Erm I know you've seen such a fun bold crazy side of me but there is a whole
other side of me I think nobody knows about and a lot of stuff that I had to
go through and still II am going through right now
there's some stuff going on back home you know that it's like really our
teacher but this week actually my mom was released from federal prison having
to see someone you love so much be stuck in a place where you don't want to be
and like we're like going through all of that stuff and you just want to like
take them out of it like my mom might be really messed up but like that woman
loves me so much and like no matter what she does I love her unconditionally
I know that's not easy to talk about and I just want you to know like I'm not
judging that at all you've been able to turn what most
people wouldn't be able to turn into positive or optimistic situation so it
takes a pretty special person to be able to do it feels really good to get that
off my chest after having that series of a conversation and just seeing how
endearing he was I know that he has feelings for me and I know he cares
about me and so it feels really good it's frustrating watching him going out
of his way to make moments with other people that aren't you and it's like am
I just chopped liver like what am I sitting here still it's difficult
because I genuinely thought I was gonna get I want to one this week when I keep
getting group date after group date it gives me anxiety because I don't want to
have to talk over people or just like do something shocking for attention so it's
frustrating he's taken time to point out to each of you sitting here that like
you're special I've gotten up you know like I went up
there and I had to talk to him out something I don't want to talk to him
out and I felt really good about it and at the end of the day you can't make
excuses you just have to act because if not it's not gonna be good
I'll just wait patiently eventually possibly I'll talk to him
I spent over half my night trying to encourage Kourtney to talk to Colton and
she did nothing but sit there and I had a really good conversation with Coulson
earlier so I want to talk to him again because I was just really happy to get
that reaction from him and it made me just like him even more I'm just been
reflecting about everything and I've been thinking about you know how you
reacted to what I told you oh yeah and it felt really good it's nice to like
see that's Heidi and link shows me that you don't turn your back on family
yeah so exactly what I wanted to show you yeah has everyone here chatted now
people are already having double time so you should get up there's a double time
Demi yeah so go go just go up there if you leave tonight and you don't get time
with him bastard you're gonna regret it go
you can do this you got this not only was a lot of the reasons why I didn't
talk to : but Kyle of Demi but literally three to four minutes after I'm telling
her that I'm upset how about talk to Colton yeah she's
upstairs talking again
hi guys Dave company no I was told that you were up there talking to : yeah no I
just came up here : thank you for our conversation that we had and that was it
I don't understand much what don't you understand I was open about being upset
about not having time with Corwin and you know you acted like you were
genuinely concerned and can i buy out of it I made you hold you for like 30 to 45
minutes oh my god do something I'm trust me I'll try it
trust me I tried it you have no idea what's going on with me no idea what's
going on with me you have no idea what I made it's not tenable instead of you
trying to get by with him you suffer and your than deciding what you need to say
was more important I didn't even think twice about you and our conversation we
just sad because I want to get thanks sometimes you've told me because I'm not
here for all of the girls I'm here for Bolton okay you again oh stop it I just
feel like sometimes your actions and behaviors just kind of like solidify a
maturity level and it's just like someone with a little more maturity
would kind of take those things into consideration you know even the right to
feel that way and I have the right to not care because you've been really rude
to me in this whole entire conversation so Maury
you think you've never been where do you think your actions aren't rude you think
the words like we say aren't really I left them past because I'm just not
kind of go there with you because I was raised to respect people and carry
myself with glass and well thank you for letting me know I feel
should we have more respect for one another
Cornie is very intimidated by my confidence I know that I have
established a serious connection with Colton and we're building on our
relationship Courtney told me that she was raised his
class and insinuated that I wasn't but it's like Kourtney puts the app in class
well it's that time tonight has been great and has allowed me to continue to
grow my relationships with each and every one of you but tonight this Rose
is going to someone who has shown me a completely different side of themselves
Demi will you accept this rose
my heart's ah alright well I gotta get out of here I want to say one last thank
you to all of you you're amazing I think it sent a huge message out to my haters
getting the Rose tonight because they tried to act like what I was doing
wasn't the right approach and that you know Colton wasn't gonna like that or
whatever and it just really shut them all up I was really scared to talk to
him about what I had to talk to about tonight so I'm really glad that he
appreciated it I feel like it was a really big step for us and it feels good
I didn't expect this to happen at all but like I'm really glad that it worked
out
I mean I'm sure he realizes like the whimpers that he did I'm sure a billion
today he talked to me twice this is what cloud nine feels like right now like it
feels really really good
things like at this point I just feel like I should just go home like there's
no point in way
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