hey guys welcome to a new video
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how much can one villain take so here is day 21 of 100 days of weighing in
so right now i'm just watching some youtube i'm actually about to do some journaling i've
just hit myself in the head i need to go back to bed i just finished this journal
took me 26 days to finish it i use every single line on every single page front to
back i just talk about what i did during the day sometimes i'll narrate what i did during
the day and like talk about my emotions and feelings you know i'll talk about the people
in my life and i do use it for like therapeutic reasons like i'll talk about like things that
have happened in the past to kind of work on coping mechanisms to make it not ruin my life now
but majority of my journaling is my everyday life to life feelings you write music i don't but i
feel like some of my poems could be like a pretty good song probably bro like billy island style
yeah a lot of people are like everlane you don't even go anywhere what is there a journal which
is so crazy to me because journaling isn't about oh hi journal today i went to target and bought
some hand soap for me more so journaling is like hi journal today i had a panic attack here's why
hey guys so today is january 24th so you guys have not heard from me in a couple days but i
do have my weigh-ins for each day so i'm going to put those right here so as you're seeing this uh
you're slowly seeing me gain weight because i just like literally just haven't cared i don't
really know it's like weird but um the fact that i can see myself gaining weight so quickly and
so rapidly kind of scares me like there's things that i want to do this year where i'm just like i
can't keep gaining weight like there are things in the very near future that i'm looking forward
to and i need to lose weight to be able to do those things so today for the rest of this video
i kind of want to do like what i ate today video i am counting calories my goal is to stay around
1600 and i really want to make a focus on january 24th being the day where i
just truly start focusing in on calories because that is um what i feel like is the main issue and
if you guys are wondering this is a heating thing like i have it all down my back right now i don't
really want to admit this but i kind of sort of fell i have fallen twice two days in a row well
it's actually technically two nights in a row i don't fall you guys i never ever ever fall
it's just not something that happens to me i had to go to the bathroom so i was getting
up off the bed my feet slipped from under me and i landed on my left knee it terrified me
i couldn't get up or anything so how i had to get up was i had to crawl onto the bed
and this like weird maneuver and it was just it was pitiful i was like are you for real right now
i feel like the second time which was last night actually scared me a bit more this was actually
in the middle of the night i had to get up and go pee again whatever and becky was sleeping and i
put on my flats i got up and i didn't fall like i was totally good i was fine i think i took about
three steps and i don't know why but twinkie had a few of her really small dog foods on the floor
and i think i just like slid on one but instead of going backwards on my butt my body just naturally
went forward and i landed on my right knee so the night before i landed on my left knee and then the
next night i landed on my right knee but this time it was from a higher spot and i just went
boom like the floor like super loud no it has nothing to do with my weight people fall skinny
people fall it is what it is but the way that i fell um my shoulders and my back hurt a bit
and the way that i had to like stand up i can't really get up off the floor without using some
sort of like a table to hold on to or like a chair i can't just get up off the floor like without any
sort of like help and every time i go like on my knees i can't go on my knees at all
the pain is excruciating obviously so under my side size you don't want to go on your knees
that's obvious so i couldn't get up at all i was really embarrassed this time actually because i
almost was to the point where i was like i don't know what i'm gonna do because i have no way of
getting up i wanted her to call the ambulance almost oh no i've fallen in i can't get up like
which this has never been an issue before but like the way that i had to put my weight on the side of
my leg currently my leg is extremely bruised and it hurts so bad what i ended up doing was
i got on my side and i literally rolled onto the bed again which was easy to do it did kind
of hurt obviously you're on a hard floor and my body naturally isn't meant to be on a hardwood
floor it's not meant to be on the floor at all i i don't plan on falling you know in the near future
but it's like if i ever did fall say like out in public what if i fell in public in the middle of
nowhere like at the store or just like walking in a parking lot how would i get up how would i
get up like literally how would i get up in the parking lot but it did happen i'm a little shook
up because it was also in front of the people who were walking by so there's these stairs right here
which you guys know about these stairs there's three steps and it was this last step right here
i guess my foot got caught or something and i fell literally my whole body fell forward
like i was standing and then my body just i fell to the ground i faced time becky and
it was after i got up because i was like i'm not gonna have her come help me so
i hurt my toe i hurt my shin on the same leg um i felt like on my ribs but i think i'm okay
um i hurt my hand a little bit and my phone went skeet skeet like 10 feet away from me um this is
actually my girlfriend's because um she uses this because she has a little bit of shoulder
problems so she let me use it and i will say it feels so good because it's like a heating
situation type deal anyways i'm rambling so the rest of this video is going to be what i ate today
so first thing i'm having is one of these meat and cheese plates i just call them adult lunchables
this one is hard salami with white cheddar cheese and whole wheat crackers okay you guys so i'm
actually about to have my next meal it's 490 calories it is one of my most favorite salads
ever it's just a salad kit which i actually ate this for my last mukbang that i showed you guys so
that is what i am about to have and i'm gonna go watch 90 day fiance while i eat so yep
calories in calories out so i chose to have a chicken ramen um i have some actual chicken in
there that i cut up and put in i have some tapatio uh garlic onion and honestly tastes pretty amazing
so here i am pouring coffee for me my girlfriend i was going to try it just black
but i couldn't but i also didn't want to waste calories so i kind of didn't even drink it okay
you guys so it's next day the 25th here is my weigh-in it was not anywhere near
like i thought it was going to be only eight i want to say about 1400 calories yesterday
um not even down a pound that's totally fine you guys i'm having like kind of a weird day
wow betrayal having some run by myself before anyone assumes no
it's not about my girlfriend so before the assumptions go
i've been uploading every single other day every other day at 1 p.m eastern time so yay
so yeah i know i probably look like an actual hot mess i promise my next video i'm just going to be
i'm going to be sitting pretty okay okay actually i'm not pretty at all but you know what i mean
just to say that my hair is actually going to be washed it's gonna be brushed might
even be straightened who freaking knows me malibu caribbean rum with tropical banana so yeah this is
caribbean rum with coconut liqueur i don't know i like it so drunk lamb might be a lin that's gonna
show up here soon this is like those moments where i'm like should i go on live stream no because
i really end up making a full out of myself um everyone always says drunk al is the best i don't
even know what's so real i don't know i don't know what am i even saying what was i saying
weight loss hello weight loss hello weight gain hello weight loss hello weight gain i really don't
drink often and when i do drink i tell you guys i drink so it's like it seems like i'm drinking all
the time but really i'm not i want to say in the last six months i've probably drank i don't know
maybe like six times you're a law you're a law i don't know i have meds to take drinks to drink
wait i'm not gonna take my meds like right now okay what am i taking a few chunks but
yeah what i mean i have meds to take is like i'm trying to take my meds
better because there are times where i skip them oh i'm gonna show you something look at
this doodad so this is for your medicine okay so like today's tuesday here's tuesday's little
holder which i already took my meds i take them around noon
um they're different colors on amazon um blue black silver this one's like a pink i love it
time to be honest myth and alcohol wow okay all right you guys i'm gonna end this video
cause you know we gonna fly