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um
so how was your day good
just good yeah
so what are we having for after
i'll just get a boogle
excuse me
yes how can i help you can we get two of
these in a jug of lemonade
it's still fasting right
how's your first day of ramadan
come on put down your phone talk talk to
me
what's going on
i don't see the point of fasting anymore
from tomorrow i won't be fasting why you
know this is compulsory for us
look i know you've been through a lot
the pasty hasn't been easy
i miss one too this is the first ramadan
without her for the both of us i know
it's not the same without her
another ramen is the most special month
fasting in this month has so much reward
rewards what rewards
we couldn't even be with her while she
was dying
she was all alone i could have been
praying
look the whole world stopped
and everything has going back to normal
well the whole god never started for me
dad
i'm stuck in a worse situation listen my
boy just because you're stuck in a bad
situation it doesn't mean you let it out
on your ibeda on your deen i just
i just don't want to do anything anymore
sub of sun patience patience for how
long that's all you say have patience
have patience patience this patient that
how long do i have to just enjoy
why is this happening
give me a phone
what are you doing
i'm writing to your mom on your behalf
what
trust me this will help you were always
more open to your mom tell her what you
feel
that she can't read this
dear mom
this is the first ramadan without you
mom is dead
dead i miss your cooking
i miss have enough time with you
i miss your jokes i miss hanging with
you
here
write to her
what do you want me to write a bill
tell her how you feel
anything
i'm exhausted
i'm frustrated
i'm angry
i feel lost
this is not right
it's not right
it's okay to grieve some
this is a test
a gut-wrenching one
but a test from allah nonetheless
the reality is
we all belong to allah at the end of the
day
this is just inevitable
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it's never easy losing a loved one but
you need to be steadfast who's going to
pray for mum if you don't
they have to pray for her every day so
can be peaceful
don't we
what if i prayed more when she was sick
what if we were more careful no no no no
no
don't dwell on the what ifs my son
your pain will become unbearable and you
become
miserable her passing wasn't your fault
we can't change
we can't change the past but
you know we can put one foot in front of
the other and move forward
look i'm going through the same thing
right now
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thank you
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i don't think i'm strong enough
you are my son
you are
we have to be
look how look at how fortunate we are
we have another ramadan to make dua for
mom
we have each other we have allah
i don't know what to do
have faith in allah
the void that her death created will
never be filled
i miss your mom too
you know the last time i spoke with her
she was telling me how great son you
have become
she's so very proud of you that you've
been keeping your prayers you have been
fasting and how well-rounded son you
have become
her last days we're so happy that she's
leaving a son behind that's going to do
good
and and pray for her after she's gone
it's a far time let's make dua
you know it is ramadan
and allah never rejects adoha from a
fasting person that's breaking his fast
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excuse me
um is there a place we can pray with you
yeah we're actually just about to start
you're more than welcome to join us
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