- My job is not for everyone.
I think that's really important, a lot of young
girls see me and they like what I look like,
they like what my apartment looks like,
they like my pets and they think,
"I want all that."
But they don't really understand the job behind it,
and they just see what I literally want
people to see.
My name is Ashe Maree, hi!
And we are in my apartment.
Alright, so let's go into my cam room.
I love my cam room, I feel like every cam model
should have a space that they create for camming
that is aesthetically pleasing, as well as like,
comforting, because entertaining for a large
audience is very nerve racking, and it takes me
like two hours to get camera ready, usually.
HD web camera, bright lights, you know,
and everyone's gonna be looking generally
everywhere so might as well look great.
Well, we're selling, we're generally selling
a sexual fantasy much like in every other aspect
of sex work we're...
There's like a personal aspect to it you know,
you're usually in the cam model's own house.
They are able to generally talk about themselves
and somewhat be honest, maybe embellish a little
bit to make themselves seem cooler,
but I mean, for the most part you're getting
a really personal experience, even if you're
going there only for the boobies and only
for the booty, you're gonna leave with some
personality whether you like it or not.
There's no way that you cannot see that the
cam model is a living, breathing, feeling person.
I never actually thought that he'd be
helping me. - Yeah, no.
That was not the intention, but our professions
kind of worked out.
We work together really well, because we're
in a relationship, so that really helps.
Okay, ready? - [Ashe] Mhm.
I had never done any kind of adult stuff
in front of like, recording adult stuff in
front of anyone. - And I've never had anyone
do adult things in front of me while I had to sit
there and record it.
- [Ashe] And I mean, he understands who I actually
am, what I actually like, so there's no
outside expectation for me to be performing
something that I don't want.
Alright, so this is my booty mirror.
I get real creative.
I have a bunch of stuffed animals,
which at 22-years-old I have trouble justifying.
There's like, coffee and spaghetti on him
and he has a hole in his crotch,
it's very embarrassing.
Being a traditionally attractive woman on the
internet usually means that you're gonna get
a lot of young girls following you.
That's a new thing I had to get used to,
especially with Instagram, there's so many
little girls, so I try to keep a balance
of reality in there, you know, that it's a tough
job, that it requires a thick skin,
that I have definitely had to learn to grow.
'Cause I did not have a thick skin before
camming, that was...
Or before social media.
Being a feminist on the internet is...
Pretty much means that you're gonna get a bunch
of men that are disagreeing with you
purely on that alone, or harassing you purely
for that reason alone.
So my being a cam model on top of being
a feminist has just put a huge, huge target
on my forehead.
I think the most common thing associated with
cam models, like the thing that you assume,
is they must be so comfortable with their body.
I, like any other normal human being,
had self-esteem issues growing up.
I started losing a bunch of weight because
I have health issues, I have digestive issues
that we don't know exactly what they are yet.
Doctors are kind of stumped.
I have received two notifications today
from Instagram that a "friend" is a very concerned
that I have an eating disorder.
Apparently this friend can't read,
'cause I posted literally two days ago
about my health issues.
So if you could stop getting my photos removed
for being too skinny, I'd like that.
So, I lost all this weight, suddenly I was what
I wanted to be, what I thought I wanted to be
which was thin.
And I hated my body more than anything else.
It took me so long after I lost all the weight
to really just accept that this is what
my body looks like now, and that it may change,
that I may be able to get healthier,
and workout, but this is what my body looks
like now, and I need to accept that
or I can't work.
My body might not change, and I still love my
job and I'm still gonna do it regardless,
I'm still gonna get naked no matter
how skinny I get, you know.
Accepting that and accepting that I needed to
stop being so damn mean to myself about my body
in general, like no matter what it looked like,
changed my entire life.
Like, made me a much happier person,
much more content, not just with my job.
So that's cool.