- Oh god!
Whoa!
I've tried to learn how to do kick flips.
You go up, right?
[Madelyn laughs]
I mean, what can I say?
[light music]
[cage clinks]
Hi, Bubba, come here, he just turned one.
- [Cameraman] Aww.
- Three days ago.
He's chaos.
I love him.
[Madelyn laughs]
I'm leaving for Greece in two days,
to go film a fun little movie.
It's the second installment of "Knives Out."
So I'm terrified.
[Madelyn chuckles]
I've never had a schedule like this.
And it's very exciting.
And it's really fucking cool.
Excuse my French.
[Madelyn laughs]
But it's also extremely overwhelming
because it's all happening -
It feels like it's all happening at once,
even though that's -
It's not.
Like, it's been like two years in the making.
I feel overwhelmed.
But I have to remind myself, it's fruits of labor
and I'm really lucky to be where I am.
It crazy and it's a little overwhelming.
I have to text my friends.
I'm like, I'm not ignoring you.
I'm just overwhelmed.
[Madelyn laughs]
I'm sorry.
Let's go get drinks.
So I used to work this little food stand
in Charleston, South Carolina
and we were making coffee all day.
And of course, there'd be coffee that would be old,
so a trick they taught us to not make more,
or waste coffee as you just top it off with a little water.
So we're gonna do that.
Cold brew.
Relish.
[Madelyn giggles]
I made you some three-hour old coffee.
[man gasps]
- My favorite.
[Madelyn chuckles]
How'd you know?
[Madelyn laughs]
- It's cold.
- Ohh.
- Also I put ice cubes in it
to mask the fact that
- Three hour coffee.
- Um, yeah.
- We ran out of coffee.
Did you know that?
Did you know we ran out of coffee?
- Trying to find where we were.
A whole year ago.
- Locked in isolation.
- It would definitely -
One year ago, I was..
One year ago I was in Bloomington.
This is right after you posted on Instagram.
This is right after we decided to be official.
Everybody knew, it's just that we weren't -
We didn't -
- We did a pretty good job of like not really wanting
the world to know for -
- We did a horrible job.
[Madelyn laughs]
- Well, yeah it was - it was pretty bad.
No I mean like, we - our inner circle kinda knew,
but we didn't really want to - I guess -
- It was still new, And so we didn't want to like,
I think we wanted to enjoy it first.
- Yeah.
- When the show came out it was mid-pandemic.
We could only really gauge
how it was going through social media.
And you know, people were posting about it on tiktok,
It was so funny, like,
I'd be scrolling through my for you page,
and there'd just be video's about outer banks, and like,
characters, and like, the discover page on Instagram,
and um, people making memes about it.
That was really the only gauge we had during a pandemic.
We were all quarantined in my apartment.
- Netflix had this whole idea of all of us sort of
watching it for the first time,
and seeing it pop out on the platform.
So, we had all had a couple beers,
and were getting a little rowdy, and then uh -
- I had postmated tequila from pink dot,
and we made a big pillow fort.
We watched it go from the little title card that was like;
"Coming soon" to all the episodes pop up.
And the thing had said; "Outer Banks new episodes"
We went and clicked on the first episode,
we watched the intro, like the Pogues running through
the house under construction,
and then we refused to watch any more,
because we didn't want to watch ourselves.
[Madelyn laughs]
[light music]
- Let's do a drip coffee please.
Tiramisu? Or carrot cake?
Okay, let's do that. Yeah, let's do that.
The last time I was in here was right before Outer Banks,
Before I left for Outer Banks, the first season.
So, this is quite exciting.
I used to come here all the time and get breakfast.
I'd read books, I'd read plays,
I would be submitting for auditions,
and I remember right before I left for Outer Banks,
and at the time it was just the callbacks,
the directors session.
I came here and got breakfast, and I called my mom.
I was like "Hey mom! I'm coming home for a few days,
I have an audition, it's for a Netflix show,
and it's in Charleston, weirdly enough."
She was very excited to hear that, and I never came back.
Yeah.
I had just freshly dropped out of college,
and I had packed up my car. I was like -
"I'm moving to California.
I'm gonna go for the pilot season, I'm gonna do it,
Mom and Dad I'm sorry."
[Madelyn laughs]
I dropped out right before midterms, and they were like,
"What did we do wrong?"
It was everything they didn't want. I think at the time,
they didn't want their child to do.
Um, and I did. And then I came out here and I realized,
You know walking into my first auditions,
and just being out here in general,
I realized "Holy shit, there's like a thousand of me."
I realized very quickly that I didn't believe in myself
enough to have confidence.
So, I had to get really real with myself and be like,
"Do you want to do this?
Is this something you want to pursue?
Because you can still go back to college,
am I making a big mistake?"
I had to get to know myself really quickly,
because I realized I didn't know myself.
It was a reality check for sure.
I was like,
"I need to get my ego in check
because just because I moved to California,
doesn't mean things are going to happen to me,
or happen for me."
And it has happened really fast.
It's all happened very fast.
Learning how to deal with the anxiety of it all,
and the imposter syndrome of it all
has been quite a journey.
Believing myself was hard.
That wasn't something that came easy.
I think if I could say one thing to Maddie 4 years ago,
sitting at Beachwood Cafe,
I think I would just tell her that it's gonna be fine.
You're gonna be fine, stop worrying about everything,
you know, it's gonna work out.
But at the same time, you know,
I'm kinda glad I didn't know that, because,
I think the anxiety and the worry is kind of what
lit a fire under my ass to do something about it.
[light music]
- [Madelyn] My parents told me to go get a job,
and I think they were expecting me to go get a job
working at like, H&M or something.
I instead went to a horse barn,
and got a job working the barns in the morning.
So, every morning I would get up at like 6AM,
And I would drive to the barn,
mop the stalls, feed them, give them their supplements,
and I earn 30 dollars a day.
I was so proud of myself until
I figured out how much a tank of gas costs.
I love my job, but that job was some of the best memories.
Good job!
So this is Chaplin, we've decided that we vibe.
Right?
Yeah.
That's a yes.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm not choosing favorites, but I kind of am.
When I'm riding, I feel very centered.
But also very alert, because,
I'm trying to figure out what the horse is telling me,
and what's around us,
if there's anything that might spook them,
just learning how to communicate with them.
If you stay calm they'll stay calm.
So it's kind of a lesson
on learning how to center yourself first.
It's cathartic.
There's a reason people go do horse therapy.
It's because it's wonderful.
These are not the shoes for horseback riding.
[crunching noises]
I think the thing I've learned the most about my anxiety,
and dealing with my emotions,
and learning how to conquer the things,
like the self sabotage, and the imposter syndrome,
is just learning how to kind of give in,
and let things happen.
And if it doesn't go as planned that's okay,
and uh,
give yourself the permission to tell your anxiety
to shut the fuck up.
[Madelyn laughs]
You know,
it's funny because this is one of the first places
I came to when I moved here.
And it just feels like this super crazy full circle moment.
I had no idea what was going to happen,
Because I think L.A. has just been a lesson
in learning how to let go.
I'm excited, I'm excited to see what happens.
I feel like this is completely off.