- Yeah it's not something I'm ashamed of
but there's only so many different ways
and for me to just frame the concept of zero.
- I haven't.
- It'll probably take place at sometime in the future.
- You're just really rubbing in the fact
that I'm a virgin aren't you?
(laughs)
(jazzy music)
My name is Shahbaz Khan and I'm a student
but I'm also an illustrator, an actor,
a writer and a director for theater.
- I've done a few.
(beat music)
Er.
(woman laughs)
There we go.
(all laugh)
- I'm a virgin so I guess it's just the one
that uses my hand.
I've done the Keep it 100.
- That was the first kiss video.
- I stood over there and I
had my first kiss with Camilla.
(techno music)
(woman laughs)
Oh that's sweet.
(both laugh)
And then I had to do it again.
- Sure.
- Okay.
Then I went home.
- Home is a house in Bothell where I live with my parents
and my two brothers.
- No they found out.
- I woke up in the morning and I saw that the video
was on the channel and I went through the comments
and then I saw that my little brother
had posted a comment in response to somebody
who had called me Indian or Middle Eastern
I don't remember which and he said
actually he's Pakistani and I was like, oh no.
I don't think my dad has seen it
and I really hope he doesn't.
- Because my mom cried when she found out.
- No.
No, not at all.
- Oh yeah, I learned a little bit more about myself,
it's just kinda funny 'cause a lot of people
thought I was gay and I was like,
well you're one letter off, I'm actually gray.
For me I identify as gray, straight.
I'm really only attracted to women
but my sexual attraction and sexual libido
isn't really all that strong but I figure I'm capable of it.
This is probably something I'd know a little bit more
once I actually have sex but for now
I feel like this is a comfortable place for me to be in.
- A lot of the people made fun of the fact
that my pants were like up here.
A lot of people made fun of the fact that I was
like super stiff and just didn't really know
what was going on with my body.
- Yeah before we shot the line-up video
I was talking to Hodan who was another one of the guessers
she is a muslim, she saw that video
and she was just like "you were so brave for doing that
"and I'm really glad that you did."
There have been a couple of other people
who are just like, you know it's really good
to see that this video happened
and that's kind of what I wanted to do,
I'm a muslim guy, I grew up in a pretty like
religious household and like, when you're the child
of immigrants you kind of have to like find that balance
between the culture of your family and the country
where they came from and the culture of where you live
and where your home is.
It's a really tricky thing and one of like
the main battlegrounds is just dating and relationships.
So the fact that there are people out there
who are like able to see a brown muslim guy like me
kissing someone else and just,
I wouldn't say being confident about it
but just seeing that it is something that can happen
that was the effect I hoped it would have.
- Did you enjoy it?
- Yeah I think I learned a little bit more about myself.
(woman giggles)
- Sometimes when I'm feeling like I'm not in control
of my life, I will dress up as Clark Kent
and I will wear a superman shirt and a superman cape.
Superman is my favorite superhero
because at his core, Clark Kent is just a guy
who is trying to reconnect with his roots
and that's something a lot of children of immigrants
can relate to, especially like if you come
from a country like Pakistan or from the Middle East
or any of these other countries that have ever
been vilified by the United States.
Clark Kent spends most of his childhood
basically getting told he has to hide his powers,
he has to hide the fact he's an alien,
he has to pretend like he is just a regular American
but as he grows older and he connects more
with his roots, he starts wearing the family crest
that his family had on Krypton.
As he connects more with his roots,
he becomes a better citizen and he improves
the community around him.
So this thing that he was taught to fear
for his entire life, become something that ends up
empowering not only him, but the people around him.
I just think that's so cool
and also I don't think he's white
but that's a completely different story.
(clicks tongue)
(laughs)
Thank you for watching,
be sure to watch the other Throwback Thursdays
also you should probably subscribe to the channel,
that'd be nice, that'd be cool,
I really need to get on that.
- I have not. (laughs)
- I'm sorry.
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