hello everybody the last few weeks in
the beauty community and then some of
our personal lives have been very insane
I know a lot of you are sick and tired
of hearing about the subject I know a
lot of you are expecting to get a lot of
tea today
I know the whole world is sitting here
wondering what is Geoffrey star going to
say next and I think that this will be
one of the most important videos that I
ever upload about 10 days ago talked he
uploaded a video about James Charles it
caused waves there was a lot happening
behind the scenes and I think today I
would like to shed some light on the
entire experience because I think that
things are getting crazy dangerous and
we need to have a conversation so
yesterday James uploaded a video there
was mentions of me in there and I want
to be very transparent with my audience
for hours yesterday it took me back to
the old Geoffrey and I was in a very
dark place I sat there for hours and it
started to get really dark in my head
and what I mean by that is that you guys
know me for always sticking up for what
I believe in you know that I am brutally
honest on my channel I am always keeping
it real has it gotten me in trouble
before absolutely whether it's a makeup
review a conversation about someone else
or any part of drama or anything that
I've ever been in in the past I have
been very outspoken and sometimes I've
spoken too much and I think that this
week was definitely one of those
scenarios now most of you have seen some
brutal tweets that I sent out last week
a lot of you have seen the vicious text
messages that I sent and I want to let
you understand something because I said
those things that does not equal me
hating James Charles he has been in my
life for a few years now are we the best
of friends no but we had a real
connection
I loved and cared about him and I
definitely think I mishandled our
friendship which I will dive into in a
minute but I want to let you guys know
that there is no actual hate in this
heart I don't know what the future holds
but I do know that I need to get a few
things off my chest and one of those
things is that behind the scenes there
was definitely weird feelings everyone
over the last few days keeps asking
about the Seattle trip about the text
messages and I really want to let you
guys know something after Seattle okay
which there's so many rumors right
everyone has their own version of the
story we were all there today I am NOT
going to give the world what they want
and I don't think that everyone wants us
from me but I think that there is a
major portion that thinks Jeffrey star
is going to come for James because I was
in a dark place yesterday I said some
things online about pulling receipts and
showing things and I sat there with
myself and I sat there with my mother
and I sat there with Nathan and we fully
fully understand the power of millions
of people watching and what my voice and
what this channel actually means to me
and what it means is that I don't want
to play the games anymore i sat there
yesterday and I started to get really
angry I was gonna pull voice memos I was
gonna pull old text messages from other
people that don't want to be involved
and I was just getting into a place
where it wasn't healthy okay and thank
God I'm in the headspace that I am today
because I stopped those feelings I let
them all subside and I understand that
now that isn't okay
I am NOT going to fuel this fire bigger
so everyone can get more entertainment
because behind the scenes this isn't
funny this is our real lives and I
inserted myself into something publicly
that
shouldn't have and I think that I need
to let you guys know where I'm at today
and where I've been this entire year
okay I am in an amazing place I'm in a
beautiful relationship my business is
amazing
my family is mainly healthy besides my
mom my dogs are healthy I have amazing
employees I have a good group of people
around me and I think sometimes we slip
into our old ways and today I know what
people want they want me to sit here and
do great James they want me to open up
my phone and expose it all I'm done
doing that and it may be shocking some
of you may be like oh you're just trying
to save your own ass are you a liar are
you this I'm willing to bite the bullet
and let anyone think what they want but
today I will not be posting voice memos
I will not be posting text messages I
will not be exposing anything more this
has to stop
I'm embarrassed by my own actions and a
lot of you may be like whoa whoa whoa
whoa what do you mean by that I could
have handled things differently after
Seattle yes me and Nate were very
uncomfortable with some things that had
happened we were kind of getting distant
from James and we really weren't on the
same vibe and that's okay
but what I should have done is vented
all my feelings to James and I know that
taught he got to do that she had private
conversations with him I didn't do that
I should have been mature enough to say
hey I love and care about you I've heard
XY and Z about you I've seen some things
I didn't like here's my feelings but
guess what
I didn't and that was my first mistake I
want to give you guys some context I
don't want you to see things that I've
written to someone and think wow like
Geoffrey is an evil person he's a [ __ ]
I want to let you guys know that there
is a big piece of the story that I don't
think a lot of people know and that's
that behind the scenes there were people
in my head
there were people telling me a lot of
stuff and I don't mean my own friends I
mean people that had known James they
were being very I don't know the right
word but they were
telling me things that was making me
feel a whole other way should I have let
other people get in my head and sway my
opinion about someone no that's my
problem
and I have to deal with that I have let
people get in my head for years I have
let others and their opinions somehow
get to me so moving forward I want to
handle things way differently than I
have in the past did I jump the gun on a
situation that I didn't fully understand
and chime in absolutely and I am living
with that every day
there's a lot of questions about my
tweets and I want to say that I regret
them I don't regret much in my life but
I regret hitting the send button because
they were bigger and louder than I ever
imagined and it made things worse when I
could have handled things privately and
that is something I'm working on
everyone is so used to Jeffrey being the
most controversial person in the beauty
community I am very outspoken
whether it's about brands shade ranges
someone's stealing from other companies
an old friend that I've had to set
straight you guys know me for being
brutally honest you know me for keeping
it real you know me that I'm not a liar
so I don't want my character to ever be
misconstrued and I do want to come clean
and say that I do regret sending those
tweets before fully accusing an
individual of doing anything I need more
facts and I also really need to get
something off my chest
James Charles his brother Ian I sent a
very mean tweet to him when I fully
didn't understand what he was even
referring to and that's the problem with
the internet we take things personally
were selfish people we see things and
you just think oh that's about me
because you already had a situation with
someone so you just think that that's
about me and IANS tweet wasn't about
anything that was going on it was about
something personal and I made it way
more personal and I hurt him with what I
said so Ian I just want to let you know
I am so sorry for ever sending that
tweet if I could take it back I would
and I did not understand what I was
doing in that moment
um I was fueled by sadness by anger I
felt like I was being let down by
someone and I hit Send and I knew it was
gonna be hurtful to James and I didn't
really think about how you would feel
and I'm so sorry so moving forward I
want to let you guys know something I'm
done I am done with the tea with the
drama and I don't want to be involved in
anyone's situations anymore this was a
huge wake-up call to reel me in because
I have been really healing myself I'm in
such a good place so for me to digress
and go back to Jeffrey from years ago
I'm embarrassed of myself I'm
embarrassed for my family that they have
to see things online and I'm sad that
Nathan and my friends have to go online
and deal with this as well because of my
actions I also owe an apology to you
guys I owe an apology to my audience for
bringing something public and for
inserting myself in someone else's beef
drama situation whatever you want to
call it I should have kept my mouth shut
and I didn't so I want you guys to learn
from me because you know I'm the first
person to apologize and own up to my
mistakes I have had an insane crazy past
and all the stuff that I said I will be
sorry for until the day I die
okay and for me that means I need to let
go moving forward I cannot let old me
and old feelings regurgitate and bring
me into a dark place I Know Who I am and
this beauty community right now is
suffering and I'm really sad that
everything is going on and I know that
may be hard to believe because there are
so many people that have opinions they
think that I get off on drama they think
that anytime there's a situation I
insert myself it's been a really quiet
year for me and I didn't want this to
happen and I should have known
better what I want you guys to
understand is that when you have a voice
and millions of followers you need to
use that in a positive light and there
are people including myself that maybe
have abused the power I've used it in a
wrong way have done things way too
publicly and today this is done it's
over okay because I don't want anyone
that is inspired by me whether it's a
makeup artist a boy and beauty someone
that doesn't really feel like they
belong and they look up to me I don't
want them to think that gossip hate and
negativity is how you get popular is how
you grow in social media is how people
will respect you because it's not
respectable at all and I've had to learn
the hard way and I want you guys to
learn from my mistakes and I want you
guys to know that I am not who I used to
be and I haven't been for a while so I'm
not going to play the games that I
started to play because that's not me
and if people want that person I don't
know who they are anymore you'd have to
go follow someone else you know so just
know where I'm at mentally I am good I'm
going to take a few days off and just
turn off my phone I think a lot of us
are on our phones too much business and
life just takes over and you get way too
caught up in the mess and I'm done
getting caught up something that I need
to say before this is over is that you
guys saw a lot of text messages there
were things being told to me that were
never proven there was a lot of rumors
and sadly I let that get to me so James
I want to let you know that I should
have never sent you those messages I
should have been a better friend I know
that now and even if we weren't close
friends anymore I should have handled it
way differently
I will never handle a situation like
this again and I want to let you guys
know that you shouldn't either
so if anyone wants to continue to try to
pick at this situation to try to get all
three of us to say more on my end I'm
not talking about this anymore I will
hopefully have future conversations with
people behind closed door
I think that everyone needs to heal and
this all has to stop so I know that
there's gonna be more videos about this
there's gonna be more conversations but
for me I'm now ready to deal with this
privately and I know that's shocking
because I've made things so publicly and
it has just hurt too many people so
thank you guys for even just watching
and hearing me out I know a lot of you
are ready to just get back to makeup and
my dogs and Nathan and I will be back
soon I'm gonna take you know a little
bit of mental vacation because I think
we all need one so I love you guys so
much thank you for watching and I'll see
you soon
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