I ain't never had a single debut, number one.
This, like, the normal music
I always make.
It ain't like I stepped outside the box with shit.
So I feel like that's just a sign of what's to come for me.
I originally made the song when I was out in like Canada.
And I had did the acoustic version.
For like a year straight,
everybody was asking me for that song.
My little brother'll keep telling me like, "Man,
when are you going to drop this song?"
Or my sister'll keep asking me about it.
Like, "When you going to drop this song?"
And then I had just
put in my search engine on Twitter,
"Only bitch I give a conversation to is Siri."
And I kept on swiping up
and it was like two minutes long people tweeting it.
It had like 2 million views on the lyric video.
6 million on the acoustic on YouTube.
40,000 TikTok videos.
I'm like, "No, I got to shoot this.
I got to do this."
My pops had told me one time that BMW stands
for black man winning.
So, that became my favorite car after that.
To be honest, my first car was an Impala.
Like I used that to learn how to drive.
I probably just learned how to drive like three years ago.
After that, like when I knew what something
that I feel like I look nice riding in,
I copped the X7.
I was really just thinking
about what I'm experiencing in life right now.
At that time I was leveling up as a rapper.
So that's what life was for me.
Planes flying, chains clinking.
And I was in the studio moving around a lot
and that's what was going on.
My son, that's like my little twin.
Parenthood, being a father,
that's like a beautiful thing.
You know, I always wanted a son.
So I just know like, you feel me,
I'm grateful for my situation.
- The only bitch I give a conversation to is Siri,
I made that the first verse,
and I had already had that in my notes.
I always try to say some type of punchline,
or some type of one line that people going to remember.
I start feeling chosen
like, when I really took the path
to wanting to be a rapper.
I had involvement in the streets too,
but it's like, I don't know.
For some reason it felt like I had angels looking
over me or watching out for me or looking out for me.
'Cause it was a lot of situations that I'm like, "Damn
like, why didn't it go this way?
Or why didn't it go that way?"
And I had this shit,
where I always see a specific number.
It's like an angel number, 757.
I got it tattooed on my neck, on one side of my neck.
I don't know which side.
And then I got the chosen one in the middle.
These days, I really just pray for balance of peace of mind.
Just pray to keep a level head, for real.
'Cause I know I'm gonna keep striving
to get the shit I want.
It's just the shit you really don't see,
because everybody like acting like everything perfect.
But, shit ain't perfect for nobody
no matter how good you're doing.
So I just really be praying for a peace of mind.
"Thinking about the old me,"
I'm really referring to my childhood,
and really how I was brought up.
A lot of things that I miss.
You know how like when your parents tell you
enjoy being a kid while you were a kid,
'cause when you get older
it's a lot of responsibilities that come with that.
So, it's just like when I have a kid in the world
when I could just do whatever I wanted to do.
Everybody got some demons that they fighting.
Everybody got struggle with something.
You can be struggling with depression.
You can have a bipolar disorder.
You can be fighting PTSD for something.
Everybody, you feel me, got a battle
that they facing everyday.
So, and behind closed doors, I could be going through a lot.
I feel like just reflecting
on all this shit I've been through up until this point.
I overcame a lot of it
but it's still fucked me to this day.
Like something that happened to me
way back when it could be a death in my family,
it could be where I had it,
just, I was just going through a real rough time.
And even though I made it out them situations
like it's still fuck with my mental.
I had left out the last line to the verse
really just to make it a cliffhanger.
And in the acoustic version,
I had cut it off like that too.
So I'm like, "Yeah, I might as well
keep it the same way."
My pop's a big Pac fan.
That was just the culture of our household
to listen to a lot of different music.
At first I was up on Lil Wayne,
but when I figured out I really wanted to rap,
that's when I started looking deeply into Tupac.
And then just finding out a lot of shit about him,
like the way he moved, you feel me.
What he stood for.
Just the music he was making, the messages that he had.
I just felt like that's what make him one
of the all time greats.
So that's something that you can marvel at.
Death come with being in the streets,
and a lot of times people just glorify what,
what going, the good that go on in the streets.
But it's a lot of ... the cons outweigh the pros
when it comes to the street life.
So, I was just really giving some people
with like a vivid image, like what could go down.
Man, I got problems with anxiety all day, every day.
Shit, I got anxiety right now.
But it's just like, just thinking about it,
like, you know how sometimes your thoughts
just so clouded in your head.
You got 1,000,001 thoughts at one time,
you damn near want to scream.
Like it'd be so,
so much times when my anxiety just get overbearing.
And I'm just like, "What the fuck."
It feel great, you feel me,
to know I'm still winning with all the shit,
and the trials and tribulations that I went through, shit.
'Cause I just, sometimes I just think about
like when shit was rough or we ain't have it all.
And then you look up and I'm in this big ass crib.
I'm doing an interview with y'all.
I got chains on my neck, shit like that.
That make everything that I went through,
like, it wasn't that bad.
I could walk into a room
and just read somebody's body language.
Or we can have a small conversation.
I feel like I damn near got a person figured out.
Yeah, that's definitely the reason why I ever speak
on depression, anxiety.
Just anything emotionally that I know affect a lot
of people out there.
'Cause I know it's a lot of people that can relate to it.
Like I say, everybody going through something.
Whenever I feel that, feel that way
or whenever I'm feeling down,
I'm going to speak on it in my music
just to help the next person get through
what they going through.
Years straight, everybody was
asking me for that song.
And it went crazy on TikTok,
And I was originally supposed to drop a feature
that I had with, with Durk and Kid LAROI for my next single.
But I had told them,
after I was seeing all the signs like, "No
I got to shoot this. I got to do this."