I don't think that we see how we really look,
how other people see, because I still feel skinny.
People are like, "No, April, you're slim-thick.
You've gained weight." I'm like, "But I'm not."
And then when I see that,
the attention that I'm getting from men,
I'm like, "Wow, I must be thick."
So I guess I'm thick then. I don't know.
So I posted the before and after picture,
and it was embarrassing for me to post this before
and after picture of myself,
because it was like, "Oh my god. This is how I used to look."
But I felt like there's a lot of women who have had children,
a lot of people who are suffering from feeling insecure
and all these things that I really was like,
okay, so this is not just for me.
This is helping other people and re-motivating people
who probably feel like, "I can't look this way,"
or, "I don't feel sexy,"
and, "I'm not capable of getting there,"
and it's like, "You can."
People think that I've had surgery. It's crazy to me.
I'm like, "Dude, did you not follow my whole journey?
I really worked my butt off to get to this point."
It was really for people, to just motivate people, like,
"You can do it. I did it, you can do it too."
What is this called? Say Gatorade?
Gatorade.
Yeah. You in the gym with mommy today?
Let's get it in.
I motivated myself, honestly, on this fitness journey,
because again, I'm a mom.
Having kids, I just always told myself
I don't want to let myself go.
I was also in a relationship, a public relationship,
and after the breakup, I was like, "Okay, April.
This is when you really need to get yourself together,"
like not for anyone else other than myself,
because I didn't feel,
I wasn't happy when I saw results in the mirror.
I was like I'm not going to be out here feeling unhappy.
Let me get into the gym.
The gym, to me, wasn't just a space of
trying to get my body together. It's also mental.
It was helping me mentally just kind of release stress
and all of that. It was like a whole thing.
It wasn't just transformation for my body,
it was like my physical, my mental, my spirit,
it was all of it.
One day I might just kind of just run for an hour and a half.
Another day I might literally just do leg,
which is like squatting or leg press, hamstrings, calves.
Another day, arms.
I hate arms, by the way, but arms, upper body.
Another day where it's like plyometrics, where I'm jumping.
It's crazy, like different sorts of things,
but I kind of want to shock my body
so it doesn't get used to the same thing.
My relationship with my body is a very personal one.
I have two children, so it's like I've done
a lot of transformation as far as just feeling not happy
with how I've looked after having kids
and reworking on myself.
Because there's moments, like I said,
when I look into the mirror and I'm like,
"Oh my god. I love how I look,"
and then there's moments when I'm like, "Oh god,
you need to shape it up, April, this is not it."
It's been a very personal one.
I have definitely been on quite a journey
to get to where I feel like I need to be,
and now I'm in a space where I really like ...
I love how I look.
Being skinny growing up, I definitely was made fun of.
I have friends that literally tell me like,
"April, I really thought you had a eating disorder,"
because I was so skinny. But I eat a lot.
I used to be like, "Why can't I gain weight?"
For me, it's easier for me to literally lose weight than it is
for me to gain weight. It's a struggle for me to gain.
I've been trying to gain weight for so long
and I'm now 32 years old
and I'm like, "Dude, I'm trying to get a little thicker."
It's been a thing. This is why I've kind of like
I know people have goals in the gym.
For me, it's not to be bulky and let me show every muscle.
It's just really for me to just kind of gain
a little bit of weight.
That's been my goal, and just toning.
My favorite part of the body to work out, my butt.
I think girls, we all strive to have a big butt,
like a nice, firm one. Even if it's not huge,
we definitely want the ultimate butt.
So my legs, the calves, just the hip area,
that is my goal.
Genetically, some people really aren't born with butts,
and that's why some people go get surgery,
and I say, "To each is their own."
And then there's some people that actually have it there,
they just have to eat a certain way
and really work hard for it. I wasn't born with a huge butt.
I had a butt, but the moment I started eating proper,
the moment I started working out a particular way,
I was able to build muscle
that shaped my butt in a particular way.
So it's possible. You just have to really get in the gym,
try to mold your body the way you want to
and if you try,
you'll see that you'll actually get some results.
What I hope my kids learn from me and my lifestyle now
is just I want honestly for them to be happy.
I think that we all have a certain type of vision
of how we want our bodies to look
and at the end of the day, I can only hope
and ask that they just are happy with themselves,
that they don't transform themselves for someone else,
but really nearly for how they feel
and how they want to look
and how happy they want to feel, based on that. Yeah.
Because I just want them to be happy with their image.