hey what's going on my friends welcome to my youtube channel my name is victor
and today i'm going to answer a question from one of my fans this is from ben he said
how do you trust yourself enough to put yourself out there creatively
when there is so much self-doubt and feelings of unworthiness i would bet a lot of you folks can
relate to this right now because there are so many big changes happening on the planet
and the people like you that have been going through these spiritual changes
are a heck of a lot more ready than you think to do as ben is hoping to do put themselves
out there express their truth just not even just to the world but in their daily life
the world needs it the world needs change the world needs people to dare to be themselves
and that's probably you if you're watching this video but it ain't easy it's not easy for obvious
reasons like the obvious would be well i'm really into chakras and i want to be a tarot reader and i
come from this orthodox christian community how on earth does one go about doing that and saying hey
this is actually who i am and i'm gonna start making some changes there's the obvious that's the
obvious some of it's not that extreme but a lot of folks i believe chose to come into a situation
with a similar contrast because it's good to to shake people up and that's kind of what a lot of
us came to do but that's just the surface what ben was really asking about was not that much
which there might be some element of that in his life it was what how do i deal with the self-doubt
and the feelings of unworthiness the fact that ben is even aware that those are the underlying root
reasons he's not already being himself as fully as he can is fantastic most people aren't really even
able to allow themselves to look that deeply at themselves with such honesty it takes a tremendous
amount of courage to say you know what i want to go start this blog but i don't feel good enough
i don't feel worthy to do that that's a very intense thing to admit to oneself and yet that
to me is exactly why people like ben need to be out there being themselves expressing themselves
and when you go forward on your mission on your purpose you will confront some of these deeper
core wounds within yourself okay something i had to deal with as well and it can manifest in all
sorts of ways it can manifest in ways where you you start to believe that you're not actually
ready well i'm not actually ready i need to have this certification i need to do this i need to
organize this part of my life first it's astrology it's mercury retrograde whatever that's the
logic emotionally you'll feel blocked you probably go through the about i guarantee you had this this
happens to you you have times when you're relaxed maybe you're jamming to some music and all of a
sudden a download streams through you pops into your head like a little seed and then electrifies
your body with creative energy and you're thinking yes i know i'm here to do something with this
this is this is truth streaming through my system and you're excited and you get home you go to
do express what you were experiencing and then the blocks come then there's like oh
the the the flow state's gone all you're left with was a faint memory of how awesome it felt to be
in the zone and you're just left with your blocks and your emotions and stuff
right sometimes these emotional blocks can be so big and so up at the surface that it can even
play out in your physical life where you start to reinforce the belief that you aren't ready
for example there were times i would like will myself to go out there and shoot a youtube video
and it would sometimes come out good sometimes it wouldn't but i would experience these weird
problems with my camera i remember one time i shot i i felt so good because i finally was able to in
a sense bypass my blocks and shoot an amazing video and i was yes this is it and i went home
no audio why i don't know it wouldn't normally happen or it wouldn't have recorded
then i tried to redo it and then i couldn't recapture it it's like the universe saying no
and then i would go home and think well the universe said no
i guess i'm not ready it's not the right timing it's not the right time
i flipped my tarot cards why isn't it the right time what do i have to do
here's the reality my friends what you're experiencing ben is what steven pressfield
calls the resistance by the way i cannot recommend that book enough for anybody that relates with any
of this as a creator as an imperfect creator who happens to have an ego which is basically the
whole planet it's common as you try to transmit and express and bring into physical fruition
these downloads these creative inspirations we meet and bump up against our own resistance
it's a part of the creative process the higher the frequency is that you're you're pulling
from the more of your resistance you're bound to bump into at some point they're just part of the
same co part of the same string the part of the same coin it's not good or bad but the unfortunate
thing is people like ben have been allowing this polarity dance to stop them from going forward and
what i've learned and i did the same thing by the way for years you don't have to you don't have to
do you know how long i wanted to be on youtube before actually uploading my first video yes
six long years and when i finally started six years after having that knowing all the
blocks were right there waiting for me i was no more confident no more
feeling ready life was no in fact life was in a much less favorable allowing circumstance
and i realized god where would i be if i would have done that six freaking years ago ben
people like ben where would you be if you started hit the ground running as best you could when you
first had that inspiration it's not to make you regret the past but it's meant to hopefully light
a fire under your behind and let you know that you can all of you go forward in spite of your doubts
and your unworthiness and all that stuff it's part of it it's okay it happens to everybody
and the problem is so many people they think they have to wait for it to be gone
to go forward what i'd recommend you do ben is just like what general george patton does or did
a lot of you may know he's a famous war hero he's just a really uh really inspiring leader
and he was asked one time and said do you ever get afraid when you go into battle and he laughed out
loud he laughed at the question and the absurdity of it he said of course i get afraid it's war
but i don't take counsel from my fear he learned that he could forge ahead
emerge victorious in spite of his blocks in spite of his fear in spite of what might
have felt like unworthiness or self-doubt he realized that we we all have it within us this
spirit this part this this part of us it's part of our part of what we are there's like
this quiet still place inside of our heart you can all go there right now if you'd like just tune in
right in your heart area like a cup of warm water just sitting there
if you tune into that it's untouchable it's peace it's connection the fears might be there also
but at the same time there's that cask of warm divine holy grail water in your heart
and the way you rock out the way you go forward you tune into that as often as possible
you let that be who you really are and you do your best and the experience the confidence that comes
with experience and it comes with time it comes with putting yourself out there more clarity more
momentum more opportunity more of a life shift all of that happens after you start taking action and
there's there's there are things within you that want to stop you but you in truth of what you are
and have always been is more powerful than those blocks no matter how
scary they may be you know how many times my camera would not record the audio i learned i
could just i can just do it again maybe not today but tomorrow morning i'm gonna wake
up i'm gonna try again if it doesn't work i'm gonna do it again the next day and eventually
i realize i have a say in this i can push forward if i choose to and even more so that resistance
that breeds all these amazing attributes and and beneficial qualities to have as a human being
and it made my content my my soul expression more powerful
the resistance is also your friend it helps you just like another book i love the obstacle is the
way by ryan holiday it's a whole book about that entire premise it's not a problem it's not bad
that you feel those feelings of unworthiness for one it gives you an opportunity to be aware of
them and start chipping away at that and even though there's always more you can start to get
lighter and lighter and lighter and lighter and lighter and more and more and more free
the resistance however it decides to show up whether it be emotionally whether it be from
the way people talk to you whether it be from this weird malfunction with your camera whatever
it is you will gain confidence in watching yourself push through that it's not all about
allowing manifestation to happen that's there's a part of that we're living in kind of a physical
3d reality and there's this transmutation quality to it that the blocks are like fuel
for your undying inferno of consciousness and inspiration and passion you gotta go into the fuel
to get it okay my friend if you have questions related to your spiritual awakening please feel
free to drop them in the comment section below i'll see you soon much love to you all peace