Try and tickle something inside you, your weird humour.
You belong in the most secret part of you.
Don't worry about cool.
Make your own uncool, make your own.
Make your own world.
If you fear make it work for you.
Draw and paint your fear and anxiety.
And stop worrying about big deep things such as "To decide on a purpose and way of life.
A consistent approach to even impossible end or even an unimagined end."
You must practice being stupid, dumb, unthinking, empty.
Learn to say you to the world every once in a while.
You have every right to.
Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder.
Wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out.
The worst thing you can think of is see what happens but mainly relax, and let everything
go to hell.
You are not responsible for the world.
Only responsible for your work so just do it.
Don't think that your work has to perform to any preconceived idea form or flavour.
It can be anything you want it to be.
But if life would be easier for you if you stop working then stop.
Don't punish yourself.
However, I think that this is so deeply ingrained in you that it would be better to do.
Would be better if you had the confidence just to do the stuff and not even think about
it.
Can’t you leave the “world” and “ART” alone and also quit fondling your ego.
I know that you (or anyone) can only work so much and the rest of the time you are left
with your thoughts.
But when you work or before your work you have to empty your mind and concentrate on
what you are doing.
After you do something it is done and that’s that.
After a while you can see some are better than others but also you can see what direction
you are going.
I’m sure you know all that.
You also must know that you don’t have to justify your work — not even to yourself.
You also must believe in your ability.
I think you do.
So try the most outrageous things you can — shock yourself.
You have at your power the ability to do anything.