I remember the sickness was forever
I remember snuff videos
Cold Septembers, the distances we covered
The first time on the beach, the cops would round us up
Do it all again next week
An embryonic love
The first time yeah it scarred
Embarrass yourself for someone
Then you’re crying like a child
And the boy who took that from me
Still bugs me now
That's the thing, it lingers
And claws you when you're down
I was far too scared to hit him
But I would hit him in a heartbeat now
That's the thing with anger
It begs to stick around
So it can fleece you of your beauty
And leave you spent with nowt to offer
You hurt the ones who love you
You hurt them like they’re nothing
See I spent my teens enraged
Spiraling in silence
And I armed myself with a grin
'Cause I was always the joke yeah
Buried in their humor
Amongst the white noise and the boys' boys
Locker-room talkin' lads' lads
Drenched in cheap drinks and white bags
A mirrored picture of my old man
Screaming god, the kid's a dab hand
Canny chanter, but he looks sad
God, the kid looks so sad
She said the debt, the debt, the debt
So I thought about shifting gears
And then she worked and worked and she worked
Yeah luck came and died around here
I see a mother
Centrelink sees a number
She’s crying on the floor encumbered
I'm seventeen going under
I’m protected under covers
They treat you like you’re nothin’
Then you just become a number
Yeah I’m seventeen going under
Seventeen going under