Today I wanted to talk about self improvement
and becoming the best version of yourself
that doesn't have to be based around hormones, or surgery, or transitioning that much.
A couple years ago, while I was waitiing for
my surgery, and my hormones,
I always saw posts from other people who were
mid-transition, post-transition
saying that
"These things aren't going to fix everything."
and at the time I really didn't understand what they meant because I thought
my only issue was
not being on testosterone, or not having top surgery
or lower surgery.
But then once I had top surgery, and once I had been on testosterone for a while,
I kind of realised that I did have other issues.
It doesn't fix everything, and I have a lot of work to do, otherwise.
And I know it's difficult to think about anything other than
transitioning, when you're not able to,
because it is so powerful and such a huge part of you,
the feeling of dysphoria is just horrible and painful
and so upsetting
and it's normal to be upset about that.
I had a therapist ask me
"who do you see yourself in five years?
and if you were to walk down the street and pass that person,
how would you feel?"
and that question has stuck with me for abotu 5 years now,
and
it's always the question I go back to when I don't feel confident.
My advice for this week would be to
get a piece of paper, and something to write with,
and just,
think about who you want to be in 5 years, or 10 years even -
your career path,
what you're studying,
what your hobbies are,
your physical health,
and even your style -
I've written stuff down, what else have I written..
Skills, career path, physical health, hobbies and style.
Even just, where you're at mentally,
whether or not you want to
be
really in control of your emotions and like,
get into meditation, or
stuff like that..
I guess that comes under hobbies and interests.
We have this amazing potential to
create the person we want to be.
It just takes small steps to get to that place,
and it also just takes
you realising that you can get to that place.
There's also no better time, than
working on yourself, when you're waiting for such a huge thing to happen.
The more you do now, the happier you're going to be when that time comes around
that you have surgery or hormones or can transition.
I know it can be difficult to
attend schools if you have a lot of anxiety, or
don't want to be around certain people for your safety or whatever reason
and it's also difficult to pay for things -
I know a couple websites where you can do courses online for free and it's kind of like homeschooling.
They're not the same as getting a degree in
university or anything like that,
but you do get a certificate.
I'll put a link to that in the description,
and
it might be worth checking out!
Like, it might give you some inspiration on what you can do
and what's possible.
You'd be surprised at how much you can do just by changing your perspective on
things, and
doing things that you enjoy.
If you do write down who you want to be, and want to share that,
then please do, because it would be really nice to see
all the different things that people want to achieve and
it could be really inspiring to the people that don't know what to write.
I would be interested in seeing that as well, so don't be scared to share.
Hope everyone is doing well!
I hope you're having a good day, week, month, everything!
and
I will see you -
eoughh did you hear that my knee just clicked!?
I will see you
soon.