- If social media was a woman or even just a person,
I believe it would be a woman,
and it would be like this queen.
It would be like this Kim Kardashian larger than life,
like Victorian sense, like a queen, like Instagram, Twitter,
all this thing that's the queen of broken hearts.
And it's just, it's social media is going
around breaking people's hearts every day.
First of all, this song was one of three songs,
"Hot Girl Bummer", "Me & Ur Ghost"
and "Queen of Broken Hearts".
I made these in a matter of three days, these songs.
It was just like, I was just on one, I guess.
I don't know what was going on.
As an artist I try to put things into words,
like weird metaphors, like queen of broken hearts,
I guess is definitely a very strange metaphor
for like a social media platform
or like just the way people are feeling.
But, I didn't really know how else to put it other than
to make a character out of it.
Almost like a superhero or something like that.
But it's like a villain,
so social media is like this giant villain
that's like breaking people's hearts everywhere
and if we don't get these feelings from social media,
our hearts are broken.
We really could be depressed if we don't have that queen.
When is it that, something gets out of hand
then it's officially a problem.
You know what I mean?
It's something where it's like, you have like a vice,
like you like smoking a JUUL or something,
but then you can't go like a day without smoking your JUUL,
and then you can't go like
an hour without puffing your JUUL.
And it's almost like the same thing where people like will,
and me myself too, will be addicted to,
I don't know if it's the validation,
but just being in the loop.
When did that become such a dark thing?
Of course I wanna stay updated on my friends
and what they're doing and how they're doing,
but when did it become like unhealthy.
A thousand scars that's kind of more like
the relationship since I could
be like a shitty person and like,
I just wanted to put that in a song and just be like,
I won't leave you unscratched,
there will be this memory burned into your brain of,
man, that black bear guy kinda sucks.
I'm a shitty person because I could be selfish
and all these things, because I'm trying to stay
in tune with what other people are doing or I'm so focused,
hyper focused on like what's out there that's better?
There's just those accounts,
like those hype beast accounts where it's just like,
these lives are cooler than mine, dammit.
Once you're so far gone, you're just,
I don't care what anybody thinks anymore.
You know what?
I'll just delete my profile.
You can hate me.
Basically I popped a pill I'm fading just means
I'm gonna delete my profile,
I'm fine with just deleting everything.
I think it's also a responsibility to keep up my aesthetic.
I got to make sure that, whatever I post keeps my fans
indulged in what I'm doing and whatever
and I gotta be just like doing something cooler than
the last thing that I was doing and living my life
isn't good enough sometimes.
And the crown just feels heavy in that sense.
I know it sucks being around somebody who cares about
these kinds of things.
It's like, I pretend like I don't and I live my life,
but then like 10 days go by and I'm like,
I asked my girlfriend, I'm like, hey, it's golden hour,
can you grab a photo of me out here?
I just dyed my hair blue.
I just got some new blue in, will you?
You gotta take a break from like a normal life,
a normal walk every night at 5:30,
we go on our walk around the neighborhood and it's like,
hey, park the baby, take a picture of me
and for golden hour.
That could suck being around me.
It's just like damn, I posted my lunch every day
for two weeks now.
Do people really care what I'm eating?
I was trying to just embody and encompass the whole feeling
of, I'm feeling angsty right now,
I'm feeling like everybody hates me.
I'm sorry, I'm probably being annoying right now.
I'm being annoying.
That was how that line got in there.
That means at any point, I could just lose it all
and archive everything and all my posts will be gone
and I'll delete my account.
It's basically repeating the first time that I said it,
but it's like, no, I'm gonna do this.
Oh, this?
Oh, this is just Cashmere Chanel.
I'm a material girl you can't afford me.
That's what it means (laughs).
I've had this for years.
I love, this is my favorite pillow
and it was a little spendy,
but I also worked really hard so that I could,
so I could be a material girl.
You know what I mean?
I was almost inspired by that, like I'm so 3005,
but I just wanted to do like a 2000 before,
so definitely paying homage to Fergie And Will.i.am,
having that boom, boom, boom.
I think was a big part of this.
Me sticking up for myself.
I think I am a little bit ahead,
'cause I just tore myself down in this record.
I think, I picked myself back up in that line.
As social media, I'm the queen
and I will make feel horrible.
You will bow down to me basically.
I'll leave you literally with nothing
other than maybe some fake validation that lasts
for a little bit, but there's no real,
there's no real human connection there.
Anytime I'm with Genius I have a stimulating conversation
'cause I actually get to look actually into, I'm like,
what did I freaking mean by that?
I'm gonna try to bullshit my way through this.
It's good.
An insightful conversation to me is,
let's talk about why I do things and why you do things
and how we actually feel.
I think talking about feelings is,
there's nothing more therapeutic.