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Hey Pals, how are you doing?
Around two years ago, in March, I think... I want to say March 1st,
I had my first stage of Buccal Mucosa Metoidioplasty.
I have a video
that goes more in depth about the whole process of metoidioplasty.
Basically, it is a type of lower surgery that works with what you've got, what you grow on
testosterone...
The first stage for me was taking some skin from my mouth, attaching
it to the bottom of the penis that I grew on testosterone,
preparing it for
stage 2 which is where they will close that up and make that my new urethra so
I can pee through it.
It's been two years since then and I currently have no plans
to go any further.
I feel like a lot of people will be interested in why it's
taking that long and whether or not I regret my decision and the short story
is no, I don't regret it, but I am happy to wait a little longer before my next stages.
The reason why it got delayed in the first place was because I needed to
lose a bit more weight so that the aesthetics of the penis would look good
to the standard of the surgeon.
Obviously I was not the most happy about that
because I wanted everything to happen as soon as possible and I was probably more
impatient then, than I am now.
I kept going back to the surgeon's office every
three months or so, to check in on how my weight loss was going and then it kind
of got to a point where I just felt like I was taking up space.
I felt like I was
kind of wasting the surgeon's time. I was taking up appointments that other people
could have had, just to kind of go be told that I still needed to lose weight
and come home feeling bad about myself.
It had been about two years and I phoned
up asked if I was still on the, kind of, waiting list, or
on the system, to see if I could get an appointment in a couple of months just
to kind of spur on any progress that might be happening,
and I got told that I
had been discharged from the service because it had been a year since I'd last
seen them.
So that kind of took me by surprise because I hadn't been informed.
So yeah, basically I am not on the system anymore and if I want to have anymore
surgery then I have to go through my GP to ask to be re-referred.
I feel like I am in a
place where I feel comfortable enough to wait until I feel more content with my body.
I don't want to be losing weight for surgery, I want to be getting healthy
for my mental health and having a balanced lifestyle where I'm not like
forcing myself to starve or go through fad diets just to reach a goal to get
surgery and then put weight on right afterwards, because I feel like that
would happen if I really rush to get surgery.
I do have a couple of personal
reasons why I'm comfortable waiting and why I want to wait but I don't feel like
I want to say it on here, just in case it messes up my chances of having surgery,
but if you are in the same position and want to know and want to talk about it then
I'm happy to tell you privately.
Being in public and being in changing rooms and
stuff where my bulge is maybe more questionable to other people is the only
time where I feel really self-conscious or really nervous about not having
anything there.
I know some people feel quite confused about what I've had done
and whether or not I can pee standing up and how I feel peeing standing up...
To clear things up a little bit nothing has really changed down there.
That's all.
Thank you to Oliver, Bex, Sol, Sasha and Jamie on Patreon,
I love you, you're great, thanks so much for supporting me.
I hope everyone is
doing well, I hope you're having a great day, and a great week, and a great month, and a great everything,
and I will speak to you soon.
Bye.