my relationship with my father was never
very good my father was an alcoholic and
a gambler and my parents divorced when I
was about 13 at that time my brother who
I'm only 13 months apart with got
diagnosed with schizophrenia he started
smoking dope from really early age and
he became really violent but before that
my brother went to a selective school he
was a genius and my whole life even from
a young girl like my he was he was
everything that my father who was also
pretty smart you know he's everything
everything my brother touched he could
do I did guitar lessons once as a child
and Paul sat in on the lessons and I
couldn't get the song so I just gave the
guitar to him and said you just take
over and you can have the lessons
because I'll never be as good as you and
so my whole life I've never felt I was
good enough ever and my brother though
after quite a few years we couldn't see
him anymore he became really violent I
lived at home with my mum till I was
about 38 because I we were just fearful
of what Paul will do he was so angry
that he she had caused his schizophrenia
and then 10 years ago we got the call he
was dead he didn't kill himself but he
died from asphyxiation which when you're
stoned and off your face you don't
breathe you don't you go to sleep but
you forget to breathe and he lived in
squalor
would you never go to his place because
the police told us not to come that but
a no it was it was so sad but it was a
relief that now he was out of pain and
now my mum was free although losing a
child is something that I never ever
want to process
and I had a lot of therapy I had a
breakdown about ten years ago when I was
in a clinic and I dealt with so much
stuff that came up about my brother
taking away my childhood and what came
out of that clinic and I saw my
psychiatrist for years and the week I
came out of the clinic actually I met my
husband but so I yesterday at breakfast
I did so much therapy wait what happened
to your dad he passed and my dad passed
away 20 years ago and just before he
passed I did see him and I felt like we
were going to build a relationship but
then he died very suddenly actually so I
just got there but then he was gone
like yeah it was but I felt like I got
there but there was unfinished business
there and I just felt ripped off in a
complete yeah that they took him away
before you know I was young when when he
died and finally become an adult I was
27 when he passed away I mean I was
finally became an adult I finally
thought good we can build a different
relationship now but I never got that
chance I never got the chance with him I
never got the chance at my brother so
all the men in my life were just gone
and then yesterday I spoke to Andrew at
breakfast one of the people here and was
just like a mid just a short
conversation I mentioned how my brother
was a genius and you know I could never
be as good as my brother so I sort of
you know I never really tried at school
or anything because I knew I could never
be as good as him you believed that you
could never be as good as him and Andrew
said you need to meditate on that yeah I
walked out going yeah I've had a lot of
therapy I don't need a meditate on that
I'm here for something else
I'm here for my health I'm not even talk
about my brother been there done that
and so then we come into the meditation
and we're doing the breathing and all of
a sudden in my heart I could feel this
pain and I just started crying out of
nowhere
and I was a bit shocked and then we
breathed again and then just came more
and then up here the vision of like was
just there they were there my brother
and my father and I was so happy then
they had a box a pink box with a big bow
I've ever had a big bow on it a gift
yep and inside the box was a ball like a
I can't explain like a ball with these
bright blue and green colors all over it
and I got the ball out and it bounced
onto my body it was like shimmering all
over my body all over and it was healing
me and I'm like a big young me getting
healed I'm healing and I kept thinking
of all the people to heal me like I just
didn't think that I would come from them
but I was just I was amazed and then my
brother my brother goes to me bubble he
used to call me bubble I wasn't the snot
would your smile of the makers you never
took drugs oh my god I can't believe all
my life I thought you were smart
no you should be proud that my dad was
there and there but then all of a sudden
I went to like the most vivid picture of
me it's a little girl with my long
blonde hair in this really tall grass
and I was running up a mountain of my
hair's blowing in the breeze and I'm
running up the mountain and as I get to
the top of the mountain I am like I am
now
and I just put my arms out and just when
I'm free I'm free and I just was the
most liberating experience I've ever had
in my life
and then I came down the mountain and
I'm like rolling and frolicking and like
a little girl again but now I'm an adult
but I was like enjoying the life I was
like oh my god and then my family like
my husband and my kids are at the bottom
of the grass
and we're like roll
in the grass and then we had a picnic
and then we're sitting there and then
that part of the meditation dr. Joe said
so go and lay down and I was like
thinking I don't want this to end I
don't know maybe I just gonna sit here
and then I thought no I lay down so then
I laid down and I was like just laying
there just thinking about it and my dad
comes to me again just my dad and he
called me little Jay and he says little
Jay I watch you from now that reality
that Justine experienced somewhere in
here yes or no unexpected yes or no a
question about her family came up
throwing the day she was all in on a
breath she just went for it just tapped
on the door shimmered those crystals and
all of a sudden pineal gland became
activated and what was relevant to her
for her evolution she got the experience
so now her brain processes a whole
frequency and that frequency is carrying
information and the event is more real
than her sitting standing up here
talking to yes or no so now stay with me
here
this is Justine as a little child in a
normal state of being all of a sudden
she has an alcoholic father she has a
brother who's a genius that
schizophrenic who's violent who has
massive mood swings and every experience
that she has on some level keeps
changing the way she thinks and feels
yes or no come on
and over time then one experience then
causes her then to all of a sudden move
from her normal state of being to this
state of being and we can say now that
her body and brain are in the past yes
because the experience creates a neuro
circuitry and the experience creates the
chemistry and that of course turns into
our thoughts and our feelings yes or no
so then we think neurologically within
the circuits of that experience and we
feel emotionally within it and of course
if a little child is watching her
brother get all the attention from the
father and he's a genius and and she's
not noticed and all that stuffed and she
can't really be free in her life because
she doesn't feel worthy are you with me
still come on so then she does the
therapies she takes the medications she
does all he has all the insights all the
understandings but it really doesn't
change her state of being
would you agree so then she goes for it
she gets lost in the act of the breath
she's not trying to make anything happen
she's just sincere she's just going for
it and the moment that door opens her
pineal gland begins to process a
frequency that's relevant to her are you
with me still come on and that frequency
is a greater level of energy than the
emotion that created all the
unworthiness from all the past
experiences so we could say that in one
moment she has an event that's carrying
an amplitude of energy that's greater
than all these past experiences
yes or no and the experience has to be
more vivid than the memory of her past
yes or no and the stronger the energy
feels which is the freedom of what she's
experiencing combined with the love that
she's feeling from her brother and her
father the last people she would think
the answer would come from it was so
real that it would begin to reshape the
neurocircuitry in her brain look at my
handwriting today and we changed the
chemistry chinga chemistry in her body
and then all of a sudden that would
change the way she thought and felt and
we could say that in one moment the past
was literally washed away yes or no and
the experience rewired the brain and
sent a new emotional signature to the
body and don't you think that all the
health conditions that she's battling is
because she's in the same subconscious
emotional state yes or no so then you
would have to agree with me then that
when she runs to the top of the mountain
as the little girl and runs to the top
of the mountain becomes the young woman
the woman she is today that it's
symbolic that she had to climb that
mountain to experience the freedom that
she felt and what mattered most to me
and this happens with so many
instantaneous healings is the person
doesn't talk about the pain being gone
or their vision coming back if they've
been blind their whole life or they here
what they come talk about the feeling
now feeling they're like I feel so free
I feel so much love for life I feel like
a little girl again we hear that over
and over again because she's literally
back to the same state of being she was
before all of this how many people
understand and and we can say in one
event she was born again how many people
understand
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and you know what she kept saying to me
on the path I'm never gonna forget this
moment I can't forget the moment of
course she created a long-term memory
and the memory of her brother and her
father will be the memory she always
thinks of instead of the memory of her
past and now she no longer belongs to
her past she belongs to her future and
her body got a biological upgrade by a
new frequency a new energy and it
happened in one second all the therapies
all the drugs that was matter to matter
that was the analytical mind trying to
resolve the problem within the emotion
of the past in the subconscious program
she would have never had that moment if
she wasn't all in she would have never
had that moment if she didn't say I'm
just gonna follow the instructions and
get lost in the act
she was so lost in the act that it all
of a sudden appeared to her because she
wasn't thinking about it she was open to
something how many people understand
turn the person that's you and explain