The diagnosis is
advanced arthritis and in both hips when I finally got x-rayed when I finally figured out that I better go and see why it hurts
so much. He's like oh this is this is bad. This is advanced
You've got no cartilage left at all and you need to have hip replacements
You know, we'll put you on the list and I was like oh
Blaming that's two big
serious operations
But it's in the UK, these lists can go... To be on a list like that
can... I didn't even go on it at first I thought well, I'm gonna go off and think about that
and then I
came to Bonn
And I had support
t the airports with help because there's all the walking at the airport
so I was literally being pushed around a little bit which I found very
humiliating because I've been a dancer,
you know, all my life and very physical and yoga and I kept wanting to say to the wheelchair guy
this isn't really me but I didn't hmm. I swallowed the pride and I got here
and
It was a wonderful event from the beginning to the end I had lots of great
experiences
But but I was hobbling around a little bit. It's like I just
didn't and I didn't come for healing. I came to go deeper into the meditations on the second
time of being a healer the second coherence healing I
sudden I asked how can I open to more love even more love and I got
hit by I can only describe it as a bolt of
luminous blue light that came in through the top of my head filled my whole body arms belly feet
heart
exploding I
was shaking all over and was just tears were streaming out of my eyes. There was very aware
we were meant to be healing someone so I
tried not to wail and scream
So it was silent and I was shaking and trembling it was extraordinary
It was of all the experiences of my life the most
powerful and there have been many
Because I'm a grandmother now
That was very moving and that was so that night for the first time in five years
I slept without any pain without being woken up
In arthritis people typically wake up with pain that somehow starts to build up while they are lying down slept all night like a baby
Pain
totally gone from my hips after four, four and a half years
So I walked all over the hotel and up and down the stairs I ignored to the assistance at the airport I just strode in the airport
There was a plane ride a bus ride a long train back down to Wales and I was just like a
piece of cake all the way
So
that lasted about three or four weeks and then I got offered
somebody offered me a very reduced rate to have stem-cell therapy
Into the hips because it's actually usually very expensive
and I thought oh
I was wondering because I felt great already
And then I thought well, maybe this is a sign, you know, I'll take it
it's being offered for reduced rate and they can I can pay monthly so I went along and
very strangely from that procedure the pain came back
Intensely came back
Perhaps not as bad as when it was at its worst, but it came back and I was still meditating and still doing work, but
that complete pain free period just went away but it would come and go a little bit
But so at the stem cell therapy
for me seems to have not worked and I had black and blue bruising all down my entire
belly into the top of my legs. I mean it was intense cause they they do liposuction
and then they use your fat to pull out the stem cells
Anyway for one reason or another and perhaps it's because suddenly I was relying on something physical rather than you know,
Whatever it was
But anyway, I
soldiered on like I do
and eventually I
put on but we now been put on a list for hip replacements
but meanwhile, I'm all the time thinking maybe I'm not going to need that. Maybe I'm not gonna need that
So I'm here now as soon as I arrived at the hotel again
I had some help at the airport as soon as I arrived at the hotel I
started walking better. I had an even it was Sunday there hadn't even been a meditation yet. I hadn't even heard. Dr. Joe's voice
I started
this feels, okay. So ever since I've been here I've been sleeping like a baby all night long
Without waking up with pain and I've been walking around I have a little stick
The only time I've used it is been the steep part of the walking meditation
sometimes
So that's
that's really the story and and what it's what has made me understand is
It's ... I mean, it's so clearly to do with a state of mind and arthritis is a very physical
diagnosis you've got
cartilage gone, but it makes me realize that the pain isn't that. It's it's a
it's something you can deal with the pain and that you can clear the pain and
because I think the pain in my case at least is associated with all my
cherished traumas
You know, my losses, my betrayals, my heartbreaks,
That are so important and so special to me and can I really not feel that they kind of get stashed in my hips there
So it's it's more to do with
chucking all that out and on the first walking meditation
he's like well, who-who are you really and who do you want to be and I just saw myself this
joyful free
person who has a wonderful story to tell and I have lots of grandchildren. A lot of them are granddaughters and
and so I have a great desire to be a shining example
You know, not grandma with the cane
and and I feel that in me, so
This is what I want to share. So that's basically it for now