make a fist make it strong make a tight
fist when you apply pressure you're
gonna apply pressure slowly you gonna do
it gradually I'm gonna be you try to
resist
do your best to resist
two people that Mike two people that
Mike share with us what did you
experience and what you join about
yourself
hello my name is Adam from season nine
hello seafoam and I hope that experience
will help everybody else because I
failed gloriously the first time my arm
was bent like a grass huh
I could never bend my partner's arm by
the way because he is like a god
but I my own Bend like nothing six
second time I felt so weak that I
couldn't even stand anymore
and the third time I thought I must be
strong and shouldn't it should have been
stronger because I'm not at effect and I
love to do it and I and I felt I should
be able to do it but for some reason I
was even weaker than before even though
I repeated the words I don't believe
them and I'll live it do you live it oh
you think you should live I always
thought I would live it but it but it
seems that and reflecting back it felt
that all the power I thought I have it
feels to me as if it would be borrowed
from the future it feels like
desperately I'm trying to grab it from
the version of myself that I know I will
be but it feels as if I'm taking a
credit loan from myself that I cannot
pay off and it feels intense because I'm
extremely afraid to let everybody down I
know that I'm performing now and I know
I'm doing well but at the same time is
this incredibly big pressure because I
know that I invested myself so much I
tried to do everything I can but at the
same time like I have this crushing
depth on me of about seven okay that I
have to carry from my dad and I tried to
save my family for that I tried to not
even think about myself here and I don't
know what because when I think about it
I feel my strength draining away but at
the same time I'm trying to force it in
myself so that I at least get it done
now because I know I will be that one
day so why not be now so that's pretty
strong dilemma and I think that it was
why I was crying too weak what's the
truth what do you mean what is the truth
I'm not as strong as I think I am what
is the truth
I don't know
what is the truth
is that I believe that crap did I
believe my lower self when it say that
debt is crushing did I believe it when
it says I'm taking a loan from the
future even though probably it isn't
maybe this loan from the future what
bangs it it from so what this loan from
the future yeah what Bank are you
borrowing from good question the bangs
they get the money from yeah where does
this bank in the future locate I think
it's inside me
where is it in my mind it's are you
pouring from it it felt like it are you
pouring from it now how you feel
where's this Bank you pouring
what the resources that I thought I had
to acquire first from what for example
when I made all the investments in
myself or the programs I put myself into
a struggle where I was so broke that I
had no choice but to succeed and so I
always increased my expenses to make
sure I can grow an income which worked
so I thought maybe this is a word yes
yes to what degree to get done what I
needed to get done but not more so there
one more time to get done what I needed
to get done but not more so how can you
get more what's the truth
stop lying to yourself what is the truth
it's not boring I'm doing it what is the
truth
I need anything Chris my income to make
it more prospect I don't need to
struggle to make it work I'm sorry what
I don't need to struggle to make it work
I'm sorry what I don't need to struggle
to make this work you mean you don't
need to borrow from this
imaginative bank to make work
no I'm gonna make it work on my own you
made you made up all this in
your mind that is stopping you from
going to the next level which none of
them actually exist are you telling me
that this made-up story that you
have in your mind this imaginative long
bang and you mean none of this
is real no what the what the
what I'm gonna do I'm gonna kick
that idea to the curb and then what and
then we're gonna do I take action
immediately and I get that stuff done no
loans I do it on my own I have two
resources it's a seven hundred thousand
dollars a lot of money no I thought you
said fine this goes
crying waters now Giovanni
okay was the big deal
yeah nothing I'm sorry what it's nothing
wow thank you
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