried and
being so nice and I just want to be
alone more than I've ever wanted to be
alone in my life and eventually we get
to the metro stop and I get off I say
goodbye to him you know and I'm on my
own again so I get back to my friend's
apartment and I'm standing at the front
door this is a building of many stories
there's got to be like 20 30 Apartments
there and I'm staring at it and his name
isn't on it there's no indication so I
have literally no idea what to do and of
course I'm now at the point where I'm
willing to completely embarrass myself
and a couple of very dumb ideas run
through my head so I step away from the
front door and I half-heartedly call out
Bernardo a couple of times before
realizing that it's an incredibly dumb
idea it's 1am I don't want to wake
everybody up and then I'm like looking
at all the buzzers for the apartment and
I'm psyching I'm literally at the point
now where I'm psyching myself up to
start ringing every single one
until I get the right one so I can get
let in and just go to sleep just end
this day once and for all my finger is
on the button and the front door does
open because my friend did hear me and
he came down to let me in I was like
thank God thank God and that is how the
worst date I've ever been on came to an
end I cannot express you how bummed I
was with how things went but you know
what I had a friend recently say this
and I totally totally resonate with this
in life either great things happen or
you have great stories and this just
ended up becoming one of those stories
thank you for listening listen the first
time I ever had this like oh I like
being in front of a lot of people was
wrestling you got emotional in the video
that's very real you know and that's
that's what makes it feel exciting and
fulfilling in a way you know I mean
that's the beauty of like YouTube and
social media is that people actually
just want to see you like the very
genuine you yeah not this like facade
this Prairie facade that we put up how
is this my fault I was really trying to
be present in the moment a good listener
women criticize men so often for not
paying close enough attention for not
really listening I was just doing my
best here okay