"So Am I" is really about embracing where you come from, who you are and loving all
your unique features and knowing that nobody is like you.
You are unique, you are beautiful, in your own way.
I really like to have a message like that on my songs because I feel like people, especially
in this generation with social media, we need to hear that.
I need to hear it some days.
I wake up, sometimes I'm like: ugh what's wrong with me, but then you need to be like,
back up; we're only human, our flaws make us perfect.
Aside from wanting to be on stage and performing cause that's my passion, the first passion
really, overall, now that I'm getting all these responses is really to heal with your
words and lyrics.
Lyrics go a long way, people feel these things.
I remember growing up and feeling lyrics, and it changed my life.
For me to have a song that has such a deep message, it really makes me feel great to
know that I'm spreading a positive message, that's super important to me.
The first time I felt like a misfit is in seventh grade when I did get kicked out of
middle school.
And, it's funny cause I didn't do anything wrong, I just stood up to a bully.
And I was so upset at the time, but then I'm like: you know what, I do feel like a misfit,
I feel crazy.
Who gets kicked out of seventh grade?
It's crazy.
Dark and twisted, it can mean so many different things.
I get to travel the world all the time, and it's beautiful, and I feel so blessed to be
doing that.
But even now, it's like, I'll have days where I'm feeling down, and it's definitely not
all sunshine, I'll tell you that.
Do what you want, it's your life.
You live one life.
I'm 100 percent Albanian blood, and I feel like my background or where my family came
from, they've always taught me to work super hard for what I have and they worked super
hard for what they have.
Growing up, they've instilled in me to really stand up for what I believe in and be opinionated.
So, it's kind of in my DNA in a way.
You hear all these voices around you, especially in school.
That's why I wanted to have the message in school and the music video, because that's
where bullying starts and that's where the core is where we start becoming kind of sad
in a way.
Personally, those lyrics, to me, just mean, just like when you hear these voices around
you, talking bad about you, you just gotta brush it off because everybody is misunderstood.
I think now, in this day and age, everybody's trying to go with the trend and everybody's
trying to be cool and everybody's like: I just want to do what I'm seeing on TV or what
I'm seeing in movies.
But, really, do what your heart wants to do, what your heart desires, in a way.
I was going with the trend for the longest time, then hated my outfits.
I was like: I don't like this, I'm just doing what's cool.
Anybody can feel misunderstood, anybody can feel like that and sometimes that is being
called crazy.
Then you start believing you're crazy, people say: you're a misfit.
But, in reality, you're doing you.
So Sid and Nancy were definitely not great role models but they were really care-free
and did whatever the fuck they wanted to.
The dualities of it all, we're not one thing.
We're so many different things put into one.
So, when someone wants to categorize us into one thing, it's like: No.
We are many different layers, like an onion almost.
In a way you're bound to your craft and you're free also because it's your craft and you
love to do it.
For me, the duality is everything, and everything in my art.
Also, I like theatrical visuals, so for me, it was super, super, super important to have
these dualities in the bridge.
You can be strong then be weak then still be strong the next day, it's all about learning how
you get up from your weaknesses.
Like literally, call me whatever the hell you want to call me, as long as you come and
join me and be a misfit and be an outcast and not fitting into this format.