I ask myself all the time if I’m doing the right thing, you know?
I know I may be crazy, I may be delusional but I don’t care.
Hi baby!
Hola mi amor!
Yeah, it’s mommy!
Hola!
Hi baby.
Good job, yay!
Oh no, now he’s got the bug.
He’s got the camera.
It’s my very first headshot ever.
Look, it’s mommy at 18!
I think this was maybe, this was right before LA.
Another –
A photographer friend was like, you always have these photographer friends that are like,
“I’m gonna do photos for you.”
And so he’s like, “Let’s do pigtails.”
Mhm.
I was really scared when I first got pregnant.
There’s a lot of wonderfully talented actresses that are
waiting on getting married and having kids.
The stories they were telling me are about
actors whose careers were over and actors
who had a hard time coming back.
The blue goes inside the green, then purple.
There was a sense of urgency to come back ASAP.
So I don’t always have an actor to run lines with me,
or a husband to run lines with me,
or an acting coach.
So I use an app.
I could do it in my car, while I’m doing the dishes.
It just, it really helps when you have limited time to study.
You know, now that I have Maxwell,
I’ve really had to become more efficient,
so thank god for technology.
Okay, um…
Hey Mace, I knew you’d show up one of these nights.
What the fuck are you doing here, Eve.
Headlining a show, what’s it look like?
You know what it looks like.
I had to find your face in a club flyer.
This is my home now.
At least there’s someone else in this, -“We need to talk.
That’s my son.
He was there when I was recording it.
And that's what you said last night so what the hell –
Hi!
Okay.
There’s no one else here.
Hey Mace, I knew you’d show up one of these nights.
Eve, what the hell are you doing here?
Headlining a show, what’s it look like?
You know what it looks like, okay?
I had to find your face on a club flyer.
It’s more than I’ve seen your face in the last 18 months.
Perfect.
Excellent.
Nice, Marta!
Thank you!
Oh my god.
I love it!
Thank you so much.
It was perfect.
I just appreciate this opportunity.
Heavy door.
Thank you.
Changing, changing, changing,
changing, changing, changing, changing.
There’s the bathroom.
Do I look like an attorney now?
So we’re going to my second audition for the day.
This one’s a comedy.
The other one was a drama.
We did a costume change.
I forgot my makeup so faded lipstick it is for this one.
Alright Marta?
Yeah.
I’m ready!
You’re all set?
I’m all set.
Alright.
Let’s do it.
No, he is a man of integrity.
I want to see those carcasses.
Really good.
No, I love that one.
Okay.
I love that one.
It was really good.
You should feel good about that one.
That was great.
Awesome, awesome.
I have a crazy thought.
Yeah.
Can you do a Russian accent?
Yes.
So we wouldn’t ask you to do it today, cause that’s insane.
Okay.
That was it.
That was the audition.
Now I have to go home and make dinner.
You know, it gets to the point where you go,
Can I do all this?
You know?
You’re like, Should I be acting?
Pursuing another career and taking care of
him, and I’m exhausted, and this.
But then you book something while you’re
exhausted and you’re like, “Oh, it doesn’t
matt— no, you can.”
Ay!
We’re here to watch my Criminal Minds episode.
I’m very nervous.
Woo!
Shhh! The baby!
The baby!
I forget that there is a baby!
Is it happening?
Not yet.
About to.
Is it happening?
What’s happening?
Yaay!
It wasn’t so bad.
It’s gonna be alright, buh-buh-buh!
Sway at me like this.
Patty cake, patty cake, bake –
You want me to sing a song?
I love Maxwell and you love me.
We are a, Oh!
Mommy’s voice is the same without the box.
Yeah!
It’s been a journey.
I don’t know what to expect.
I am a little worried and I’m hopeful.
I’m both.
I think that’s my existence as an actor.
I’m worried and I’m hopeful all the time.
You have to take control.
You’re the one that got ready and drove
all the way across town.
And you’re the one that’s been studying
for days and, you know, missing time with your son.
You only get a few seconds sometimes, or a few minutes.
People aren’t going to stop to watch you.
You have to create a stage for yourself.
You have to take control.
Hey everybody! Thank you so much for watching.
My name is Nina Ljedi and I am the director of L.A. Land.
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