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[laughing]
Ah, see, that's grandma.
[bell ringing]
Mama, I can't walk that fast.
-[laughs] -Don't laugh.
-That is not funny. -Open this door.
-Come on in. -Child, you got to walk fast.
My mom is the type of individual
that just wants to see her children happy.
So, I think that's how a parent should be,
is by their child's side.
Yeah, that looks real good.
I was massaging it earlier.
CLARISSA: That looks real good.
I always wanted a little girl.
So God gave me this grant
to have Taliyah as my little girl.
When Taliyah came out to me, it was at a club.
I thought that we was going to the club
and just chill out, you know, look at the show.
Taliyah was on the stage
and I'm there looking and looking.
"Who is that?"
"Why is that light coming over here to me?"
So, Taliyah said, "That's my biological mother."
And I'm like, "Okay..."
"My baby, gorgeous!"
[laughs]
I've never asked you this.
When Tanisha died from silicone injections...
Mm.
...did you think that was gonna happen to me?
Mm-hm.
Tanisha Cassadine was my mentor.
She was also the one
who talked me into getting silicone injections.
And in 2015,
when I started having all these health issues
and I had the double mastectomy,
I reached out to her and she told me
she would never have any more silicone injections.
If she took me seriously
she wouldn't have gotten injected.
But the next year, 2016,
I got a phone call that she was gravely ill.
She had silicone injections done on a Saturday.
She went into a coma by Tuesday
and she died on that Wednesday.
And it hurt so much.
CLARISSA: Right there.
TALIYAH: Mm-hm. That's hard.
That's hard, that's real hard.
How many surgeries you think I would have to get?
CLARISSA: I'm thinking four
'cause it's going to take a while
to even take out both legs, right?
So, are you nervous about me
getting more silicone taken out?
Yeah.
Okay, so worst case scenario.
CLARISSA: Is?
Something going wrong.
Because my thing is, like, everything that has
happened to me so far is unpredictable.
Is that something that you've prepared yourself for?
No mother is prepared for that.
My hope for my daughter is
to have this poison taken out of her body...
that she won't have anymore of the health issues.
And I know Taliyah has all these other dreams.
I want her to have every bit of dream
that she want in life.
But I know one thing.
I'm proud of you.
It takes a lot for somebody to admit something,
to get it corrected.
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K. MICHELLE: My hope for Taliyah
is that she can just be happy.
And she can live her life.
[line dials]
K, Taliyah's calling right now.
She just left her consultation.
Okay.
Taliyah-Biyah.
-TALIYAH: Hey K. -[chuckles] what you doing?
Just sitting outside
of the surgeon's office right now.
And how did that go?
It didn't go good.
Tell me what's going on.
Basically, he's a little disappointed
that I have still smoked.
-Oh, you smoked a cigarette? -Yeah.
They gon' put off your surgery?
He would prefer to push it back.
Okay, tough love on some real stuff.
Did you not tell me
that you don't want to be livin' like this
the rest of your life?
Did you not tell me you don't like how you feel?
You don't like how you look.
You don't like what you're going through.
-Did you not tell me this? -Yes.
You gon' deal with these cigarette,
you gonna get this surgery
and stay positive to the end.
-Okay? -Okay.
-I love you. -Love you, too.
-Bye-bye. -Bye.
Today just feels crushing.
And I think what hurts me more
is feeling like I caused disappointment.
Guess it's time to go.
Part of me in my head is trying to figure out
how to kick the habit.
But the craziest part is I'm really more so mad at myself
for being truthful.
Like, it could have been so easy to lie.
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