Hey whats up guys its your boy faze Rain coming at with you with a new youtube video today
I know in a very weird background right now, but I'm in my bathroom because Lucas is sleeping right there like literally right there
He's on the other side of my wall and if I make a video over there in my room
He could definitely hear me could probably honestly still hear me right now
But I don't know I just wanted to be quiet
let him sleep do his thing and
It doesn't really matter what the background is because we're just gonna be talking me and you guys and this is gonna pretty much be
My real reason to why I have not been posting
I know I haven't been posting for a while
But there's a couple different reasons like what it started off originally to what it is now
There's two completely different reasons cuz I haven't been making videos for a while, and I feel like you guys deserve an explanation
So I've been making videos for like almost 11 years. Maybe even more than eleven years
I don't know since I was 10 years old. It's been a very fucking long time and it started off completely passion
You know it's completely like whoa?
I just want to put my video game clips online to show people or oh I want to make this Naruto music
I used to make Naruto anime music videos like that kind of stuff Dragon Ball Z videos
WWE videos Sonic videos like I used to make all kinds of videos
And it was primarily for the point that has put it out there. I didn't care
I know anything obviously I never had viewers or anything like that or it made a doll or nothing
It says and when I started getting paid from all this stuff and when I started getting more subscribers
It was still passion it was always still passion, but I feel like over the last year
It's changed and I'm not saying with the content. I'm you know honestly. Yeah, the content. I was doing was not my passion
I was uploading
Random videos that I don't even care about but it was just to get them up just to be that daily youtuber and that daily
Youtuber life is really what like killed me like really this one made me hate this so goddamn much is that I wasn't even being
real with myself
And it doesn't matter how I?
Acted you guys always felt like I was myself on camera and that never changed, and I wasn't being fake like that
But I was being fake to myself for my reasonings, and I don't fuck with that and I couldn't live that anymore
And it was hard for me to realize that up until my CPM dropped because in March if you guys didn't realize or I made
A video about it, but like YouTube stopped paying me for I guess all the vape lord videos and stuff
It's kind of wack, but it's all good. I'm very happy that it happened. Honestly like I know it sounds crazy like woah
You're happy by not getting paid yeah
I yeah
It really opened my eyes to a lot of things when I came back and I made that jet ski video like a while ago
My CPM was fine. I'm pretty sure I don't know what it is now
It was fine back then through that time of me not being a youtuber when my CPM was bad. I realized how much I
Liked it and it's not about not being a youtuber
But it's like not being the type of person I was because of the daily youtuber life. It really changes you like it
It doesn't maybe doesn't change everyone, but it certainly changed me
You know what I mean, and it made me start caring about little things and I was doing little things for greed
You know what I mean
It was never money motivated like I always meant that when I said that when I said that I'm not doing this for the money
And like you know what's I always meant that but there's a certain things about your character that?
Changes because you're a daily youtuber
And I fucking hated that you know such as just
Titling things and thumbnailing things definitely just to get more views putting random things into videos to get more likes like it's smart
technically because like
There's so many youtubers doing it now
You got to be the biggest one and it's a business and it's like fan interact and all that shit
You got to get the most likes the most views the most subscribers all that shit
So you do all these little tricks here and there to try to get more
and it's just I don't fuck with that man like like I would do fall those fees right and I would tell myself how I
Do these because I love all in people and making them, happy and shit, but realistically am I not only doing it
Just so people can retweet the tweet so I can follow them by giving it just a retweet hunger thing like low-key
Agreed thing and that's what really like open my eyes like a lot of the shit
I was doing it was like Oh leave a like on this for this do this for this like it take it like
Everyone fucking does it so it makes you feel like it's okay, but it's not okay
And I'm not trying to throw shade at any youtubers. I don't care
Maybe they're doing it for different reasons, but I'm just being honest about my personal reasons
And I felt greedy and I just felt fake man, and I don't fuck with that
I don't I don't like that and even like it's crazy like I uploaded that Call of Duty video yesterday
And it did good, and I found myself check in real time a lot to see how many views you got it's like, bro
What the fuck are you doing you don't care about this shit, but I'm saying that easily you can get right back into it
So that's what really changed, and that's what I really had to figure out is that I love YouTube
I love Faze , and I love you guys
That's never gonna change, but it's not about you guys, but it's just I didn't like being a daily youtuber
I didn't like doing that stuff because it really brought out the worst of myself, like the greed, the like
Just disgust and shit not that I'm not about and I did it for so long so it felt normal
And I felt like it was a part of me, but I'm not that kind of dude
I don't really about like numbers, and all I got used to is my fucking life like you don't understand all day
I was your plan analytics check my social they check this how much number how many subscribers how many of you is like dude are
you serious I get a grip like there's so much more to life than just numbers and shit and like I don't know I just
kind of
wanted to put my efforts into something where it could help a lot of people instead of just myself like I was in phase and
I was working for phase, and I was trying to blow fades out
But realistically I was only caring about myself and my channel in my shit
And I would upload these garbage videos every day just to like get him up for that daily youtuber grind like
Shitty like do you think I care to look at an optical illusion like you really you think are you think I feel well
Well is it is it a fox, or is it a frog, but you think I care really like goddamn
Dude, like I don't want to be making those kind of videos. It's just till I can make them
You know I mean like that's what changed
But then when I started making like like we have a whole management based around phase now
And we de makin a lot of like really cool videos
And they're really fun to record like I don't think I saw that sound table video
But like I love that videos so much like I think it's the funniest video ever had so much fun
We just recorded a rock-paper-scissors slap video those videos are fun
I want to work with
Everyone else in the house to make videos for face like I don't want to be a part of you
I want to do that stuff, but I don't wanna be greedy about it, and I feel like if I'm a daily youtuber
I'm always gonna naturally like get those toxic like attributes from being a daily youtuber does that make sense?
I don't know
I'm just trying to be honest with you guys and be open to the eyes like I don't want to be that guy no more
You know I mean
I'm growing up, and I realize that so that's just the life that I don't want to live no more
You know what I mean. It's like it's just not me like I could just say hey
I'm gonna start posting this every day, just like I'm not gonna care about likes used
But eventually I will you know eventually I'm gonna have to where I'm gonna naturally start caring so um
I don't know what I want to do my channel. I'm gonna upload a called Duty video
I might record another one tickets am having fun
but that's the only reason why like yesterday video wasn't ten minutes guess what bitch this video ain't gonna be 10 minutes either cuz I
Don't give a shit about that mid rolls. I don't care about that stuff no more
I really truly truly don't and that was the absolute best part of me losing my CPM and YouTube's doing that to me
So yeah, I mean
That's just my reason if you guys respect that I appreciate it if you guys don't respect that I don't care
But it's all good
You know you guys do your thing I do my thing, but I just wanted to be honest with you guys
And I felt like I owe you guys an explanation, but anyways yeah
That's been the reason why I haven't been posting just felt fake, so
You know I'm we working a lot on fades videos
I'd be working
Here and there on my I help my friends with their videos and such so I'm gonna be around. I'm gonna be on Twitter
I'm gonna be on snapchat. I'm pretty shitty at Instagram, but who cares right, but anyways guys
I appreciate you guys if you guys are sort of hoping it means the world to me. Thank you guys for watching
I hope you guys have a wonderful day peace out milene costs more to your aunt. No your mom still live in a tent
Yeah, still slinging dope in the chest. Yeah me and my grandma take meds hoes