I was with someone and we were fully saying I love you, but we weren’t together.
I think I write a lot of songs to send to people.
And I’ve always been that girl.
Like since I was in like high school.
Just like writing songs then being like send and then the person being like “what the
fuck?
You crazy bitch.”
You know tea is tea and I think you write songs and you want certain people to hear
them.
Like it’s an emotional game we’re playing.
You get a lot of love songs about feeling like in desperation.
Feeling in need of something that you’re not getting.
I like the idea that in this song, fully that y’all love each other but the commitment
element of it isn’t solid.
I know you’re with me and I would love to see some other bitch call you.
It won’t work.
It won’t happen.
It’s so visceral.
I feel like when you’re in love like you know that something feels kind of like sickening
and amazing at the same time you feel like you’re exploding.
Just like pfft, your whole body is like “ahhhh.”
The reason why we say falling in love is because it’s a universal feeling.
We all know what it feels like completely out of control of a situation.
And that lack of control should be like horniest thing in the world.
I really don’t want to appear crazy.
In front of you like I can’t let you know this early on that I have zero chill.
But if you’re somebody like me, like I really just don’t.
I have a very hard time being chill.
I’m not a chill girl.
I’m like on 11 all the time.
And that’s just like, my manager is nodding.
I think that’s the question of the song.
Is it better when you lock it down?
Is it more fun?
Does it make the pussy taste better?
I don’t know.
I cut off all of my hoes for you.
Numbers deleted.
No, not numbers deleted but very much, I think it was supposed to be like a full like gag,
a bit of a gag because it’s like, I would never like call like someone a hoe like in
a way that wasn’t endearing.
But I think in this context it was supposed to be like “I did this for you.”
Everyone knew that there was some hot heavy shit going down.
Everyone knows like we hot together.
Well musically I was like I really love the idea of like modeling it after old school
bridges, which is basically a minor to major chord switch and having kind of like background
vocals.
This like weird drum like, having a bunch of drum fills and it sounding almost orchestral.
Instead of it being like super wordy.
I wanted it to feel like notes moving down.
Like notes falling down and then that one line being I can’t watch this fall apart.
I don’t feel like any art person in the artistic field’s life is like super stable.
I think a lot of songs where you see people looking for stability, it’s like you have
to remember that it’s coming from the perspective of someone who like lives on a bus for half
the year.
No seriously, the lyrics are like manic.
I am a manic person.