i have no idea how i'm supposed to summarize this year so i guess i'll start with the good
if everything hadn't flipped upside down the way it did i wouldn't be making this video
and i wouldn't have met a lot of the people that i've met through the internet
i was able to find freedom in losing my job and then having to stay home
and i know i'm extremely lucky to be able to say that
but this year also brought some very obvious challenges
it broke me down in ways that i really wasn't expecting and for months life felt like kind
of a cruel joke i got tired of grieving and my mental health was the worst it's ever been
but i push through and i can only hope that this means i come out stronger on the other side
but i'm ready to close this chapter i'm ready to start fresh and say goodbye to 2020.
the other day i was looking back at pictures from like the beginning of this year
and i wish i could go back in time and like warn myself
about what was gonna happen like girl you don't know what's coming for you i think the one thing
that got me through this year is visualizing everything as waves so no matter how nervous i am
or angry or sad or upset or even how happy i am i know that that wave is going to pass and that
at least something else is going to come and i'm not going to be stuck in that forever
dear 2021 we are all counting on you i'm not gonna make the mistake again of placing all my
hope into one year i'm not gonna wish that you'll be the greatest year of my life because i feel
like that would only lead to disappointment also who wants to peak in their early 20s
but i do ask that you are kinder and i hope that your waves are calmer as i sit in this room that
i've spent far too much time in i hope that you bring me to new places i hope to meet new people
i hope to stop living in fear of strangers and the germs that they may or may not carry
i hope to no longer feel irrationally angry when i see someone wearing their mask below their nose
do they not realize the reason the covid test is a nasal swab is because that's where the germs live
anyways i hope to be able to spend more time around the people i love
to be able to connect again with my friends build strong relationships i want to be able
to hug my loved ones i hope that next christmas isn't just spent over zoom and that i can spend
it with my whole family especially those that are far away i hope to be able to celebrate the wins
i also hope to be able to celebrate the losses because how nice would it be to just have like
a really shitty day be able to go to a bar get like a a way too strong gin and tonic that'll
get me buzzed after like two sips because i'm a massive lightweight because i never really drink
i miss that
anyway i hope we continue fighting for a change because i'm really [ __ ] sick of our system
2021 i'm looking forward to seeing the change that comes over the next year the next five years or
the next 10 years but 2021 it starts with you please for the love of god do not mess this up
no pressure we're counting on you i'm counting on you um yeah
i will see you at midnight 2021 bring it
and my parting words for 2020.
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yeah so i am aware that when the clock strikes midnight it's not like all of our problems are
just going to magically disappear but i am going to be very excited to see a new year on
the calendar because to be honest i wrote off this year like a long time ago like nope no hope there
or
happy new year
2020 man
it's finally over
hey