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ah
another day another wave of anxiety and
a visit from the untrue scenario wizard
in my head
oh and look self doubt came for the
party too luckily this quote
saved the day for me it was in one of my
oracle card
booklets and it said if life does
something that causes a disturbance
inside of you
instead of pulling away let it pass
through you like the wind
if you want to be free you have to learn
to stop fighting all these human
feelings
and this couldn't have came at a better
time even if you don't believe in oracle
cards
they really make you question some of
the things that you're doing
and allows you to make shifts in your
life that just don't align with you so
even if you don't believe i feel like
these cards are a great resource for you
to connect with yourself
oh yeah and i bought some candles the
other day i haven't bought anything for
myself
in actually like two years so it's kind
of weird
investing in myself because i've
invested so much in other things but
it also feels pretty good so basically
this is
my weeks i didn't do so well this week
so i'm gonna probably move this stuff
around
obviously i don't get everything
uploaded and done in a week sometimes i
get
creatively stuck but this week seems to
be a creative week for me and i think
and i'm praying that i can get all of
this done in a week i'm not gonna
sugarcoat anything
i have those days too even as a mindset
coach and for that
i get you i've been there there's nobody
out there that has
never felt this way in their lives
a lot of the thoughts that go through my
head are 80 invalid and untrue
we have two minds we have the thinking
mind and the observing mind
the thinking mind is a monkey mind we
have to use our observing mind to really
think
is this true do i know this for sure and
just
call out the bs so before i start work
i'm actually picking
out where i want to go for my sponsor
because they told me that i can choose
anything from these lists
so it's really hard to do because
everything looks so much
fun like so many ninja type things and
that's kind of like what the video is
about
i'd like to dive a little bit deeper
into the mindset
of a ninja during this video and ask
them you know what sort of focus they
needed and training they needed and
meditation and all of that stuff so okay
so now it is lunchtime and i'm making my
favorite coconut
curry let me know if you guys really
like this behind the scenes sort of day
in the life
boring stuff i think it's kind of boring
but maybe you guys don't
let me know in the comments down below
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here is my dinner today yuji gave me
some of his beer
kimchi and rice cake and mushrooms and
salad
nice and warm underneath it's heated
this evening we sat around our kotatsu
which is our heated table and watched
the japanese bachelorette which i don't
like so much but my husband
loves it there's
zero kissing zero touching
and then they get engaged eugene told me
to be
quiet so we can watch the bachelorette
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after calling out the bs in my head it's
time for a cleanse
another do nothing day where i follow my
intuition my intuition was telling me to
explore
somewhere i've never explored before i'm
the type of person who really
doesn't enjoy going to the same place
more than once i actively search for a
new experience because it inspires me
it breathes new life into me what's the
one thing you do to inspire yourself
that's where your happy place will be
during times of self-sabotage and doubt
save prince club the mascot
we didn't realize on this particular day
there was a baseball game
during a pandemic and it was extremely
unnecessarily crowded the team
was the lions which reminded me of the
lions football team back home where i'm
from
except their mascot was so anime
anyway we headed towards the woods
totoro forest
yep miyazaki used this forest as
inspiration for the film my neighbor
totoro
he himself used to take walks for
creative ideas in this rural portion of
tokyo and it was so beautiful and
peaceful
just as i had hoped
okay my makeup is coming off because my
eyes are watering it's kind of cold but
like not at the same time so
so we're going to totoro forest which is
where hayao miyazaki
used to live and he used to walk through
that forest and this forest was the
inspiration for totoro
so we're gonna go and check it out just
enjoy the nature today
because sometimes you just need to
schedule in
a break and a way to just connect with
yourself
and i think this is such a good
opportunity to do that so
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look at the bamboo trees so look at the
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bamboo
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this is so beautiful look at that forest
over there
look at the scarecrow
little did we know totoro forest would
be lined with
love hotels there's like love hotels
lining all of these streets it's so
crazy this one looks
nice i think we counted about 10 on our
magical journey to visit totoro
love hotel number seven no longer in
totoro's forest we're in like love hotel
forest now there's one over there
but don't worry we found the forest
eventually and we were able to live
our studio ghibli
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it too dreams i hear you can't make it
to just one wow it's so beautiful
and all this noise
take me home
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that's weird i've never seen as a
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leeches
this is how the cicada is born then
they're in the ground
and then they come out they mate and
then they die so they basically
have sex and then they die yeah it's
kind of sad
consistency honestly you might be
wondering
how do you do all that you do every
single day
with the content creation the coaching
the traveling
having free time and do nothing days i
know it looks like a lot but honestly
my dreams are what fuels me no days are
perfect
i hit walls but i bounce back
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life is a beautiful process of
unlearning all that we were told that we
would amount to
and take that leap to learning who we
truly are
my dreams are claimed by me i don't
think about whether they will work out
or not
if i lose everything i still have
purpose
and that is to inspire others and myself
even if there's a hiccup
or a detour that i have to take on my
journey or a roadblock
i'll get back somehow one way or another
because i made my dreams mine
i have so many paths i can take that
will allow me
to be happy because i know my purpose
it's on my side and that's what i hope
to teach others
it's my mission my passion it's
everything that drives me
every single day and don't think for a
second
that you can't have that too it's your
power
you need to claim it and really no one's
gonna give you a map
you have to walk your own path what a
gorgeous house right there so
i feel like when you come to the
countryside you can see how
hard people work you get the food on
your table i think it's very like
there's such a process for everything
when you have problem with creative
confidence it's good to kind of see the
process
in between instead of seeing the final
product and then you can gain that
motivation and that confidence to do
start a project or to cook something or
to become something or to
make something coming into the
countryside like this you can see that
process so i think it's really
interesting wow what a beautiful home
little countryside japanese town so
beautiful
my husband decided to take us on a
detour through the japanese countryside
neighborhoods and it was full of farms
beautiful fruit and vegetables and just
emptiness
away from the craziness of tokyo and the
weather is so nice
isn't it i love it you're just taking
your shortcut but i don't know
where we are
no your makeup is always on point
so what is happening what's this
i like this though it's very creative
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in japan they usually like lay out their
they put their eggs out or they're like
vegetables and you
they trust you to pay right so like in
america
people would just steal like in japan
they just lay everything out
they trust you with their stuff that
you'll pay the price right
yeah we walked and walked to our
destination and
found that the place we wanted to go was
closed
due to the corona virus we should have
checked
we walked all the way to the total house
and i guess
it is closed so i'm really bummed out
we should have checked but i guess um
that's it
yeah i'm so bummed out we'll have to
come back though but i'll show i'll
insert some pictures and photos here of
totoro
deep in the woods you can find
kurosuke's house which has a lot of
ghibli memorabilia and it's basically
the city center
so you can meet totoro and see other
things related to the ghibli movies and
i was really bummed out but we'll come
back again soon
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we had a small snack from the
convenience store after walking back
and i think the one thing i got out of
this day is the fact that i got in a lot
of exercise and really absorbed nature's
energy
a much needed quest and after a long day
we went
to the mall because that's what you do
after a long day
so we're in udaiba now because we just
wanted to end the day doing something
else
i've shown this place so many times in
my video so we're just gonna see a
little bit of
some snippets of the day but yeah
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so creepy
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oh look how cute he is what's the one
thing you could do
right now to change the way you're
living for the better
it could be the smallest step that's all
it took for me
is it sitting at your desk turning off
the tv
going for a short walk or maybe
something simple like
applying for that job you always wanted
and ignoring
all those lies in your head
i love you
self-doubt and self-sabotage is just
that monkey mind in our head and our
mind
can be our biggest liar
tell it to chill out oh my god it looks
so real in my camera it looks real
these are pretty dang it's become
fashion now this is for winter this is
great for winter
the reality is you choose your reality
we have 100 control over our actions
not our emotions and our actions are
what truly matters in the end
comment below if this resonates with you
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oh my god that's so cool though it's an
arm wrestling thing
this game you actually yeah you have to
like push push push push push push
and then this will like go either way
get it get it get it get it oh i got big
it was time to head home for real after
a long day
and i didn't regret it for a second no
day
is ever wasted
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