hey everyone
How's it going Well this is pretty much what I
look like at all times of day
My skin is worsening
But I do have a dermatologist appointment this week which
I'm very excited about
I can't stop looking at myself in the camera
This is horrendous
This is not really a true Youtube video
I don't have any miraculous insights to share with you
I just wanted to sort of vlog a tiny bit
of my evening
Uh you know give you an inside look at the
second trimester of pregnancy thus far
Let you know how I'm feeling what's been working what
hasn't been working
And also show you our apartment because it is completely
dismantled in here as we are approaching our move
So I have a lot of great moving content that
will be coming
I'm going to film our move
I'm going to film our redecoration
I'll obviously take you on a tour of the new
apartment which we found in a new neighborhood of Manhattan
and I'm really excited to share it with you
But for now I just want to show you what
it looks like in here because a lot of stuff
is dismantled
We sold a lot of our furniture
We're going with a bit of a new style in
the new place
So let me show you what a record is in
here first though for anyone who is pregnant or just
has skin issues at the moment
I really would like to share with you the cover
up and foundation that I'm using right now because if
you're like me and you also you know have events
and things that you need to get to and things
you need to do despite being broken out
This has worked really well for me
So hang on you can kind of see a bit
of the mess that's going on behind me will share
that a bit soon
But first cosas super creamy and brightening concealer and I
just want you to see my skin so you can
see my skin
You see I've got a lot of breakouts on the
forehead
There's a lot going on around here
But let me just show you how well this stuff
works and covers things up
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I don't know if this is how you're supposed to
use this but this is how I use it
Then I take this little concealer brush
This is 2.5 C
It says reveal
Er I don't know if that's the color or the
name of it but it's a 2.5 C
Also I'm not like a makeup expert
I have no idea what I'm doing with makeup so
don't like come at me with how I'm stroking this
This is just kind of just pretending that I'm painting
And this is a pregnancy safe one
I looked into it
So I felt good about it and what was done
I'm just gonna show you how I like
We'll do my makeup these days because I'm very on
the simple side
So first thing I will do is conceal the face
like that to kind of get the base done
I'll take this eyebrow brush and just brush my brows
up
I don't fill them in anymore
I just let them grow a lot and I'm loving
them
Then I will take this bronzer
Just give myself some color a little tiny bit of
blush
This is Nars
It's called orgasm
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And then just a touch of mascara
I forgot what it was called
And I put it on the top and also a
teeny bit on the bottom
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light and that's it
All right Let me show you the apartment
This is our living room right now
We sold our coffee table our kitchen table the tv
stand that was here
We're taking the couch taking the chairs taking my mom's
artwork
And we've even started peeling all this peel and stick
wallpaper off the walls
Which is really sad
We have to wait and see all the couches move
before we can peel that
Here is probably the saddest thing to look at pardon
that you're in my shot
But this is the saddest thing to look at our
shelves which we're keeping
But we are hoping they fit in our new apartment
And then we took everything off the shelves and you
can just see it all
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We're really sad to see these empty but we're going
to style them differently in the new apartment
Were also taking these Oh yeah this wall had wallpaper
that's now off
And this is my office
Used to have wallpaper we peeled it all off and
spackled it
This was my desk side it's all off
I sold the desk so this is just the empty
office right now
We actually sold this futon to someone's coming to get
it
We have to go through this stuff
It's a bit of a mess in here
But the truth is I wanted to make a YouTube
video because it just went on to my computer and
I went to YouTube and I saw that the subscriber
count as of right now is at 298 1000 subscribers
Maybe by the time I shared this video we will
have hit 300 and you know nothing happens when you
have 300,000
It's not like a milestone as far as YouTube's concerned
So I'm not gonna get a plaque
I'm not going to get any sort of celebration although
maybe my husband we'll send me a cake
No Or get me a balloon or something
It is a big deal
I mean as far as I'm concerned that is huge
I remember when I hit 100,000 and now this is
three times that size and it honestly just brings me
so much joy to know that every single week thousands
of more people are coming upon my videos and subscribing
and wanting to join along on my journey
I know that I have people here that are interested
in all different things
Like some people have subscribed just for the dance videos
Some people have subscribed just for the pregnancy some people
for like the sustainability
I don't know there's a lot of different niche topics
that I cover on my channel and so I'm just
so grateful that people are here for a variety of
reasons
But I just want you to know that each and
every one of you pregnancy burst but I just want
you to know that each and every one of you
is so incredibly special to me and I am so
so thankful that you're here
So today it's just kind of a random day
I have been I've basically been a coordinator over the
past month of figuring out what we're taking what we're
not redesigning the new space with a lot of help
from my mom and also figuring out selling the furniture
I did facebook marketplace I sold a bit through instagram
but it's been such a journey to schedule
Like pick up days and the dimensions of everything
It's like a full time job to sell furniture
Who knew I figured what I would do right now
is just kind of share a little bit about the
second trimester so far
I am very early in it
I'm just at 15 weeks and then I also figured
I would just kind of take you along as I
cook dinner tonight because I'm really working to cook more
food
Also here's my belly update definitely has not popped but
it does feel a little hard like a little inflated
like a balloon
And I think when I stand at an angle you
can see it popping out a little maybe not
What is it Uh I think it's the kind of
thing where nobody who saw me walking down the street
would think oh that girl's pregnant
But if you knew me or if you were me
and you knew my body well you would be able
to notice that something is different
I didn't share my body too much on social media
before
So maybe you did not know my body but definitely
feels a little taught all right onto pregnancy
So how I've been feeling at week 15
The thing is I don't know why I had it
in my head that around week 12 was when almost
everyone stops experiencing nausea
I thought that was the end of the first trimester
turns out It's closer to the 13 the end of
the first trimester
And also my Dr told me that she suspected you
know based on her patients
Most people don't stop feeling nausea until around week 14
sometimes even a little later
Then I posted on instagram I think I prematurely posted
that I was feeling better when the truth is I'm
not really feeling better fully
But I posted that I was starting to feel better
and I shared a bit of a recap of the
first trimester and then it was a lot of my
instagram followers who alerted me to the fact that many
people experience nausea and just general blah feelings throughout the
entire pregnancy like not stopping at the first trimester not
stopping in the second trimester often up until labor
Like people say that they are nauseous and throwing up
all the way until labor and then through labour and
then when they give birth then they're in the clear
which is not exciting to here I have to say
but I want to keep I feel the need to
keep justifying or I don't know to keep mentioning that
I am so grateful to be pregnant because I know
that so many women want to get pregnant and have
trouble getting pregnant and so I think it's a little
insensitive to be sitting here just bashing pregnancy like that's
why I want to keep mentioning that I am grateful
and that even though I feel like crap sometimes I'm
like really happy to have the ability to feel like
crap Does this make sense And I know a lot
of other people who have been pregnant have agreed with
this I've gotten a lot of comments on instagram saying that
other people also experience guilt because they're grateful to be
pregnant but they don't feel well
So I'm glad to hear that other people feel that
way
You know I think I have to come to terms
with the fact that I might just not feel like
myself throughout this whole process
Like I want to feel like the best version of
myself who is just living my normal lucy life but
that's kind of unrealistic when you are growing a human
inside of your body your hormones are all wild and
just in general like physically things are different
There's no way that you're going to feel exactly the
way you felt before and if you do God bless
you lucky you enjoy the ride
I've actually heard a lot of women that love being
pregnant they feel better when they're pregnant and I'm like
wouldn't that be nice But it's just not really happening
for me
I always thought I would love being pregnant
I like really idealized pregnancy and the idea of it
but it's just not like that right now I haven't
thrown up in a couple of weeks but I have
just like gagged at random times like I'll just be
standing in the kitchen like I think I have to
throw up and then I will like suck on or
lick some ice chips
Also sucking on lemons is really helpful if you have
any other suggestions let me know
But like overall it's a lot better than it was
weeks
82 weeks 11 were my worst in those weeks I
multiple times a week
You know I showed it in my last video and
I don't have to show it again
But I guess like trigger warning for even talking about
it 8 to 11 weeks time span
I definitely had to sit by the toilet about an
hour at least every day and then Probably every 2-3
days through up
Now I haven't thrown up in a while and the
Nausea is just sort of subtle underground in the background
but it's there and occasionally it comes to the surface
and I'm like Hmm not good
But occasionally it doesn't come to the surface and overall
I just feel more like myself like I can go
out and do things
I'm not afraid to leave the house
I'm not afraid that if I go to the grocery
store I might have to throw up on the street
and like that scared me a lot
So things are getting better for the most part
Also something that I'm really excited about is that a
bunch of people that are my I guess I'd call
them like instagram social media friends people that have similar
jobs to me and who I have connected with both
online and in real life and feel like I'm friends
with them are also pregnant at the same time as
me A couple of other people that I learned about recently
are Emily DiDonato who you guys might remember I made
a video where I tried a models morning routine She's
pregnant right now
My friend Jordan Younger from the balanced blonde is pregnant
right now and it's just beyond exciting to have other
people who I know who are around my age and
who are just going through the same journey of life
at the same time as me
I also have so many pregnancy related videos that are
coming to my channel that I just you know have
shot
But I haven't had the chance to put together family
finding out
I know I shared my sister Allie but my other
siblings Robbie finding out Michael's sister finding out you know
both sides of our parents a lot of friends that
I've told I have videos about that I also wanted
to share with you the moment that Michael and I
found out and kind of how that whole thing happened
And then I also want to just do like a
Q and A
I know that a lot of people have questions about
our journey
I'm going to try to share as much as I
can in the vlogs and videos but we also will
probably just do a sit down question and answer so
that you can ask us anything and now I'm going
to figure out what I want to cook for dinner
I'm starving
And if I don't start whipping up dinner when I
get a little hungry then I get angry and then
I have to like order something really quickly from seamless
and it never ends well
So we're going to cook something from scratch tonight and
it's going to be good
I'm not normally an e book person but I just
bought this e book called Epic vegan Cravings by Ellen
Fisher who is one of my favorite Youtubers to follow
She lives in Hawaii
So I'm not vegan I will often change the recipes
in this book
So if there's something that calls for a butter replacement
I will just use butter or if it calls for
like I don't know plant based milk
I actually prefer plant based milks but I guess I
would use regular milk
These are just amazing recipes and there's so many great
things in here
There's like corn bread there's corn chowder which is like
my favorite soup ever
Golden lentil dahl creamy yummy asian noodles sushi rolls mac
and cheese buffalo cauliflower lettuce cups like everything in this
e book was calling my name
I'm normally not an e book purchaser but I am
obsessed with delicious recipes and I was like I kind
of need new ones and I'm sick of just going
on Pinterest and searching and scouring
So this is like a great place to have it
all contained
So I'm gonna find a recipe from here and we
will go to the store and get all the goods
Okay
I know it's a hot summer day but I couldn't
resist going with the creamy corn chowder
So I'm gonna go to the store to get all
the ingredients and we shall cook it
Yeah
Yes
All right
I got all the corn chowder ingredients and then a
few added extras including these peaches apricots some lemons and
these dates
Oh and also can't go anywhere without getting these
All right let's check out and make our soup
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I'm gonna put these on to try to help with
the nausea
They're like acupressure seasick anti nausea responds and they're really
tight and they have this like knob that pushes into
your pressure points
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Because uh boiling the corn and the potatoes together a
little bit fits in the past
Also I'm not sharing like all the details of this
recipe because it's Ellen Fisher's recipe and it's in her
book which I think I bought for like $25 so
I'm not going to share the details
It's not my recipe to share but definitely buy her
book because it's epic
Yeah
Alright
My corn chowder is ready
It looks amazing
But I'm just about to sit down for dinner
Michael just went out to pick up his dinner
I personally have been trying my hardest to limit my
takeout meals to two meals a week including lunch
So today I cooked meal lunch and I'm cooking this
dinner
So we'll see if I can stick to that because
I have been on a stretch of just ordering like
almost every meal in because I get hungry so urgently
quickly that there is no time to whip up food
So I'm just trying to be a little bit more
responsible about starting to cook earlier in the day even
if I'm not like starving yet and then getting hungry
as the food is getting ready
I feel like that's just more Responsible
So that's it for me tonight
I hope you enjoy coming along in this New York
City night
Thank you so much again to the almost 300,000 subscribers
on my Youtube channel
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I will keep you updated more on the move as
it happens right now
We are just totally emptying up shop and getting ready
to go
But I love you all dearly
I will keep you posted on this poppy and this
pregnancy and how it's all going and thank you so
much for being on this journey
Have a good night I
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