and at a certain point I realized hey
wait a second you know if it's so easy
to lose Jim Carrey who the hell is Jim
Carrey I'm not looking backward why
don't we just it was more like you're
supposed to say you know we're important
you're supposed to say it's all going to
be alright and you're supposed to say
that you know whatever you dream can
come true and you're supposed to say all
those things I do believe in
manifestation power of that kind of
stuff but I don't believe that any of it
matters
you know this mattering is is to me a
human construct born out of a need to
same need is you have to have you know
deities and things like that and I
believe in an energy of God energy of
you know everything is divine you know
there's just not there's no there's no
thing that isn't divine everything is
divine and I'm that and it doesn't
matter to me what's happening I'm
finding that ultimately the the freedom
from it is is something people are kind
of hungry for it away they're like I
don't want to be me either right you
know and I and I go well look great
because you never have been
I believe that I had to become a famous
you know idea and get all the stuff that
people dream about and that accomplished
a bunch of boy a bunch of things that
means don't you
you know that that look like success in
order to give up my attachment to those
things it's been a part of the evolution
of egos is to spend your first half of
your life acquiring and adding thinking
you can add to yourself and and it looks
great
I mean it looks great when you got a
cool car and you got a good nice clothes
and you know and you're and you've done
something that people admire but it can
never fulfill you you can ever be happy
you know what I mean it's not it's not
where happiness comes from and you know
I dealt with depression you know a few
years ago and people still think while
he's going through you can tell he's
depressed it's not I haven't known
literally none I have sadness and joy
and elation and satisfaction and
gratitude beyond belief but all of it is
wetter and it just spins around the
planet you know it's not it doesn't
settle me enough to kill me the happy
place is realizing that you're
everything you know and that there's no
real you involved in the first place
yeah it's a so it's a weird little
semantic jump that you make where it
sounds like well that's totally [ __ ]
threatening man I can I can not be me I
built this construct and it's just ideas
they're just ideas you know the only
thing that separates you from an
african-american or an African Canadian
is an idea you know and oh and the
weather the adaption to the climate and
whatever it is I don't believe in any of
it and and so the feeling of wholeness
is is a different feeling than meanness
they're all characters that I played
including Jim Carrey including Joel
barish including any of those things
they're all characters you know they Jim
Carrey was a less intentional character
right because I thought I was just
building something that people would
like but it was a character you know so
it's you know I played the guy that was
free from concerns so that people who
watched me would be free from concern
you know and in that at a certain point
you go like okay well that's great but
you know it's like the one thing I like
people talk about depression all the
time the difference between depression
and sadness sadness is just you know
from happenstance whatever happened or
didn't happen for you or you know
grief or whatever it is and depression
is your body saying [ __ ] you I don't
want to be this character anymore I
don't want to hold up this this avatar
that you've created in the world that's
too much for me right you know and you
should think of the word up depressed as
deep rest deep rest your body needs to
be depressed
it needs deep rest from the character
that you've been trying to play you know
the great and powerful laws on the great
power of laws
Oh daddy you got me you know kind of
thing and you're just the sweaty guy
behind the curtain corner it's an
amazing metaphor you know in that movie
what up with the liar
you know what I'm gonna do about this
it's a pretty name it really is nice
it's uh means merciful right
good afternoon
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