The ego is a master at making up the crystal ball- the world in which there are many
perceived problems. There is not only a body and bodies, but there is all these problems- there is
financial problems; there is health issues; there is issues about interpersonal relationships; there
is all these pseudo problems that all of them exist in this crystal ball of time and space, and
Jesus and the Holy Spirit are like going, “Turn your mind to us. Turn away from that crystal ball.
Turn to the light.” In the light, that’s who you are. You don’t really have any problems because
none of the crystal ball problems that you believe in are real. So, you are hallucinating
but you think it’s real. You’ve gone to the movie theater and now you’ve got hooked on the movie,
and now you are reacting and responding to all the characters and the images- they are part of the
movie, and now you believe you are in the movie. You believe you are a character inside the movie.
Problems that the ego set up, which are all these projected crystal ball problems, are problems
that are made with one reason and that’s so you won’t turn to the light, that you won’t go within
and go to the light. The whole crystal ball is a distractive device to keep you from turning to the
light. The whole crystal ball was designed by the ego to avoid “be still and know that I am God.”
I was watching Jiska. You are just enjoying watching us all here, and you are over in the
Netherlands, and you are sitting there, and you are with your butterfly wings in your beautiful
hammock, and smiling, and laughing and everything, and, meanwhile, on the other side of the planet,
there is Helena Elias, who is also joining in with us too.
She is there smiling and she is like oh and there is Jiska, “Oh, my, I was just WhatsApping Neda
in the Netherlands recently and now, oh, there is Jiska sitting there.” Wow, what’s going on
with Helena and Jiska is both of them are feeling called by God into this deep journey into oneness,
and Jiska has children, and Helena has children. The mind of Jiska is thinking, “Yeah, I’d really
love to wake up to God and follow my heart and go for it and everything, but I have these children.
And I know that if there is gonna be a plan for waking up, I don’t know how this is gonna go,
because with children I have a lot of beliefs in the crystal ball, in the mind that I am a mother;
the children need their mother and so on and so on and so forth.” And Helena is over there too.
You too are like counselors for each other. You two need each other more now than you ever did,
because most of the people on the screen you’re looking at, you’re thinking, “They
are not going through the same thing. They are being called by God, but they don’t have children
that they are responsible for.” And Jiska has written in a beautiful long prayer, where she
is like, “Please, Holy Spirit, I want to come home to you, but I don’t know. You are going to have to
guide me because I don’t know how I am going to unwind from this self-concept that I made up.”
You are saying to the Holy Spirit, “Yeah, some of these other ones that are in community and they’re
following their guides and everything, good for them, they don’t have children.” You are saying,
“My degree of difficulty is much greater than these other ones’.” Helena Elias, it’s the same
thing. It’s like, “Wow, I’ve got to really perform some kind of maneuver here with the Holy Spirit’s
help to get me out of what I perceive I am,” and remember the first principle of A Course
in Miracles is “there is no order of difficulty in miracles. One miracle isn’t harder than another,”
and you are beginning to feel this, like “Wow, I am called by God and it can’t be
that the circumstances that the ego invented have put me in a more difficult trap than other
people. It can’t be that way.” Why? Because the crystal ball is just the crystal ball,
and you have to see it for what it is no matter what you believe- construction worker, father,
mother, sister, brother- whatever you believe you are in time and space is really irrelevant
to the Holy Spirit and to Jesus, because they are representing God and God is saying,
“You are a perfect child of God and you are only gonna be happy in your environment, which
is Heaven. This is the wake up call and regardless of how you perceive yourself in that crystal ball,
I am calling you out of the world!” There is no harder or more difficult circumstances to realize
who you are, because God didn’t generate or create any of those circumstances, and God loves you so
dearly that if you even came close to this light, you would just weep in gratitude and say, “Oh my
God, I can’t believe I thought those thoughts about me and I can’t believe I was this whatever
that was. I don’t even know what that crystal ball is anymore.” You would just cry and weep as you
got closer to that light. You couldn’t control your emotions- the love in your heart would
just swell and swell to a giant proportions, and you would think, “And I was concerned
about the crystal ball? I was concerned about the characters, that they were going to scream at me,
point the finger at me- “You can’t do it”; “You are abandoning”; “You are rejecting”...” And
Jesus is like, “Well, yeah, that’s what made the crystal ball- the belief in the ego, the belief in
abandonment, rejection, false responsibilities.” Who generated all these except the ego,
and what Jesus is telling us is he is saying, “No, no, no. Don’t look to that darkened glass;
don’t keep thinking these thoughts and believing these beliefs!” In fact, just today Lynn
Robin Miller from the United States, she wrote this poem called “Over the Abyss.”
This abyss is the crystal ball of time and space. “I walked to the edge of the abyss.
Ego bid me look down, “See, a vast, vast nothingness stretching out to eternity.”
Ego said, “This is what you’ll encounter if you take one more step-
the end of the world as you’ve known it of your separate identity, the complete disillusion of
all you’ve come to be.” My breath quickened as terror struck like a blade and I trembled as I
contemplated the end of what I thought of as me. Ego screamed, “It’s time to step back!
Don’t fall!” But in my right ear I did hear a call that sounded like music of a grand symphony
and I floated over the abyss on its holy melody.”