okay guys so we're starting this video off with a amazon haul
my girlfriend already opened the box just to make it like easier thank babe i got a switch
i wish you guys saw her face wait i'm going to show you guys the one we have
so you want to switch it okay let me go grab it now we can just use the new one for garlic
and peppers this one yeah okay she wants to use oil yeah she wants to do like infused oil
so this is just a little you know you guys isn't this the cutest thing and then this goes in there
and then you just pour there's something else in the box and i don't know if you guys know this
which i'm sure you guys do i won't be staying here forever we're actually gonna be moving
on a state and it's like all of these things we would buy then to like start a new place
together like i moved in here with a completely other girlfriend we fought i will fight you so
we're finally now like getting rid of olds bringing in new to create a life together and
we both really like organizing we both have like pretty much the same aesthetic we're just
getting it all done now this on the counter is not aesthetic but this is it says dishes
so you put the soap in there and it'll look cute on your counter maybe i need to just explain it
making fun of me so isn't that cute
oh you are she's ready to use it now here we go we are starting the dish soap process
i want you guys to see something she's making bread birdie does not let anybody
hold her i don't know her she's upset look at this my girlfriend and these fur babies
it's a it's a beautiful sight because my girlfriend special to me and these animals are
my actual life but yeah they're my actual life i'm looking like a hot mess um i should tell them that
so let's have a story time but i'm sick so as you guys know i have excoriation disorder and
i pick my skin that's why i have all this happening i saw someone in the comments mentioned
like what in the world is this so i was putting away clean dishes and i don't know what happened
but like the corner of the door of the cabinet like just went scrape but my skin was like hanging
from the cabinet it was literally disgusting so that's what happened there and sometimes it's
worse than others i've been suffering with like really bad anxiety lately so that doesn't help
and um so i do have some areas on my leg that i do pick and i cannot control it that's why it's
called excoriation so hard to say disorder because you literally can't control it it's part of the
ocd family and i wish that i could control it i'm having a hard time long story short um i have
cellulitis again and a lot of people are like why are you getting it so often it's because of that
um i do you know keep myself clean i shower daily la your la that has nothing to do with it i
promise it does not um you could be the cleanest person in the world and still get cellulitis
unfortunately and it's easier for people to get it once they've already had it so since
you know first time i ever got it i was 16. so since i've already had it now multiple times plus
you know i got lymphedema and that's you know where i get my cellulitis is my lymphedema leg
lymphedema lymphadene i can't because it's lymphedema it's like i don't know what to do
but like this normally looks like fat chunky like and then this one is like this it's really bad a
few months ago i was getting up off the bed and i felt the bottom of my stomach and it was a little
bit more i had time to kind of come to terms with this week later i noticed it in my right leg like
i know from experience everything about cellulitis because i've had it twice it was both times
in high school the second time i actually was hospitalized because i was like literally on the
verge of death my weight does play a big role but skinny people do get so lighter so i need to make
that known as well so otr had a horrible water question okay simple enough i woke up the next day
and my whole bottom of my leg was super red like hot and i knew exactly what it was i knew exactly
what it was right off the bat the shivering the fever it wasn't because of my bladder infection
that was a coincidence it was because i had cellulitis and it was growing i had a fever
like shivers the whole thing but surprisingly i didn't puke this time so i'm like really glad
about that i am sick currently on antibiotics today is day three of me having cellulitis
i didn't want to share it but it's like you know what you guys want me to be more
i feel like i already am super vulnerable in my videos but you guys want that you guys want
to know like more about my life and stuff and i wasn't going to share it's the truth and if you
see me chilling in bed that is why and this is the third day of just chilling in bed and i absolutely
hate it it definitely reminds me of bedbound days like the first day it was great it was like
oh i don't have to do anything but now i'm just like what do you guys think about that over it
like i see things around the apartment i want to do i i miss my walking i was
walking daily um it was actually the last time i walked which i filmed for you guys i noticed
while walking even a little bit before walking like my leg was hurting so bad and i was like
yep i know exactly what this is and then slowly it got red anyways i'm rambling at this point
but that's what i'm going through so yay me it's actually my girlfriend's lunch break right now
so we're gonna like play mario party so mario party bye okay you guys so i figured while i'm
stuck doing nothing i could be a little productive and go through all of these lipsticks so i'm gonna
just be laying them on my bed i think i'm just gonna like color coordinate them i guess would
be the first option i don't really know we'll see what i decide okay oh this is my leg by the way
it's a massive league okay
like and some of these i've had for so long this is probably like one of the most
longest one i've ever had easily four plus years that's a tart so that's like automatic trash
this is one of my newer ones colourpop lippie stix
oh okay this one's broken so that's gonna go in the garbage so far that's all i've gotten rid of
so i went into myers and um it was probably like 11 p.m at night and i bought almost like
one of their lipsticks in like every brand um i spent over 400 on lipsticks there was
at least 100. it was probably the craziest thing i've ever done besides buying like over a thousand
graphic novels in just like a few weeks span so speaking of marilyn monroe on netflix they have a
new series a documentary called the unheard tapes and it's about melon row and i am so excited to
watch it okay so i found one i want to try like it's this purpley color with a bunch of glitter
and i'm just over here wondering why i bought it to begin with i've never tried it so oh no no no
oh wait okay i'm keeping it because it also smells good
and i think with a good like face of makeup on it might actually look really good okay so update
i've gone through every single one these are my garbage but then all these are my babies
so it's getting a lot darker in here so don't mind the lighting but this type of color is not
good for my lips because my lips are so small look
it like makes them look like two red lines just like across my face just like
chilling just like i hate it so this is definitely a no go love a pink lip i'm
not gonna lie with like an all black outfit is like one of my most favorite looks on myself
but this one
i call this lighting
i look so crazy in this lighting
i would love to do a giveaway but obviously i wouldn't give the ones i've used i have a lot
that i've never opened but i feel like a lot of them are expired and i would hate to give
you guys expired makeup so i'm sorry i do want to do a giveaway though and i'm kind of excited
and these are the ones that i kept there is still quite a few but not like a ton these are just the
longer ones and then these are the regular ones hopefully that makes sense you know amberisms
emotions see through your flaws cause i know that you got so much more to give
you made a real mess but i miss you though cause i can go to sleep when i'm alone again