while her life may seem picture perfect
at first glance
this big little lie star has also
overcome a substantial amount of
adversity in her life
from fertility struggles to health
battles to personal
loss this is the tragic real-life story
of nicole kidman
at 17 years old nicole kidman's star was
already
on the rise but her life took a dramatic
turn when her mother janelle was
diagnosed with breast cancer leaving
kidman in a position to help her mother
through the scary ordeal
kidman told usa today in 2004
i was with her through her battle with
it when i was 17 years old i think that
imprinted on me for the rest of my life
seeing her go through that pain and also
seeing her strength and her grace
gave me my commitment to this cause for
the rest of my life
kidman has dedicated her time to
advocating and donating money to advance
breast cancer awareness and research
including teaming up with stanford
university's women cancer program
in 2009 to raise funds for future
projects
in july 2019 tabloids reported that
kidman allegedly rushed to australia to
escort her ailing mother to the hospital
following a medical emergency luckily
janelle appeared to be on the mend in an
instagram post that kidman shared in
march
2020 showing her sitting with her mother
in a smiling photo
happy birthday to my darling mama i love
you so much
this photo is so us after starring
alongside tom cruise in days of thunder
nicole kidman wed the action star on
christmas eve in 1990 when she was just
22 years old
she told red in 2017 i was so young when
i got married
i look back now and i'm like what i had
two kids by the time i was 27
and i'd been married for four years but
that's what i wanted
tom um really supported me and i'm so
so grateful to him for that
unfortunately kidman experienced
tragedy early on in her journey to
motherhood when she suffered an ectopic
pregnancy when she was 23 years old
to make matters worse kidman's ectopic
pregnancy was misreported by the press
as a miscarriage
which kidman described as a painful
experience in a 2007 interview with mary
claire
she explained it was wrongly reported so
it's huge news
and it didn't happen i had a miscarriage
at the end of my marriage but i had an
ectopic pregnancy at the beginning of my
marriage
it was incredibly traumatic for me
sometimes you share your grief
thankfully kidman and cruz wouldn't have
to wait long to become parents
the stars adopted their daughter
isabella who was born in 1992
and their son connor who was born in
1995.
nicole kidman experienced another loss
in 2001 when she experienced a
miscarriage during her marriage to tom
cruise
she told tatler in 2018 the loss of a
miscarriage is not talked about enough
that's massive grief to certain women
there's an enormous
amount of pain and an enormous amount of
joy on the other side of it
kidman finally experienced that joy for
herself in 2008 when she gave birth to
daughter sunday rose her first child
with her second husband
keith urban the couple later welcomed
daughter faith in 2010
with the help of a surrogate we were in
a place of um
desperately wanting another child kidman
told tatler that
as a mum who took the roots of adoption
and surrogacy to expand her family
she believes that society places undue
value on biological motherhood
she explained whether you're an adoptive
mother
whether you're a foster mother whether
you're a biological mother
it's the emotion of attaching to a child
and helping to guide them and rear them
that is important the same year that
nicole kidman suffered a miscarriage
tom cruise filed for divorce dissolving
their marriage just as
kidman's career was booming cruz and
kidman announced they were seeking a
divorce in february 2001
with their spokesperson telling people
citing the difficulties inherent in
divergent careers which
constantly kept them apart they
concluded that an amicable separation
seemed best for both of them at this
time the marriage was over by august
2001
and kidman was left to grapple with the
emotional toll of the divorce
in 2018 she told tatler that the split
weighed heavily on her the night she won
the academy award for best actress in
2003
for her role in the hours per tattler
surrounded by the trappings of success
wearing a designer gown
clutching that gold statuette that
should have symbolized so much
kidman felt more alone than ever she
asked herself
okay what am i actually doing where do i
go from here
what do i do i'm divorced i'm on my own
what's next kidman found lasting love
several years after her relationship
with cruz ended when she tied the knot
with country singer keith urban in june
2006
but in a 2005 interview with ladies home
journal kidman was still mourning the
loss of her first marriage
she said of the breakup that was a major
shock
he was huge still is to me he was just
tom
but to everybody else he is huge but he
was lovely to me
and i loved him i still love him
in the years since her divorce from tom
cruise nicole kidman has largely stayed
hush-hush about more intimate details
of their relationship and the reasons
behind the split in 2018
kidman finally opened up a bit alluding
to the possibly skewed power dynamics
she had with cruz and the reasons she
entered the relationship
beyond just romance as she told new york
magazines the cut
being married to tom cruise at 22 is
something i'm always reluctant to talk
about because i'm married now to the man
who is my great love
keith urban and it almost feels
disrespectful
but she went on to talk about the pros
and cons she experienced of getting
married at a young age to a hollywood
superstar
kidman continued i got married very
young but it definitely wasn't power for
me
it was protection i married for love but
being married to an extremely powerful
man kept me from being harassed i would
work
but i was still very much cocooned so
when i came out of it at 32
33 it's almost like i had to grow up
nicole kidman hasn't shared much about
her relationship with the two children
she adopted with her ex-husband
tom cruise son connor cruz and daughter
isabella cruz
fans took notice when in her acceptance
speeches at the 2017
emmys and the 2018 golden globes she
thanked sunday and faith the two
daughters she welcomed with her second
husband keith urban but
failed to mention conor and isabella
tabloids have claimed that nicole
allegedly stays in regular contact with
connor and isabella
however nicole who left the church of
scientology when she divorced tom
revealed in 2018 that connor and
isabella stayed in the church and didn't
clarify whether she still
has a relationship with her two adopted
children she told who i'm very private
about all that
i have to protect all those
relationships i know 150
that i would give up my life for my
children because it's what my purpose is
speaking about connor and isabella's
religious choices nicole said
they are adults they are able to make
their own decisions they have made
choices to be scientologists
and as a mother it's my job to love them
and i am an example of that tolerance
and that's what i believe that no matter
what your child does the child
has love and the child has to know there
is available love and i'm
open here nicole kidman's father anthony
kidman died suddenly in 2014 at age 75
after suffering a fall in 2019 nicole
recalled her painful grieving process
remembering how her daughter faith tried
to comfort her
the actress explained to tatler my
three-year-old said but you're not going
to be sad like this tomorrow are you
that's when you realize you have to be
okay because they need to know that
they're safe
that their mother isn't going to fall
apart i was beyond shattered
but i had to rally in 2017 kidman opened
up about how her mother dealt with grief
following anthony's death and told red
they were together for 50 years it's
awful to see
so sad she's in australia which is why
we all go back
four times a year in your 40s you are
grappling with all those things
trying to be the mother and the daughter
it's a lot
when nicole appeared in the play
photograph 51 on london's west end in
2015 her performance as a biochemist was
inspired by her late father and she was
often brought to tears during her
curtain calls by her memories of him
as she explained to red every
performance was for him
literally every time i was about to go
on i would speak to him i had this photo
of him when he was young in a lab coat
with his curly hair
so from playing in the lab as a girl to
going on stage wearing a lab coat
playing a biochemist
it was unbelievable for me nicole kidman
won multiple trophies for her role on
the hbo drama big little lies including
awards for best lead actress at the 2017
emmys
and the 2018 golden globes but playing
the troubled role of celeste a survivor
of domestic abuse who endured
multiple on-screen beatings was far from
easy for the star
kidman described her husband keith urban
somewhat odd reaction
when he saw the bruises caused by her
intense scenes depicting domestic
violence
speaking to vogue in 2017 kidman said
i would go home at night sometimes and
be in a lot of pain
because i was being thrown around
physically i was really bruised
at one point keith was like i'm going to
take a photo of your back because it's
covered in deep
massive bruises he was devastated seeing
it but then he would say
but i have an artist wife kidman later
revealed that playing celeste
actually caused her a lot of distress
and she declined to answer whether she
ever experienced a relationship similar
to the one depicted on screen
she told tatler in 2018 i would come
home and
cry after doing big little lies i would
cry alone
i would sit and i would have a bath and
cry and feel
very distressed and not know exactly
what to do about it
i'm carrying the weight of this person
in me
nicole kidman has opened up about her
mental health on numerous occasions
sharing the times in her life she's
experienced depression
kidman revealed that her divorce from
tom cruise left her in a dark state
and told who in 2012 i married tom
really fast and really young but i don't
regret that because it got me bella
and connor and i did have a fantastic
marriage for a long period
then when it didn't work out i had to
really dig deep and find my way through
depression but i have no regrets about
all of it
it was all a part of growing up kidman
has also struggled with difficult
feelings as a result of her film
projects
in addition to the difficulties of
playing abuse survivor celeste in big
little lies kidman also recalled that
her role in 2018's destroyer in which
she played a troubled detective
left her in a precarious mental state
she told variety of the role in 2018
i was very deeply depressed it was the
point where my
husband was like when the hell is this
going to end
kidman who wore prosthetics on her face
to alter her appearance for her
destroyer role also remembered that
husband keith urban was disturbed when
he first saw a version of the film he
was weirded out wouldn't you be if you
were married to one person and they show
up looking like that
luckily urban and kidman appeared to be
stronger than ever
and celebrated their 16th wedding
anniversary in june 2020
as kidman told red of her marriage in
2017
that's really big for us it was really
up and down for the first three months
we've been through a lot and we're
stronger than ever
i say that while touching wood and no
way in a
boastful way i just say it with wonder
absolute wonder check out one of our
newest videos right here plus
even more nikki swift videos about your
favorite celebs are coming soon
subscribe to our youtube channel and hit
the bell so you don't miss a single one