I'm gonna start with my brows,
so I'm using the Em Cosmetics Fine Liner Brow Pencil in "Deep Taupe", as always
Yeah, so I wanted to do a chit chat get ready with me to sort of...
give you guys an update of my life
I know I've been away
I haven't done an actual chit chat get ready with me since January, I think?
But yeah, I couldn't bring myself to film one because...
I was just feeling really down
Towards the beginning of quarantine, it wasn't that bad, like-
I was just trying to find ways to fill my time
so I was baking a lot
But then, I also wasn't going to the gym and then
I lost a lot of the progress that I had made
I feel like most people also were going through the same thing where
they weren't feeling very confident in their bodies
It was just really upsetting because I
had made so much progress right before quarantine
'cause I was training for a half marathon
I think I was on week six of my training routine–or, training schedule–
when quarantine started and when my race got canceled
Oh no, I'm out!
I think I have to switch
So I'm switching to the Revlon ColorStay Brow Creator in "Soft Black"
What I look for in brow pencils is usually something cool-toned
so
This isn't as light
Like,
these are sort of the same shade, but this one's a little darker–the Revlon one–
so that's why I just have to use a lighter hand with it,
whereas with the Em Cosmetics one, it's a little more forgiving
but both are still really great
Right before quarantine, I was training for a half marathon, and so I had lost a lot of weight
So when I started to gain weight during quarantine,
it was very discouraging
And then when I started to see how I saw myself–
Like, when I looked at myself
in the mirror, I was just
(sighs)
It's kind of triggering to talk about because I've never had a really good body image,
so I–
Yeah
It was to the point that I didn't even like looking at myself
so I didn't want other people to see me
and that's why it was just so hard for me to sit down and film, and
I briefly went over it on Instagram where I said I
just wasn't as confident
Um, I'm just gonna conceal my eyelids
I'm gonna use a very light shade of concealer
This is the Pony Effect Pro Fit Liquid Concealer in "Ivory"
'cause I want this to be like a "pastely" eyeshadow look
As creatives, you don't really ever detach from your work, and
that can both be a good thing and a bad thing
And for me, it's–
Most of the times, like, I love my job
It's something that I enjoy doing and
I realize I'm very fortunate and privileged to be able to have the job that I have
But at the same time, I'm the type of person who–
and I feel like most people are like this– but when you feel like you're being productive,
it's like, one of the best feelings in the world
So usually when I have a problem in my life, I usually try to
counter it by being productive, so
whether that's work or
you know, working out, or whatever
It just makes me feel...
like, refreshed, you know?
But because my job is also to be on camera
when I couldn't bring myself to get on camera,
and then I also–my gym was closed–
I felt like I couldn't win, like everything was just going wrong
A lot of my friends had told me to take a social media break
and I deactivated actually at first for probably, like
Like, one and a half days
and then I reactivated but I kept the app deleted
just because
I didn't want anybody to worry because I was getting comments on YouTube
You know what, I have to remove this eye
because I think I didn't put enough concealer
I'm gonna re-conceal this eye and then do it again because
It's just like, a little patchy
But
Yeah, before the social media break,
I was like, oh yeah, you know I–
I just won't check the app that much
but it wasn't until I deleted the app that I realized how much I was checking it without even knowing
You're on autopilot, you just automatically scroll to open it
I have kombucha
Back on my bs
Did you guys know you can get drunk off of this?
Like, if I drink a whole Health-Ade kombucha, I get Asian glow
It's so yummy though
But yeah, I've been feeling a lot better lately, um
Although I actually haven't posted much on Instagram since then,
I've been on Twitter a lot more
Like, just reading up on things; I think Twitter is
I mean, obviously not always reliable, but there are just so many resources
You can just retweet, so
it spreads information faster
I'm gonna go into the NYX Escape Artist palette
and I'm using this pastel pink shade
I've been meaning to dig into this palette
No, I used this palette once for my "Dalgona Coffee Makeup" on Instagram
That's my cafe series
I'm just gonna put the pastel pink on the edge
Um yeah, and so I'm back on my half marathon training schedule
I just completed week one
It makes me happy knowing that I'm back on a routine
Let's just do a regular smoked out winged liner
Let's smoke this out with a brown eyeshadow first,
and then we'll build it up with the purple one
Okay, let's use a purple eyeshadow
Yeah, I think that pretty much covers where I've been and how I've been feeling
I did give a brief explanation of it on Instagram
after I deactivated
because some people were DMing me saying that they thought I blocked them
or that something was wrong with my account
Yeah, I just went ahead and touched up on it
I'm very grateful everybody was so understanding
But yeah, what have you guys been up to?
Have you picked up on any hobbies or started anything since quarantine?
Oh! I started learning how to do my own nails
Cute, huh? It's polygel
So I actually, like, made this shape by myself
It's still–like, it could use a lot of work, especially around the cuticles
There's no other option right now
'cause press-on nails just fall off too quickly
Which mascara should I use today?
Let's use the YSL one
Haven't used this one in a while
Let's try J Lash
So, I got this at the RARE summit,
A Rare Day
One of you guys actually worked at this company and
you gifted this to me, so thank you
and I have not tried it, but I will try it now
Oh, these are cute
Oh wait, I kind of wanted to apply more eyeshadow
Yeah okay, let's just apply the sparkly eyeshadow now
So there's Moon Crystal from Kaja; you guys know I love this one
There's the MAC Eyeshadow Liquid, which is what I used in my sketching video
These are both pretty similar except for this is more like,
pigmented
and then this is more like a light shimmer
And then there's also Glitter Injections, so I could apply this glitter
Let me swatch it actually–
Oh my gosh, look how pretty that swatch is
This is "Feeling Like a Mermaid"
That's really cute, I love this glitter placement
Okay, let's do lashes next
So these are J Lashes in "Sadie",
and then I'm using the Petite lash glue
So moving on to the face, I'm gonna go in with my YSL primer
This is the Touche Eclat Blur Primer in...
"Silver"
There's nothing really like this primer that I've tried before–
Oh, my glitter chunks are getting everywhere but
yeah, there's nothing like this primer that I've tried before that's actually blurring and okay for
dry skin
So ever since I started using this, I'm just so obsessed with it
Sorry if you guys see a bunch of random glitter chunks; it's–
They were all over my fingers
But yeah, next I wanted to just talk about some things I'm grateful for
Because
I feel like once you sort of remind yourself of
what is going well in life,
then it makes you feel less bleak about life
and the world, so
Yeah, um...
I'm going to mix my YSL All Hours Foundation with my Pat McGrath Labs one
And that's just because I think this one's a little too light for me
So I think this year, more than anything, I'm grateful for my health
It's something that you really take for granted until like now, if–
Even if I cough, I'm just like, very paranoid
I'm very grateful that my friends and family are all healthy
Is it still too light?
I feel like it it is
It's okay, we'll bronze it up later
Girl, I don't know
I don't know if I'm gonna be able to work with this
Let's jump straight into the cream contour so that we can bronze
So lately, I've been contouring with the Fenty Beauty Cream Bronzer in "Amber"
This one
I'm grateful for you guys, obviously
You have all been so supportive during this time
So
Very grateful for that
And then blend it out
I've gotten a lot closer to different friends throughout quarantine
who I wasn't close to before
and
I'm really grateful for the connections I've made throughout quarantine because
I feel like without this–
Even though it sucks that we're all going through this
pandemic,
Before that, I–
I mean, it's easy to take the people in your life for granted, right?
Just some people who I never thought I would be close to, I am a lot closer to now
I don't know if you guys have been going through the same thing, but it's just–
I don't know
It's kind of special
I want to do blush today
Like a pastel pink blush
From the Escape Artist palette again,
and I'm just gonna dip into that pastel pink
Right here
I'm gonna dip into the Anastasia Dream Glow Kit
This is one of the best glittery highlighter palettes
So if you like, like, the subtle shimmer, which I love
This isn't for you though
This is very loose glitter chunks
Even if you like the subtle shimmer,
a chunky highlighter is a must
Yeah, I'm gonna go into that purple one, which is "Ethereal"
I'm gonna use the It Cosmetics Your Skin But Better Setting Spray
And then we're gonna smoke out the lower lash line, so
let's go back into the purple shade, right?
Hm, or should we dip into something else?
I'm just getting too experimental 'cause I haven't played with makeup in so long, but
let's do...
Yeah, let's just keep it monochromatic
Okay, I'm using the Il Makiage 188 Cream Shader brush
Going back in with the brow pencil, I'm gonna
elongate my lower lash line
Let's curl our lower lashes
And then something I like doing lately is once you apply the mascara to your lower lashes,
you pinch them together to create just little
separated sections
I'm going to
bring back this little freckle
I kind of want the blush to have a little bit of a purple gradient
so I'm going to take the same eye shadow
I'm going to apply it to the outer section
And then you can bring it up close to the eyeshadow as well
Moving on to lips, I'm using the ColourPop Lippie Pencil in "Oh Snap"
Let's try this Revlon lipstick
Its "Untold Stories" and it's like, a muted...
pink...? shade
Mm, this shade is so pretty
Do we need gloss?
No, I feel like the look is already pretty sparkly
I don't know–
I feel like I have mentioned this before, but I like to use a brow pencil
Just to create the upturn–
like, emphasize the upturned smile
This does go away pretty quickly
It's usually better if you want it to do this to take pictures because otherwise,
it
Like, when you're talking or you're eating,
it pretty much disappears
So it's just like a subtle difference
I'm so tempted to put on gloss right now
But I won't
[I] think that completes this look
Thank you so much for watching
It's been a really long time since I actually sat down and filmed a video where I was talking to you guys
so sorry if, like, I ended up not actually talking that much
Yeah, I just wanted to really get a few things off my chest about
how I've been feeling and why I haven't been filming
and I know when I mentioned it on Instagram, a lot of you guys could relate so
hopefully you don't feel so alone
But yeah, thank you so much for still being here and still supporting me through this
I think that's all I have to say so
Be safe everybody and I will see you in my next video
Bye!~