Well it wasn't my choice, It was my Mom's choice
When you're young you don't really know
what you need in your life and what you want
And when you grow up you start to think for yourself
and you think, is this the right thing you're doing?
Is this what you want to do?
Is this what you're meant to do?
And you start to fight with yourself, with your own instincts
what you want to achieve in your life
My main issue was when I was a kid
I was free, like before my gymnastics
before I started ballet
I was in the streets playing with kids
being free, doing whatever I wanted
no control, no responsibilities
and that was the happiest time
And from four and a half I was put into gymnastics
and then from there I went to ballet, straight away to ballet school
that was strict, till twenty-one
this big period of time where you want
to be a guy and do normal things that guys do
getting drunk, sometimes fight, sometimes smoke
You know, people have a freedom in a way
I didn't feel that, and I felt a lot of pressure
with my talent, as well
I couldn't mess it up
I couldn't be kicked out
I got kicked out from a country
So I quit a theatre
and my visa was attached to the theatre
I don't know what people were saying behind my back
Friends of mine helped me to get a visa
so I can come back at least to get my stuff
When you live for nine years in a country
and you know if you quit the theatre
you are out of the country
it's like you are out of your home
and you have to find a new home
and that's what I was scared of
Igor Zelensky, he's probably my only friend in Moscow at the moment
I hate the idea of people saying that you're a rebel
Journalists, they hear one little thing
so they're trying to create something out of it
trying to make a big headline out of nowhere, really
It was actually quite funny for me
It was just I was playing with them, in a way
it was nothing serious
My Mom was very young when I was born
so she was learning while I was learning
what to do for your kid
I was used to being by myself from 6 years old
It's who you are, it's not like I developed into
a person who lives by himself
I've got a lot of different ideas in my head all the time
and sometimes I wanted to go to army, and it's an instinct
my instinct to go and fight
I see my mother's strong figure
who brings food to the table, who works
You learn how not to feel sad, or bad or
You just learn with life
And whatever makes you feel sad you just try to avoid that