you.
>> And they did the pinky thing.
>> Former NBA star Lamar O
do
a very public live.
>> He opens up in his new memoir
"Darkness to light."
When we see those clips back, do
you go right back to those
moments?
Are they hard for you?
>> I wish I would have taken
advantage of the opportunity of
being married to that beautiful
woman.
>> Reading that book, I was
thinking about that, do you
think if it was not for the
drugs and hiding that from her
and what it stole from her, that
you would still be with Chloe?
>> 100%.
>> You talk about your ruined
relationships.
Do you feel like you could
repair that relationship?
>> I hope so.
That's not the only one I hope I
can repair, the relationship
with my family and children in
particular.
>> How is it going with your
children who are now young
adults?
This book was very revealing.
>> It's going well with them.
Just trying to make up for the
lost time.
Slowly but surely.
>> You mentioned kobe Bryant.
And you say he's like a father
figure to you.
You told a lot of stories that
people weren't prepared for.
How is it being received?
>> I haven't heard anything bad
so I guess that's good.
[ Laughter ]
>> The one thing I wanted to --
I didn't want to offend him,
especially.
Because his greatness did rub
off on me.
The year that I won the award, I
should have given him that
award.
He taught me to be selfish in a
healthy way.
>> We talked about how when
you're writing a book, you
prepare the people around you or
try to prepare the people around
you for what you might share.
Did you have conversations with
people --
>> It's really raw and I think
that's the heart of the book.
It's the truth.
>> What was the hardest part to
relive?
>> I think it was all
therapeutic for me.
But the hardest part was
revisiting my son dying.
>> As a parent, I can't imagine.
And I thought -- and I said this
before we went on -- losing your
mom at such a young age.
How would you describe your mom?
>> Fun-loving.
The face of the party.
I can always remember at
dinners, everybody always
saying, where is Kathy?
>> You talk about losing your
mom and then you made this
connection, I saw, of how you
felt like your love for Chloe
was very much like that.
She loved you like a mom.
Was that a connection that you
all have?
>> I think the look in her eyes,
they have the same shape eyes,
it reminded me of her all the
time.
>> What do you think you need to
do now?
You talk about darkness to
light, but you're being honest
how hard it is to stay sober.
Are you in the light or on your
way --
>> Just put god and family first
and just try to be the best.
That's it.
>> We need good people around
you, Lamar.
Stay away from my Lamar.
And how is it now not playing.
Last time you were on, we were
talking about your clothing
line --
>> Hopefully I can play again.
I'm going to play this summer in
the big three.
>> I like that.
That would be great.
[ Cheers and applause ]
>> I've been away from
basketball for like five years.
Hopefully the people can give me
a break out there.
I know they're going to be
aiming at me now with this book
coming out and everything.
>> Why?
>> It gets competitive out
there.
>> Have you been in touch with
any of the kardashian/jenner
family.
I know you want to repair some
of those relationships.
>> Khloe texted me the other day
and she texted me laugh out
loud.
And she didn't know -- she was
surprised that I remembered one
of the stories that I told her
about us in there.
That was a good --
>> Listen, Lamar.
She's single.
I love baby true.
You are great with babies.
Could there ever be a
reconciliation?
>> You will probably have to ask
>> I'm on it.
>> You want it.
You definitely want it.
I will always leave that open.
>> I like that.
So everything is going great
with you, though?
>> Yes.
>> I like that, Lamar.
>> Thank you.
>> Get his book, "Darkness to