So it sucks cuz I know for a fact that I loved him way more than he ever loved me
I haven't seen him in a long time so I might laugh a lot
When the fuck do you wear vans teller vans away fuckin wear vans
Five years I had high cholesterol and blood pressure
What? Yeah, cuz that's what she gave me high cholesterol. Oh, you're so salty. What do you mean?
We met through mutual friends, I was barely becoming a freshman he just graduated high school
we would just all hang out and like get boba together and just chill and like Richard was like
The driver of our group so every single time we were hanging out
He'll like pick everybody up and stuff and he lived kind of close to my mom's house
So she would always pick me off first or drop me off last cuz we live closest to each other. Daddy was cool. All right
He has a car this will really come in handy. If I ever need a ride we went through like neutral friends
I didn't really find her that attractive in the beginning
They had time-pass and then I realized oh, she's kind of cute
I used to drive her basically everywhere to school to like get her makeup
Especially makeup close to the mall
And it's like a lot of places
We start off like mutual friends and I didn't think you were that cute. We were like, okay and then
After that how to meet you at that festival. That's when I asked for your number
I wasn't interested in him. The first thing he said to me when he approached me said can you buy me food?
This much I
Think I will give him like a 6
But it was still like good. Well, I I'm giving it a 6 cuz my lady needs weren't always met
Like a 9 that was kind of one the reason why I kind of kept a relationship so much detail don't get too much detail
So, what did you say? I?
told him like it was like a - I
Was kidding. It's only like a 9. You know what I gave you what I think's what
Now I
Don't blame nobody. I don't blame him. I used to blame him
I blamed him a lot and I feel like my
current situation with my sniffs can other now the father and my child sometimes when I argue and I
Last shower and I cry I don't want to start crying out too because it's gonna get me upset
Thing I say. Oh I blame Richard cuz a lot of people know I got my body done
I got a I got a B BL so I got a new butt and people thought like oh you got a new ass so
You want to switch up and leave richer for your new man, but that wasn't the case
I was watching from the start like he seen me at my worst and he seen me at my high
People think just because I'm on social media and I I do this and do that. I look a certain way
They think like Oh, any guy would be lucky to have you like
How come I can attract all these men on the internet that comments on my pictures tell me that I'm beautiful and all this shit
But I have my old fucking man
Not doing the same to me. You know what?
What do I have to do for you to see me and look at me away, you know
So it sucks cuz I mean I know for a fact that I loved him the way way more than he ever loved me. I
Would say it's kind of mainly my fault. I know what I did wrong was you
Know I guess talking to other girls
Which I shouldn't be and also on her part meaning like her peers her around her like her friends
I told her not to hang out with brought us into a stand point. Whereas you choose her friends or you choose me
Obviously it was both what for our fault but especially my fault. I mean talking to other girls
Doing shady stuff. Mm-hmm. I did say that
I did blame you for a little bit whenever I get into fights with like Tony here and there and stop
I always say like, oh, I think it's because Richard fucked me up like, you know
like I was with this guy for almost six years and like
He was like doing weird stuff behind my back and talking to other girl
So I it gives me trust issues and stuff
And I just blame myself because I'll fucking idiot for even like putting up a best shit
It's good that he took that initiative. Yeah and blame yourself for once. I want to ask you
Why didn't you just break up with me a long time ago, and you weren't so happy
No, I just wasn't ready because I thought that we still had something once we have like big fight and I finally realize I'm physically
And emotionally drained from you and I was just like be mad
And just like it just ruins my whole day
That's when I knew I was like if one person is fucking up my whole day
That's why I know something is wrong, Richard
you think I have like a to-do list and you think on my to-do list is to piss off Richard and you think that I
do that every single day to you on purpose or whatever you don't but you test people and you try
My mom didn't hold me and kiss me and tell me she loved me as a child
So I feel like that's like a mommy thing for me time. So let me W with my son now
Well Richard, I don't know like behind closed doors
I showed more affection, but I feel like like I say built-up resentment, you know, I felt like he didn't
deserve that so
Looking back it did suck your pie. I felt really small
Sorry, I'm sorry that I made you feel that way
It's kind of upsetting because like we could have just we could have moved on, you know, be with a different person
But we kind of just went back every time I think about that. It kind of gets me like upset
Because I could have just did something else and just not wasting my time on
the negativity
There are some times I needed you to be like that's bad girl. I'll protect her but I was even there when that happened
I know that's the thing. Where were you so whatever
In the beginning it was cool
you know, they they liked her and then I think midway relationship like I think five like two years in that's one they're like
Oh, yeah, you should dump her or just like she's not be with there. No more my mom
She would tell me he's a nice guy. Yeah, but he don't care about you
Like you're so stupid you're whipped and I'm just like no mom. You don't understand. I loved him. He loves me, but
Do you want talk about everything really?
Yeah, like, you know, I was with you the whole time do your mom's thing and like when she finally passed?
interesting piece
it was just so Harvard because like
Your mom passed away and we were going to this break up and I was so fucking mad at you
But yeah, I was still trying to feel for you and like be there for you
I even thought about just staying together and trying to work things out because I felt like I
we were being tested I
Missed like the little things that we used to do like going to target
I know that sounds weird come to them all and it's weird how I was like, those are the things you kind of missed
yeah, there was there's a lot of fun times all the time we
Laugh all the time like she knows how to make me laugh. I know how to make her laugh. We were always jokester
We always just you know talks chill on each other all the time. I don't really miss him as like a person like
Having him in my life
But the one thing that I really do miss about Richard that he was always down to go anywhere with me
I'll just be like, oh babe. Let's go to Target. I want to buy nothing and just go look around
He'll be like yeah, I'm down. Let's go
I miss kind of bringing him to some events with me because Richard's pretty social he likes talking to a lot of people and
He's a nice person
I said I miss like I
going to movie some like gonna targeted doing stupid stuff like going to a mall like that's what I said -
Thanks for always coming with me
I know you hated it, but you end up liking it later on, you know, yeah, that was pretty cool
Obviously, I'm really sorry what I did in the past but I kind of made it stronger and me realize within herself
you know who to trust what kind of person we are and
I
Just don't want her to feel resentment of what I did. I hope you're happy
I'm not mad at you and I don't hate you. I hope our relationship doesn't affect your new relationship. I want you to
You know tell her she's beautiful
Tell you love her say these things because that's like something he snuck that
what I said it was mainly like I
Don't want you to feel resentment or like obviously, you know, what we didn't pass. It's in the past
I can't do anything about it change it
But also, you know, I want to be happy with your current man and you your family your baby
Which I'm really happy for you. I hope you tell your girlfriend that she's beautiful and you love her
I show more expression to Tony felt like cuz I didn't really do that with you
So I do it to him now and it kind of helps. Mm-hmm. Yeah, just hope you're happy
Thank you, thank you are you guys
Not to switch up are you going to say like oh
Hey guys, I'm Michael and I'm Kendra thank you so much for watching this drama-filled episode
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