hi, my loves!
welcome back to lavendaire
i took two weeks off to travel through italy
with my family and i had such a fun time
the older i get the more
i cherish opportunities to travel with family
because i know the chances are rare
and our time together is limited
i was with my
mom, aunts, uncle, cousin and her boyfriend
and we went to rome, amalfi coast,
florence and venice in 16 days
it was beautiful
and the food was amazing obviously
what's funny is that throughout our trip
i didn't post once on social media
not even one IG story and i really only opened
instagram maybe three or four times
i just wasn't compelled to like i used to be
and it was easier to just be present
and enjoy the moment
i also allowed myself to
take time off posting on youtube
it's been a month since my last video
and this is probably the longest
i haven't posted in awhile
i've noticed a shift within
and i think what's happening is
i'm able to let go of the expectation
that i always have to be on that
because social media is my job
i need to always be posting,
creating, and showing up
what was in the past
an expectation
an identity that I held on to is now something
that i can calmly release knowing that
it's not really necessary and it doesn't define me
untangling my sense of
self-worth from social media
and work in general is something
i'm finally able to grasp after so many years
as someone who easily gets stuck
in the leaves of my day-to-day
work and responsibilities
it's sometimes hard for me
to take a step back and realize
that what i may be stressing about in the moment
isn't actually a big deal
in the larger scheme of things
when you're deep in something
you can feel like your entire world
when things aren't going well
that stress and anxiety colors your life
and everything feels tense and difficult
i love traveling because it allows you
to remove yourself from your daily routine
and place yourself in an entirely new environment
in a way it allows you to zoom out of your life
and see things more clearly
you get to evaluate your life from the outside
which is easier to do than when you're
caught up in the never-ending
to-do list responsibilities and obligations
of your everyday life
to be honest, i had been going full speed
with work this year
and started to feel overwhelmed
with everything on my plate
once i got back from my trip,
the first thing i did was to take time
to reframe my priorities
and declutter my to-do list
so that i can go at a slower pace
and find a sense of balance
with my life again
i am still in the process of rebalancing,
reframing my priorities
and trying to cut things out,
trying to slow down
so that i have less on my plate
because my true goal is to live every day,
feeling fulfilled and free
it doesn't mean i want to do nothing
i want to do important and impactful things
but then i also want to have a lot of free time
that's my goal
it's funny because even trying to
prioritize and cut things out
i still find myself having jam-packed days
just doing the most important things
while i was on vacation
and even the week leading up to it
i just got all of these opportunities
all happening at once
i didn't work during the vacation
but now that i'm back
it's like okay, now i have to
i'm doing important things every day
i'm having meetings
i have shoots
i just had so much that came to me all at once
and i'm very grateful but
i am also managing and dealing with it
i am doing what i can
though to work on releasing
the feeling of overwhelm
and the feelings of anxiety
from my daily life because
i know that it lives there
i know because when i left and i didn't work
that anxiety went away
and then when i opened up instagram
or social media,
just scrolling a little bit
the anxiety comes back
because it reminds me of work
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moving on, i think being away for half a month
being in a new environment
allowed me to really reset my body
and reset my mind in a lot of ways
it revealed to me how tense my body has been
and how tense my everyday life makes me
you know i'm not taking breaks
throughout the day to take walks
and i'm sitting at my computer all day
and my shoulders get all tense
and any stress or worries or any work things
that give me any level of anxiety
add to my shoulder tension
i always have such tense shoulders
and i'm always like trying to stretch
and release that tension there
but another thing i learned
about anxiety recently is it goes so deep
to the anxieties that you had in your childhood
whatever you experience in your childhood
if you had some level of anxiety
then that story lives on in you
if you haven't dealt with it
it lives in your body and also lives in your mind
in a sort of way it will come out as anxiety
responding to new life situations
ultimately the core of anxiety is that it is fear
anxiety is because you're afraid of something
whether you're afraid that something's
going to go wrong
you're afraid that you're going to make a mistake
or you're afraid of some future thing
that has yet to become reality
and you're anticipating it
and that anticipation gives you a level of stress
because you're unable to control it
you're unable to predict the outcome
and control the outcome
in the process of acknowledging that
becoming aware of it and letting it go
i've come to realize and learn
that you have to have
100% love and trust with yourself
and 100% love and trust with the universe
with the divine
whatever you believe that to be
if you are able to have that
100% level of love and trust with yourself
then you won't have anxiety
because anxiety is the lack of trust
it's the lack of control
it's the lack of love to some level
because fear and love are
on opposite ends of the spectrum
at least for me
i know that having anxiety means that
i have some level of insecurity
there's a part of me that
doesn't fully trust or fully love myself
truly believe in myself
i'm lacking that confidence in whatever it is
let me know down below
where you feel like you're at in this journey
how do you deal with with anxiety?
have you overcome anxiety?
have you learned to let it go
or at least some level of It go
comment down below
let me know if you have any tips
i'm sure everyone would love to hear your tips
i feel there's a lot more
that I can say on this topic
but i'll save it for future videos
where i have my thoughts
a little more organized
but in the meantime,
i'd love to share just updates on my life
because there are so many updates
that i do want to share with you
for example, our dream life club has been going
we've been having monthly live events on zoom
and i really enjoy throwing these live events,
hosting them, and leading them
and i also enjoy like learning from other people
i'm super excited
the next one we have coming up is june 1st
and it is astrology for
your dream career and purpose
essentially it's a workshop
held by my friend alice
who's a career astrologist
and she's going to teach us how to use astrology
to find your dream career
and how to find your purpose
you know, what the next steps are
if you're feeling lost
if you don't know what next job to take
anything related to career and purpose
and i love that topic
it's so fun
i love that you can use astrology
as a tool to get more clarity
in that area of your life
if you're interested,
i'll leave the link down below
on how to sign up for that workshop
you can either join our dream life club
become a member and get access to all events
or you can just buy each workshop per event
after that, i'll be hosting
a new moon ritual event on june 17th
that will be a saturday
and i'm gonna do it at night at 10 PM PST
because the new moon is 9:30 PM
and i think the closer you are to the new moon
right after the new moon is the perfect time
to use that energy to set intentions and manifest
i'm gonna do a nighttime event
which should be fun
and i'm also excited because i know
if some of you are in other parts of the world
you'll be able to make it
and lastly, the most exciting thing is that
on that same day, june 17th
i'll be hosting a meet-up
a meet and greet event in person in LA
i have not done an in-person event in years
i think the last time i did one was end of 2018.
i've just been really shy since then
every time i think of a in-person event
i get all like nervous
oh, what if no one shows up?
i just have my anxieties around that
but anyway, i am excited about it
because it's going to be in
LA at Century City Mall
11 AM to 2 PM is the time frame that we set
i'll leave all the details down below
as well as a link where you should
sign up and RSVP to the event
i also want to give out
free lavendaire stickers while supplies last
we'll be giving out free stickers
come meet me, get some stickers
if you're in LA or in the area
this is very rare because i don't do live events
if it goes well, i may do more but we'll see
we'll also be selling our lavendaire shop product
if you want to see anything in person,
our tbh decks, our journals, our planners, anything
come, so you can see it in person
i think we'll keep it at the store
it'll be like a pop-up
i don't know how long
i'll let you guys know later on
but we'll have the lavendairr shop pop up
at Century City Mall at Keston
you can go
feel the products
even if you can't make the meet-up
but you're close by
you can drop in anytime after the meet-up
to check out the products
i have another exciting update
that i'll share in the upcoming video
but that's another vlog
that i'll share for another day
but for now, there's been actually
there has been a lot of action happening
behind the scenes
i've been working and building lavendaire
collaborating with people
and it's been fun
busy but fun
alright, i hope you enjoyed this update
love you so much!
thank you so much
for watching and for being here
i really truly appreciate you
i will see you in the next one
bye