i spent a lot of years in the military as a green beret and a lot of injuries
over the years and a couple medevacs too and anyway i pretty much destroyed my body
and i had a motorcycle accident in 2008 where i broke my back and i
i was a paraplegic for they didn't know if i was going to be permanent there wasn't a total
severance but we didn't know for sure but i was a single dad and i just i couldn't stop so i had to
overcome that and i have my own things as far as like mind over matter type of thing that i've done
this you know mind over matter in the military because it's not easy to become a green beret
um so i just believed that the mind was more powerful than anything and
that kind of drove me into a spiritual side and i was working on my ptsd and trying to heal that
and um i met my wife and then we went on journeys for shamanism and and
um also i was learning um neurofeedback because to lower the my high betas right so i did that and i
was convinced of that so i wanted to learn that for my veterans to help other veterans and then
once we finished all that we came to kansas and we opened up a retreat center
for veterans that our idea was for veterans with ptsd to try and help them out and help them get
out of the high beta and get them off the drugs and alcohol and get him to help him get a life
back in and we did that for a few years and then my knees just finally gave out and i had
them replaced and i was in pretty good shape and i've recovered pretty well for a lot of stuff and
so i figured well we'll just do it a week apart and um when i woke up from the second surgery
both my feet were on fire like literally like being in a fire
and you can't can't get away from it and that's been my story all these these last two years
went to the doctors all the specialists and to find out what we could do and we tried them all
most failed ones that or i was allergic to medications put into seizures
all these types of things i when we went through those and i just like hey just cut my feet off
you know just get rid of them you know i'll rock some fins right and get out of here
but they didn't want to do that because they couldn't guarantee me that the pain would go away
so i've just seen one doctor here after another over the last couple years just to
tell me that there's nothing we can do here some pills and go on your way and uh
i get praying for a teacher or something that was going to come to me
and and teach me how to how to heal myself i knew there's something out there
i just couldn't figure it out i just couldn't get around it couldn't figure it out and then jana
won this wonderful gift when we got here i told jana you know i'm i'm on empty i didn't have
anything left because you know there's suicides come into you know my thoughts over the last year
probably last six months seven months something like that just because i don't want to be in
pain all the time and i told her i was done and didn't have anything left and we got here and
day three was it uh day three the morning day three we were laying down after that in my end and
i was just told that i needed to ask my body for forgiveness for what i did to it and when i did
um i heard a back i forgive you and then i felt this divine just light just all over my body
and for the first time in two years my pain started to lighten up a bit
yeah then it just kept happening and just more and more and then um we went on the walk yesterday
and i didn't even know if i was going to be able to walk at all without both crutches and
on the you know because the beach and all that and a trance and i was afraid of that so i was
like i'm going to leave one behind and left it behind and i was able to do it after the night of
the kaleidoscope we saw that vision of those images and you see you could see the coherence
in it and dr joe said i wonder what this person's feeling right and i was like wow that that's
pretty big i guess and so anyway when we got out there that when we were doing our meditation
before the walk that vision came into my head and i saw that and i and i was i had coherence
everything was just i could i could feel all this energy and then the wind came
and the wind came and it just it turned me into a turbine it turned me in i i was a marvel character
you know it was like the flame on type thing and it was just all this power and then um when dr
joe in in the meditation said hey okay open your eyes and it's time to walk i looked out into my
future and i'm like well i'm not taking this stick and i threw the crutch down and went to walking
and as i was walking the energy was just like no this is too slow you you've gotta
run guy you gotta run in a spirit telling me i gave you this what are you gonna do with it
you do something with it or what and it's like yeah i'm gonna make i mean yeah
when the spirit tells you to run you run and and i ran and i haven't re i've i haven't run
really since i used to be an avid runner and i haven't run since 2008 after a motorcycle accident
and uh i did and it's my passion and actually on my mind movie it was the very first picture that
i had on there was to run again i just wanted to run again mean i was moving i after not even
you know being able to hardly walk for two years i don't know how where this energy came from to
to move out with the walking yesterday the same type of thing second time we stopped we were i
was facing out to the ocean and joe said put your hands on your heart you know and then meditation
put your hands on your heart and i did and he says well open up and i said kind of open my
arms like this my hands up like this and the wind came and it was just like aimed at my chest and
i started doing like a flipping chicken you know with all this energy coming in and it was just
so amazing just i could fill all this and i was just like how is this even possible
just so thankful to have that opportunity to see that and to see what's possible
and with that gratitude just wanting to
take this back to my people ah my vets are everything you know
22 a day are killing themselves if you save one i've lost a lot of my friends
so it's uh
very personal to try and help them out with this and that's i really think that you know because we
won this real thank you hill um i really think it was the divine bringing us here so i could
get this and take back my people and say look if i can do it you know me if i can do it you can do it
you can find it you know and you can find the aliens there it's divine it's it's all around
us we just forgot about it you know the one thing i've been thinking of and saying all week is that
you know you're only you're only one meditation away from perfection you know it might be the next
one you might be your next meditation and you can get everything you want you know everything you
need i got everything more than i could ever hope and pray for um came came true to me and now i'm
going to be more available to my wife my family i think the military should have this as part of
their program when you get out of the service to help re prepare you to get back into the community
i think everybody should be doing this and how many the pharmaceutical companies would
lose a lot of money on their on their on their depression medications and all these other things
because we don't need it we don't need it all we need is our connection to the creator