h: hi everyone s: hi
s: look at you doing the beginning before we're like set
h: want to know why? s: why?
h: because you always do it before i'm set so i thought now
h: if we're gonna just start as soon as i turn the camera on
h: i thought i would start, it's always me being like [mumble] and you're like hello
h: and i'm like oh, okay s: that's true
s: i don't even know what my face was doing h: i know
s: i might have been like...and we began so we'll see
h: you like that?
s: we first need to introduce you to hannah's new best friend
h: uh huh s: secret admirer, maybe?
h: uh huh, maybe a little crush on me s: these are a few messages
s: that she has received h: they're youtube comments
s: all from the same person h: this is from paula, my new friend
h: what order do i read them in? there were a lot, maybe 8 all at once
h: on all different videos, i just checked four of them randomly
h: i'll just go in order, the order that she wrote them in
h: and the way she would want them to be read, right?
s: yup
h: 'hey', and that is spelt h-a-y
h: i feel like that's an important.. s: hay! hay!
h: 'hay it's wheelchair digger again look how she tries to be all in love she is fake as shit'
s: look how she tries to be what? h: all in love
s: all in love, ah
h: there's no punctuation so i'm going to read it as such
h: here's another one, this is my favorite part
s: did you really expect punctuation? h: this is my favorite part
h: this is how she starts the next one, okay so this person is on a video
h: clicks a new video, is commenting, 'my god, she's back, we all know her name'
h: i didn't do anything she clicked on a different video and said 'my god she's back'
s: this person thinks that she's involuntarily being exposed to you
h: i'm so obsessed with that s: my god, she's back
h: ok, it keeps going: 'wheelchair digger', that's just a sentence
h: 'like i said, you take the camera away and the money, she will be gone'
h: 'come on people if you believe she loves him you are so dumb'
h: 'both of this two are in it for the money. since i ran across this video'
h: 'she was not as fat' s: as fat?
h: as fat, yeah sorry this is an older video that she has found, okay
h: 'so since i ran across this video she was not as fat'
h: 'she needs to take care of her body because she got the money and fame'
h: so i guess money, body and fame it's like the trifecta?
s: mm, i see, got it h: ok
h: i'm editing now, i'm so sorry, i realized i read that incorrectly
h: it's 'she needs not to take care of her body' because she got the money and fame
h: like she needs not to, so that's why i'm fatter is because i have money and fame
h: so we misinterpreted, i'm really sorry about that
h: new video, 'my god wheelchair digger is still milking it for all the money she can get'
h: and then i remember this one was on my trying wedding dresses video
h: from like a year and a half ago s: ah
h: so i'm not sure if paula understands the timeline of youtube videos?
h: that i'm not posting them as she's clicking them, you know?
h: like i think she thinks that something is happening, i'm like doing it live for her
s: you've infiltrated her computer both: [laugh]
h: okay, and this is the last one that i have
h: 'what i have been saying this whole time', and i have to say that whole is h-o-l-e
h: this 'hole' time, 'they just keep begging for more money'
h: 'believe me all that attention she getting from a dating a handicap'
h: new sentence, 'is paying off', new sentence
h: 'and that why she is called', new sentence, 'wheelchair digger'
s: i love that - 'and that's why she's called...'
both: wheelchair digger
s: so you have a new nickname wheelchair digger
h: i love it s: very creative
s: i like the way that she's combined two separate things
h: yeah, golddigger and wheelchair s: and made them into one phrase
s: 'you're a wheelchair digger' h: wow
h: that's really interesting s: today's video is not directly about paula
h: no
s: but more about comments that we've been receiving
h: i was looking for these comments that we were talking about
h: that we have for the video, when i came across paula's and i just had to share
h: i'm gonna raise this up i feel like i'm too low
s: oh look at that you grew h: so there we go, anyway
h: i'm excited about this video, talking about comments is always pretty funny
h: so that was a great opening i think s: let's do it
[intro song] hello hello, welcome to the show, welcome to the show
welcome to the show, it's time to talk about our lives [Chloe bark]
h: so today we are going to be talking about pregnancy
h: and it's very fitting because this week is national infertility awareness week
s: yes, and as such we have a very special sponsor of this video, mosie baby
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h: according to a clinical research study, the mosie kit is a low cost
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s: yeah they just did a clinical study to prove this and it was successful in that way
s: and they let us know, they were like we just our clinical study done
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h: yeah and obviously you do them in the comfort of your own home
h: you're not in the doctor's office, it's much cheaper
h: than going to a doctor's office and having the procedure done
h: so we're really excited about that
s: and when two people are trying to conceive there are a million reasons
s: why they might not be able to conceive the traditional way
s: and so having an option like mosie baby can really, at least for me i think
s: take the fear out of it, because if you can't conceive the traditional way
s: i thought the next step was like all of these really invasive processes
h: yeah s: but mosie baby allows you
s: as hannah said, to try something else at home that can be very effective
h: yeah, another great thing about mosie baby is that it helps you keep sex fun
h: you know, if you're really stressed and feeling the pressure to conceive
h: and you're really focused on that, it can make having sex a little bit less fun
h: you're like timing it and all this stuff, so it's kinda nice to separate that
h: from the more goal driven s: conception
h: yeah, having kids, exactly
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s: alright so now let's talk about pregnancy, specifically our pregnancy journey
h: yes, lets, we haven't...i forget when the last update was
h: was that in like...i have no sense of time, i honestly couldn't tell you, months ago?
s: the whole year has felt like it's been like a week, so
h: yeah s: i think it was back before the holidays
s: but i have no idea h: i would have said like february
h: but i realize that that i think is too close
h: that's just so strange, time this month, all this year has been off for me
h: so our last update if i remember correctly was that i was not getting a period
h: i was not ovulating, about that there were so many comments
h: with people being like you can get pregnant without a period
h: and obviously i know that, i meant that i wasn't ovulating
h: and i can tell when i ovulate because i have pretty severe pain when that happens
s: you have worse pain when you ovulate than you do when you have your period
h: yeah, so i was just confused that people thought that i didn't know
h: that i could get pregnant if i just ovulated, like i'm very aware
h: of when i'm ovulating, and i wasn't, so i just wanted to clear that up
h: i wasn't confused about how pregnancy works, people were like
h: 'you actually ovulate 2 weeks before' i was like i know that, okay, whatever
h: anyway, i guess i wasn't clear enough, but so that video
h: was about how i wasn't getting a period, i wasn't ovulating
s: and i think...did we take a pregnancy test? i feel like we did and we told people
s: that we took tests and we're not pregnant h: yeah and a lot of people were like
h: 'well you should get a blood test' and stuff
h: i was like i'm really not pregnant s: but that was a while ago, and no baby
s: so we were not pregnant h: yeah
s: and at that time, i was looking into sperm testing because of the interplay
s: of the treatment that i'm on with fertility, i've not done that yet
s: and that's literally just because of life h: yeah
s: we've been busy, we had stuff, i made an appointment
s: or like began and it didn't work out h: well you did a referral
h: and the doctor sent it in, then we were busy, it's just a whole thing
s: and then i dropped my sperm off at the wrong place
s: that was embarrassing, just kidding h: the dentist [laughs]
s: here's my sample....'sir, this is wendy's'
s: anyway haven't done that yet, still plan to
s: but kind of, it hasn't been pressing, so just haven't done it yet
h: so during these past couple months, although we've been busy
h: we have been talking a lot about our plans for having kids
h: we've cemented our thoughts a little bit more
h: and we have more of a personal timeline, we just understand
h: where we are right now a bit more, and we're not sharing that publicly
h: because i think like, if you look at any of our videos
h: no matter what we do, we're criticized s: severely
h: like violently criticized, and as you can see from paula
h: like i exist, and therefore i'm terrible s: wheelchair digger
h: yeah, i think we're not gonna share what we're thinking
h: and what we're doing, until we're in a place where we can ignore those comments
h: right now we're really excited and happy, and i think we need it to wear off
h: a little bit more before we can take all of the people being like, you suck
s: exactly, and i hope that you're not disappointed by that
s: hannah and i make every effort to share every aspect of our life with you
s: and that comes at a cost h: yeah
s: it's an emotional toll reading tonnes of criticism every time we say
s: anything that we're doing h: uh huh
s: there's this weird phenomenon where youtubers, i think that our followers
s: feel like you are our best friends, and on one hand that's great
s: we love that we can be authentic with you, but on the other hand
s: it leaves not a lot of room for us to have privacy
h: and like not everyone that watches our videos feels that way
s: yeah
h: if we could just make this private to only the people that are supportive
h: and wonderful, we totally would and then we could share everything
h: we would love that but obviously when we're sharing with people
h: who are wonderful, we're also sharing with people who come to our channel
h: just to say mean things
s: so please know that we will always be updating you when it feels right for us
s: when we feel comfortable doing so, but i guess for some people
s: that's not enough, and that is what these comments that we're about to share with you
s: are all about
h: yes, so this is just on one video that we put up a couple of days ago
s: it was when we were in galena, which i will now pronounce correctly
h: gal-ee-na, yeah, so these are the comments, again these are all just ones
h: that i scrolled through and screenshotted like 8 of them
h: 'hannah, will you be telling us when you're pregnant? i know you are'
h: okay, that one said when will you be telling us?
h: i don't know why i was not able to read these the correct way
h: but now i see that i read that wrong
h: and all of these are...most of these are nice
h: i'm not sure that any of these are mean
h: 'hannah looks pregnant' with like a thinking face
h: 'hannah looks pregnant or is it just the camera'
s: we actually, yeah, we put on the pregnant filter on our camera
h: this is my favorite one, 'hannah is pregnant, i'm calling it now'
h: 'her nose is fuller'
s: your nose? h: my nose
s: is that a thing? h: i don't know
h: yeah 2 people said that so i guess it is s: your nose?
h: i don't know... 'is hannah pregnant? she is glowing more than usual'
h: lot of glowing ones, i just picked that one
h: 'hannah, your physical looks like you are pregnant, i hope you are'
s: was that your doctor? are they looking at your physical?
h: i think they meant like my physique
h: 'is hannah pregnant? her face is different'
h: 'is hannah pregnant? it looks like she gained a bit of weight'
h: i'll stop there, so s: so you can see
s: and i got these a bunch on my instagram too, there's a bit of a trend lately
s: people enquiring about hannah being pregnant
h: yes, or no matter what i look like, people being like
h: 'i can tell that she's pregnant'
s: there's a few ways of diving into this, i think first and foremost
s: especially in light of national infertility awareness week
s: remember, people all over the world are struggling to conceive
s: and prying into their life like that can be really upsetting
h: yeah like if we were really desperately trying to be pregnant right now
h: and were really disappointed every month and were upset
h: seeing those comments of people being like
'i know hannah's pregnant, i can tell she's pregnant'
h: would be very upsetting, so keeping that in mind
h: when i'm pregnant, you'll know, when we want to share it
h: and so, i don't think that you need to comment on every video
h: that i look pregnant or that i've gained weight
s: and that's another aspect of it, like we're not pregnant
s: so all the comments about a fuller nose
s: like how are we supposed to interpret that, you know?
h: exactly
s: and it's not the same at all, but we get comments a lot that are like
s: wow, shane doesn't look good today h: oh yeah
s: he's looking really unwell, and it's on a day when i was feeling great
s: but then i have to process, okay there are a number of people out there
s: looking at me thinking that i suddenly look sickly, why is that?
s: and that affects me emotionally h: yeah
s: i'm like, oh geez, what's wrong? h: that's it exactly
h: so yeah, commenting on what people look like...
h: there's lots of stuff in our videos you can comment on
h: that isn't just what we physically appear to look like that day
h: we're really not thinking about it, you don't need to think about it either
s: i mean if you want to compliment me, go ahead
h: you're glowing, shane
s: and i know, like hannah said, these people are not being malicious
h: yeah s: they're excited for us
s: but before we've announced the pregnancy, that can be really damaging
h: yeah s: so keep that in mind
s: not just for us, for everyone h: for everyone, exactly
h: i mean we're really not that upset but it is obviously infertility awareness week
h: and this is a time, there may come a time when reading those is really upsetting
h: so saying it then is gonna be just as exhausting so we might as well just say it now
s: this just brought up a memory in my mind, i did when i was little kid
s: that awful thing where i was in a grocery store with my mom
s: and i saw a woman that i thought was pregnant and i was little
s: and i said something out loud to the effect of 'you're having a baby!'
s: and my mom dragged me aside violently.. not violently
h: not violently, you were probably in your wheelchair, she probably summoned you
s: yeah i have an image of her like pulling my ear, no no, she hushed me
s: and then let me know that woman was not pregnant and that it's extremely
s: not nice to say that kind of thing out loud h: yeah
s: i learned that lesson when i was 5, so i have faith that all of you
s: can learn that lesson and not comment on whether or not someone
s: may or may not be pregnant h: mm, wow that was really nice
h: that was a really nice way to tie up the video, the whole lesson
s: i forgot that i did that but now i remember
h: i can't believe that, i never did that i don't think
s: no, you were good, i was bad
s: alright everyone, that is the story
s: please stop investigating our pregnancy h: oh my god
s: we'll let you know, we promise h: yes
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