My name is Big Icky also known as Uno Mash, We're in Pasadena, California and uh right
now we are in the projects, King's Manor, this is home to the Pasadena Dever Lanes but
the known click right here is the Project Gangster Blood, PJB.
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I was born and raise out here, grew up on Fairoaks and Washington, my whole family is
from Pasadena, once I started gangbanging back in middle school, you feel me, I started
hanging with the homies getting influenced by the crowd around me, kind of got sucked
into the matrix and became who I am, but it didn't lessen me as a man.
I think it made me stronger in a sense because discipline that comes from it, it gives it
your character, you know what I am saying?
Everyday you got to deal with the choices, it's a regret, it's like a pile of regrets
that stay on a gangster’s head, if you're gangbanging without regrets, you probably
ain’t never even did anything.
Nigg**s be lying and they go home and live these fake lives on the internet where everybody
think it's all positive, but I know the real, man, and I know how deep the gang banging
shit go because I done did it forever, from my whole life, you know.
I ain't new to this shit, niggas know me, I'm well-known out here.
The big homie Bogart, salute, that's another gee homie that's 100, the big homie Bogart
was doing the interview back in the days on Raymond and Howard, with the news people and
they was questioning him about the Lanes and all that, and the nigga wind up making like
an accidental typo, saying some Devil Lane type shit like not knowing it was Denver the
whole time, so once it start spreading the news and the propaganda behind it associated
with it, the homies actually adapted the identity, thought it was kind of, So Whoop business,
the Devil Lanes is hard, yeah we feeling that whole title, we feeling that swag, but then
you have to the homies in the Bity (Los Angeles), that was like you know, its Denver my nigga,
what's this Devil Lane shit?
You can't be mad at them because in a sense they might feel like that's separation so
but you still got homies that’s Devil Lanes you got homies that Denver Lanes, but niggas
need to understand it, and listen to me now it's all the same period, you disrespect a
Devil you disrespect at Denver, you disrespect a Mafia, you disrespect a Lane, it’s all
the same, nigga shouldn’t have to say that more than once, it's not rocket science.
If you’re no strong mentally they can easily influence you, and that's why the little homies
be getting fucking in their head because the big homies grab them up and plant that seed
of mistrust and disloyalty, fuck they hold the whole structure off,
so yeah when I was a young nigga I don’t want to put the homie name out there, he resting
in peace anyway now, but he kind of introduced me to some shit that was a little darkside,
you know, it was a little evil, we was on some satanic worship and we I was actually
doing that for about maybe seven, eight years, I was heavy into the to the satanic worship,
my mom and my family thought I was crazy, and shit, you know, I'm talking to the preachers,
left and right asking is heaven open for niggas like me, and they can't even give me an answer,
you know what I’m saying, and if you ask me how I got in this shit man, I can honesty
say I wanted power at a young age, I wanted to be balling like the rest of the niggas,
I didn’t want to be out here on no struggle, struggle nigga shit, so if a nigga telling
me the easiest way to fame is just is to commit myself to Satan at that point of my life that's
what I did, you know what I am saying, that's what I did, you know, I don't have no regrets
on doing that because it made me who I am.
Man I've seen a lot of shit, when you worship the devil you don't see shit the normal nigga
see, and I always tell the homies that niggas be playing and this shit, saying it oh ain't
no God, it ain't no Devil, okay that's bool [cool], you you want to know I'm telling any
nigga right now, if you want to know, on Blood, on Lanes, is God or the devil is real, worship
the devil, and you're going to find out how real this shit is my nigga.
Man you probably look I me like an animal if I was to tell you the kind of shit that
we was doing just to gain recognition from Satan, and the first thing the first thing
Satan wants you to do is denounce the Holy Ghost which is which is considered the number
one sin in the Bible, the number one unforgivable sin in the Bible, if any nigga study did the
Bible knows that, you know, and that's fucked up to hearing that for a nigga like me, I
did all of that, over and over numerous times blasphemy against the Holy Ghost, so I always
be thinking sometimes, like low key, if there is a heaven or hell I'm already on my way
down, you know.
Speaking for me and my crowd like I said I'm not gonna put no names out there, cuz that's
something I don't, I don't know if everybody want to disclose the fact that they done played
with the devil, a nigga rather tell you he fu#ked a nigga in the but, or snitched on
paperwork before he…
I'm just telling you, niggas and I told her when I tell the homies I was doing my interview,
my little crowd that, you know, got down with the dark side with, niggas like, don't put
my name out there, that was back then and I am gonna respect that, you know what I am
saying, I respect that because, I don't give a fu*k, I'm gonna speak the truth i'ma tell
the truth.
When you caught up in that, in that Satanic shit, it's like every day you want to purposely
do something to hurt a motherfucker or a kill a motherfucker, or everyday your main focus
is to go shoot or hurt somebody because you want to absorb, you want to desorb the motherfucking
energy from your enemies, you know what I’m saying, period.
Like my nigga Sinister used to tell me some Swans, rest in peace, you want to absorb the
energy from your enemies, ya know what I am saying, so that's what we was on, we was on
the real dark side, the left, they call it the left hand, you know what I'm saying, in
the Satanic circle it’s called the left hand, we got the right hand, which is the
Godly walk, which is what half the society professed to walk, and then you got the left
hand path where…
where niggas like me was caught up in, you know I'm saying, but I would never go back
on that shit man and if God, if they do say Jesus forgives everything, then I hope he
forgive a nigga now, you know, I was doing a seance in my room one night, doing a blood
sacrifice, and I was invoking the spirit world, saying my chats and all that out of nowhere,
the whole motherfucking bed in my room literally like yanked off the wall, I’m talking about,
it took like 8 niggas to carry this bed in the first place, the shit was one of those
big wood heavy thick as beds man, it scared me so much man, I jumped out the bed, ran,
fell off all in my room, was trying to cut the light, I knew it was some demonic shit,
the feeling, I done had muthafucking Crips draw down on me with pistols, I done had niggas
shoot at me dead bang range, so I know it the feels like when you about to die, I know
exactly what it feels like, and that's exactly how I felt in that room, and there was no
reason for me to been feeling like that, because we always pray to the 13th candel, we always
do the same shit in the satanic rituals for some reason when that night while I was doing
this ritual, I think, think God kinda of maybe pulled his his little aura away from me and
let me see just how real Satan is, and it got real, he tried, he tried to manifest in
my bedroom period.
Nigga, I was not on one motherfucking drug, nothing, Lane's, I'm was sitting the best
sober nigga, this real shit coming from me though.
Alex: and that was a turning point for you?
Icky: Hell yeah, nah, hell nah, nah it wasn't, prison, that was the turning point, sitting
in this cell for motherfucking five years straight, that was the turning point because
I was meeting a lot of niggas that had religious beliefs and they was older Blood homies, and
they were solid as fuck you know I'm saying, they was like nigga, why you, why are you
professing your love to the devil?
Do you think that's some gangster shit?
You can be a gangster and get with God, you know saying.
They was telling me I was too intelligent and I have my whole life ahead of head of
myself, so I was I committing myself to something that wasn't gonna lead to progress, you know
what I’m saying.
I kind of understand it but then I don't give a fuck, I always felt doomed once I did it,
my first Satanic, anything with Satan, I felt doomed from that point on, so I never really
felt like I could re-connect with Jesus, so my whole life I've been running from it.
Alex: Now are there people still in PDL that are into the devil worshiping, is that still
as active thing?
Icky: Yeah I got a few homies, I got a few homies that slide with the dark side.
Alex: And how do you feel when you when you interact with them?
Icky: I'm a love them for how ever they is, I'm gonna accept any homie for however he
is, I just aint accepting no snitches.
If the homie come tell me he believe in Lucifer, I'm gonna give that nigga my hand, shake it,
and embrace that nigga, if he tell me he believed Jesus and that’s his God and divine light,
then by all means, Imma embrace him the same way, you know what I'm saying, I am not here
to judge none of my homies, we just got to love each other and focus on eachother, I'll
be tired of niggas focusing on shit that's irrelevant to the homies, niggas need to clean
the eternal beef of the Lanes out period, let's stop worry about all these other hoods
that's on the Lane’s dick, let's just fix our own shit because at once upon a time we
was the most dominant niggas in the SGV.
Alex: Now do you ever feel tempted to go back to the dark side?
Icky: Man I feel tempted every fucking day and that's pathetic nigga, I'll tell my wife
all the time and she tells me I'm pathetic.
Like nigga, you, you sound like a dumb nigga, because okay if I'm hungry, and I don’t
mean for no provisions, I mean for some currency, and if a nigga got a bundle of it and I feel
like, you know, I want to get it, and I want to get it to the easiest way possible to me,
then I might I might say Satanic prayer, you know like, “Bless us to this robbery may
I succeed and getting everything I need from this nigga,” because you can't ask Jesus
this shit, but Jesus wants you to protect yourself and love yourself to, and I don’t
want niggas to think I'm pushing the Santanic shit, because I'm not, I'm not telling no
homie to push that, but I'm just telling you like if you go out to rob a nigga, if you
wake up today and say you're going to go rob a nigga, you demonic as a motherfucker, you
got demonic thoughts too, you know I'm saying.
If you say today I'm finna go kill a crab, you might, you finna go kill a niggas son,
or kill somebody you know I'm saying that that means something to somebody, but what's
gonna stop you though, nothing, it's not going to be Jesus, he ain't gonna come down to stop
you.
They play a divine game of chess with us, and Satan aint going intervene either.
But I don’t worship Satan no more though, and I keep telling the homies that, when they
asking me that, and I don't worship Jesus either anymore, I worship God, I believe it
I believe in a higher being, I don't like all these names of things that they got because
I get confused my nigga, when I was in prison I studied the Torah, I'm fucking look at the
Quran, I looked at the…
I read the Dead Sea scrolls one night maybe, who's to say, all I'm saying is I don't like
the names attached to the religious shit.
I don't like it because if fuck niggas up.
It's just like paperwork, you know what I’m saying, you attaching another stigma to yourself
and you lose who you are.
It's the same religion, you attach this religion to yourself, and you loose who you are.
Let's just all be humans, mortals, that's it, that's all we have to focus on being.