So here, this is me with Hailey in New York.
We were riding bikes,
and I remember just struggling.
I remember feeling, like,
emotionally just overwhelmed, and talking to her.
Not knowing how to, like, communicate certain things
and just feeling kind of, like, frustrated.
You know, there's been a lot of things
that have happened in my life.
And, um, I think this was just a point in my life
where I was just so overwhelmed.
And I'm just-- I'm being a normal person and--
and crying, um, I think.
When I look at when I'm in the media
or I look at things on the internet
and people are like, "Justin's upset.
Why is he upset?"
It's like they don't give me permission to be upset.
I don't get-- I don't have permission to be, you know,
human and shed tears.
And there's so many people every day
who are in a conversation with their girl
or their wife or their mom and they break down, you know?
But they don't have cameras capturing it, you know?
So, people are like, "Is he okay?
He's having a mental breakdown," um, you know?
And I'm just-- I'm just emotional.
I-- you know? And I think that's okay.
( music on speakers )
♪ Oh, whoa, oh, forever ♪
♪ Ever, ever, ever ♪
♪ Do you want to look at me forever? ♪
♪ Ever, ever ♪
♪ Uh, yeah ♪
Are you gonna put that at the end?
Remember when it was like, um, over that beat?
♪ Do you want to look at me forever, ever, ever? ♪
- Sure. - You told me you were going to.
- You don't have to lie to me. - We talked about that?
- No, I mean-- hey, hey, bro. - It's okay. You're--
If you want to do your job, do your job.
But if you don't, don't. I mean, it's up to you.
- That's right. - You know?
( music on speakers )
♪ Picture perfect, you don't need no filter ♪
♪ Gorgeous, make 'em drop dead ♪
Poo Bear:
on a song off of, like, the way I felt
or a reaction of other people.
You know, Scooter coming in to listen to everything, like,
the music whispers something, and it'll be like, "Hit."
♪ Yeah, you got that yummy, yum ♪
♪ That yummy, yum ♪
♪ That yummy, yummy, say the word on my way ♪
♪ Yeah, babe, yeah, babe, yeah, babe ♪
♪ You got the yum, yum, yum, whoa ♪
♪ Whoa, ooh ♪
♪ Yeah, you got that yummy, yum, that yummy, yum ♪
Nick:
There's something about his character, his charisma,
and I think he misses it.
I've been working with Justin for over ten years now.
And I always say, like, I'm really good at reading him.
And as much as he secluded himself from that shit, like,
man, that man lives for the stage.
He loves his fans. He always talks about them.
"I know my fans are waiting. I know they want new music."
And, like, I always told him when he was sad, I'm like,
"Yo, you should go make music 'cause you love it."
You know, and he'd be, "Ah, I don't want to throw anything out right now."
I'm like, "No, don't put anything out.
Just go make music." 'Cause that's when he's at his happiest.
I think he misses that.
And I don't think he wants to say it,
but he misses that shit, yeah.
I think fear is an attack on my life,
and I think it has been for a long time.
But it's funny because I'll go and jump on a stage.
- Woman: Right. Right. - And I don't care at all.
Man: Are you really not afraid to go on stage?
- What's the difference between-- - Not at all.
Man: How is that possible?
Uh, because when I'm on stage,
um, it's a different--
it's a different side of your brain, I think.
It's a creative side to your brain.
I think the other side, the processing side,
is a different side.
I think that takes more frontal lobe,
and right now my frontal lobes are really ( bleep ).
When I'm performing, I have this--
I have the mic, so it's me leaving everything.
But when I'm vulnerable and I'm talking,
it's almost like I can't-- don't feel like I can lead.
I feel like people are judging me for some reason.
( indistinct chatter )
- Come on, Scooter. - There you go, Scoot.
( indistinct chatter )
( all cheering )
We are on the set of the "Yummy" music video.
The first music video for the first single
off of "Changes."
♪ On the table, get on the table ♪
Hailey:
because it's the first time he's done a music video
for something of his own solo work
for the first time in a really, really long time.
-
Scooter asked me to be a the "Yummy" shoot.
Man: And action!
- ( playing instruments ) - Good.
Buzz:
and no sooner does he get out there and he--
he just had a really tough time.
We appreciate everyone's patience, guys.
- ( indistinct chatter ) - Sound's up.
Justin:
Like, a lot of people,
a lot of dynamic, a lot of stuff.
I was in my head a lot, you know?
It was hard for me to really enjoy it like that.
But I know that some days are gonna be just like that.
I mean, in any work space, you know,
there's gonna be those off days
where you just feel kind of like--
I got a good crew. Everyone's, you know--
I should be good, but, like, today I just feel off.
I think that day I was just a little off.
Buzz:
that when he feels stressed,
that he can use a technique called havening
that I was trained in,
and havening is a psychosensory technique
that it actually raises the feel-good chemicals
in your brain on demand.
It's basically like a self-soothing thing.
Everybody kind of has their own version of havening without even knowing it.
It's like when you're a little kid
and you suck your thumb to soothe yourself
when you're starting to feel really stressed out
or just to keep yourself calm.
It's almost like, I think, when you're, like, a kid
and your mom is, like, rubbing your back to sleep.
And it's, like, the best feeling in the world.
It's kinda like that, except you're doing it for yourself.
Buzz:
prompts that allow him
to know what it is that he should be doing
in the moment that he's feeling stressed.
And then he has a coordinated signal back to me
that lets me know what's wrong, how he feels,
and what he needs.
The key to his mental health now
is to create a structured, organized,
predictable environment around him.
( music playing )
Nick:
is just to keep him mentally healthy
and, you know, happy is creating a schedule
that's not too overwhelming for him.
Before, when we would put a tour together,
we would put the tour together while doing awards shows
and promo shows and radio shows and interviews,
and then fly to New York to do Jimmy Fallon,
fly back in, do a rehearsal, shoot a music video,
all within the same amount of time.
This schedule just needs to be a little easier on him,
not overwhelm him with 17 jobs in a day.
Amen:
and their brain just looks terrible,
that same brain six months from now
can look much better if you do the right things for it.
I'm just incredibly impressed
with the brain's ability to heal.
The changes that I've seen with Justin are monumental.
He's matured tremendously.
He's not living in survivor mode anymore.
His sleep is pretty wonderful.
I mean, it's healthy and he's,
you know, able to wake up in the morning
and be cheerful and excited and exercise.
Nick:
is how he deals with things
and how he deals with what he's feeling,
how he deals with anxiety that creeps in.
He faces it in a very, very different way.
He's not medicating himself.
He's just growing and using the down moments
to his advantage and learning.
Hailey:
if you work a nine to five job or if you're Justin.
It doesn't really matter who you are.
Everybody's gonna have days where they wake up
and they feel crappy and they don't feel like
pushing through it that day, but it's part of life.
I can say confidently that I know
he's the most excited for this chapter.
♪ Oh, whoa, whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh, whoa, whoa, forever, ever, ever, ever ♪
♪ Do you want to look at me forever, ever, ever? ♪
♪ Yeah, do you see us in Vegas pushing on Monte Carlo? ♪
♪ Bet that money on baby ♪
♪ Bet she don't leave me, oh, no ♪
Oh, man. One for the road.
This one's called "Good Night, Stax."
( music playing )
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
Man: He's a sweet dog.
♪ Tomorrow I'll be back ♪
♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪
♪ Tomorrow you know I will be back ♪
♪ Stax ♪
That's it.