i was weighing in on my heaviest 420
pounds i feel sad i'm gonna eat that
emotional connection that i had with it
literally i knew i had to break up with
them being told that i should have
gastric bypass surgery i had told them
over and over again no i can do this on
my own i have lost
260 pounds naturally it still shocks me
when i see pictures and i'm like is that
really me
when i started i didn't even think about
the loose skin part of it i mean it
affects you mentally the way you look at
yourself you've done all this hard work
and then you look in the mirror
and all you see is all this blue skin
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we really do have a strong emotional
connection
with food and it was it was bad like i
was sad it was something i ran to food
comfort food mac and cheese but wouldn't
the pizza make you feel better you get
to the point where i had such a
relationship with food that it was kind
of like a second soul mate being 420
pounds i was being held back from so
many things and just the simple things
like tying your own shoe like being out
of breath or going upstairs like i'll
never forget it i left the doctor's
office again being told that i should
have gastric bypass surgery i had told
them over and over again no i can do
this on my own i can do this on my own
and i remember realizing
more than anything that i wanted this it
was not just going to be a diet that
would change me
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i have lost
260 pounds naturally
i am so glad i stayed the course to do
it on my own and opted out of having
surgery after a year it passed and she
had lost her weight and then just how
much better how much more life she had
it helped remind me of
okay well this is actually what life is
supposed to be like
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he has also started his own journey as
well which makes it amazing to have
somebody doing this with you
it was really just learning portion
control
and staying away from a lot of processed
foods
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all right you got your goodies
we like to keep it natural and it's
really taught me i was not a vegetable
eater so i learned those flavors of
vegetables which are amazing and the
thing was is getting my body used to
those okay so last week you told me to
get some of these white sweet potatoes
they were so good you were yeah so i
want to get some more of these
i actually put um some oregano garlic
powder sea salt on it and then i baked
it in the oven and it like roasted
perfectly
my favorite salad mix eat this almost
every day
when i first started i didn't think i
was gonna be able to like finish
and now looking back three years later
260 pounds it's crazy
there are days when i have major down
days where i don't want to get up and go
to the gym or maybe a food type that i
miss or i want to eat yeah of course
we're all going to have slips up but
what i mean that's just part of the
journey that's just part of life and
just got to keep on going this skirt is
a size
30. i got up to a 38
and when i wore this it was so tight
that afterwards the
front button popped off like you could
fit a whole nother person in there
maybe two
there's lots of space in there it's a
reminder me to never go back to where i
was
when i started i didn't even think about
the loose skin part of it because in my
mind i didn't even know i mean i was
hoping just to lose 20 pounds at that
point
and then when i really started to tell
that it was affecting me affecting my
workouts i mean it affects you mentally
the way you look at yourself you've done
all this hard work and then you look in
the mirror
and all you see is all this blue skin
they told me that i have a good
at least 20 inches that will be taken
off
around this whole area
my legs i know like it makes me kind of
tear up just thinking about it i wore
almost a size 6
x pants so i knew this would be
something i would struggle with
afterwards but what i didn't realize is
that i would be left with not really a
knee like all this skin that holds over
it and i just can't imagine
being able to have a knee
i
am very nervous about the surgery i know
it's a risky surgery
why did you not have the skin surgery
what happened i did not have the skin
surgery so we were good to go
and then the surgeon actually noticed
that there could be something wrong i
was having you know lots of pain always
in my upper leg i assumed obviously some
of it's going to be from all that loose
skin pulling down on my knee
when i saw a vein doctor and she was
like you have very very bad veins and we
need to get these taken care of before
you go under and have any
surgery like this it took
over 12 weeks of sessions
of having veins being stripped and
pulled and it was super uncomfortable
super painful but i just kept having in
my mind you're gonna have your skin
removal surgery you're gonna have your
skin removal surgery so then when i
found out that was taken away from me it
is a
confidence thing that i've had to work
on because mentally you can get inside
your head like i was supposed to have my
skin removal surgery and now i have 400
scars on my legs from being
poked so many times
this was supposed to be my victory story
of the loose skin being gone but instead
now i get to show off
the scarrings from something that i had
did not want was not supposed to happen
my sister my mother-in-law wanted to do
something special for me so they had
this necklace inscribed for me and it
says
lost
260 pounds and on the other side
it says gained a new life
i hope that next year that i am going to
have that skin removal surgery i just
want to get back and be able to go back
to my surgeon like i can't wait for that
day where he can evaluate me again and
be like okay let's get this scheduled
i guarantee you anyone can do this they
just have to want it they have to find
that fight
you