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Chase: Hey guys, it's me. Um so sorry about the background. I don't have the energy.
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um to put up my lights and stuff where my wall is so. I just want to apologize for that and the mess behind me.
So. Story time! Ah, story time vlog type of video.
I've been in the hospital and a lot of people were asking why, so I'm making a video to talk about it and to hopefully ask for some advice.
So about three weeks ago I was in some of the worst pain. Honestly my stomach was hurting so much.
I was like: "Oh these are bad cramps. I have to go to the bathroom a lot."
And I was like: "okay well I'm going to the bathroom a lot and it's like a lot".
And it started to hurt a lot I'm like: "You know I probably just have a bug or something. Maybe it's like the flu. I don't know what's going on."
And then it started to hurt even more and then more and I was like okay
I don't know what's going on. So I was actually rushed to the hospital by my dad. Umm
Came to pick me up, and he brought me to the hospital.
And.
Umm they passed me right away cause I thought it might have been my appendix or my gallbladder or something like that.
Especially because when they were pushing on my appendix and taking it off. I was screaming, so.
Umm I...
I went in for a CT Scan and
that was really uncomfortable because they had to like put iodine in in my IV.
and that was not fun because it makes you feel like you pissed yourself.
So I had to do a CT scan and honestly all of these things usually bother me so much.
I don't like getting blood tests. I don't like this. I don't like that and at this point
I was just giving my arm.
So she could put the needle in to put my IV and then when I did the CT scan, they're like are you okay?
I'm like no, and then I just kind of I was just like so down.
Anyway, so they did that long story short, okay? I was...
Uhh t-t-they... I have colitis.
Umm and they think it was like viral or bacterial or something like that.
They actually told me that it's probably viral or it's chronic and that it will go away.
And then if it comes back, come back.
So.
I just want to talk a little bit about how I was treated at the hospital honestly cuz I need to complain.
I don't really have another outlet to do it.
I was treated like shit.
Umm..
I was.
Passed really quickly. Which is great because I was in a lot of pain.
I was like screaming and they offered me pain medication twice.
I'm very reluctant to take pain medication because they usually give you something really hard, and I don't like feeling high. I don't like it.
Um and I said yes, because I was in so much pain. They didn't give it to me, okay?
They actually put me in the hallway, which is I get it. There's not that many beds.
So they just put me to put you in a bed in a hallway
Umm
And I needed to go to the bathroom often.
And I didn't have a pole for my IV so I had to take my pole and my pole.
Sorry my IV bag and go to the bathroom.
And then you have to bend your arm and that thing that all your blood goes into your IV. Yo.
It was horrible, and then I'm sleeping. Trying to sleep and my friends come and my friend val came with her wife and umm.
They were super sweet to me, and it felt really great and umm.
Umm
They, they asked me if I was on pain meds, and I said no.
And they so like they demanded a nurse to give me pain meds.
So they gave me Dilaudid actually and I did not know what that was and apparently it's like 10 times Morphine.
And they give me like one meal. I was, I was fucked up. Okay. I was like seeing things I was all over the place umm.
But after my friends left they decided, the doctors or nurses, whatever decided to move me.
Umm, they put me in this random ass hallway. Where there was like no one and I rang my call bell.
And for 40 minutes and no one came, and then a nurse attending came and turned off my bell and walked away
I was like wait. I need help
Because I hadn't eaten anything and I was like starving. I didn't know if I was allowed to eat.
I don't know if I was allowed to take my medication.
I didn't know anything, so I was just in a lot of pain anyway, so then they were like we need the bed.
So you can go.
So they discharged me because they needed the bed because I didn't have enough beds, and I was like okay, okay?
So my dad picked me up, and it went home.
Then I was feeling a lot better three days later. I just I got a cold.
I got a really bad cold, and I'm gonna guess that it's from the hospital. I got a cold.
It was really bad it was a cold for like a week and a half.
Umm that's blowing my nose, and I like couldn't breathe. It was bad, anyways so about a week ago now. So that was.
Umm, two and a half weeks, I guess after the hospital. I've been feeling okay.
I've been feeling a little bit tender, be careful what I eat. You know. I don't eat things that I shouldn't eat.
Umm, even though I wasn't sure when I'm allowed to eat or not so I, my stomach started to hurt again. I was like,
oh, okay.
Like it's you know whatever gas or I just go bathroom or maybe it's just whatever.
But then it started to hurt a lot.
And I need to go to the bathroom a lot.
And the issue is that it was after everything that I ate and it wasn't instant.
It was like forty to sixty minutes after I ate something.
It was starting to hurt, and it wasn't as severe as it was the first time, but it was starting to get like,
increasingly worse.
So my friends were like go to the hospital.
I was like no, I can't like I worked, like go to the hospital!
So I went, I went to the hospital and I waited ten hours.
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I got an ultrasound the doctors didn't find anything remarkable on my ultrasound.
And, uhh, then I needed to see a gastroenterologist
The specialist, a Gastro doctor, but they didn't have them that day so I had to like wait till the next, so I went home.
They took the IV out, okay?
I went home, and they gave me morphine by the way.
And I was fucked off because it was injected morphine in my IV, yo, I can't.
Umm. So I went home and then the next morning at 8 o'clock, I came back.
And they like we're gonna put another IV in you and I was like are you kidding me?
I had just gotten a blood test two days before.
And then the day before I had gotten an IV here for the whatever and then now they tried to put an IV in another vein here.
And she, it didn't work so she was moving the needle off. Ahh!
So does she did it in my head she was gonna way right? And I'm like I'm right-handed.
I need to text can you not do this so she put in my left hand it was so painful.
And I waited for seven hours for.
The doctor the Gastro doctor to tell me that there is nothing in my scans and my inflammation markers in my blood test last time were forty.
Which is like seven times the normal average that's supposed to be and my inflammation levels this time were one.
So I don't have any inflammation.
So what is happening is an aftershock of the colitis that I had three and a half weeks ago.
My body is so shook.
And my digestive system is like all out of whack and all shook-ifth because of this infection or this bacterial infection that I had.
Umm, because now they're saying it was bacterial not viral. Can you make up your mind please?
Umm, because I really I think I needed a colonoscopy, but they're like. There's nothing. There's no inflammation. We're not going to find anything
so we're not going to give you a colonoscopy. Okay, okay?
So anyways, so they are saying that this is an aftershock of the colitis that I had and that I.
Umm
Uh, by the way if you don't know, what Colitis is. Sorry.
I didn't really, it's like an inflammation of your colon, of your bowel with like your colon side inflammation
It was the first time in my life.
I was like I have pain here and here and they took the CT scans.
And that's exactly where my inflammation was and I could actually see my pain. Like it was the first time in my life.
Where I feel validated that my pain is real, so I felt really.
Therapeutic it felt very good, but.
Umm, so he said.
That this, umm.
Your system is all out of whack right now.
So it could last weeks, it could last months and it could also last years and could turn into ibs.
Umm, which is great, which is you know I just need one more thing to add to my fucking list of things right now.
Umm. So I asked do I have to, umm,
eliminate foods from my diet. He's like no just eat healthy. I'm like, okay,
I'm vegan and I eat a lot of good food and he's like okay.
And, exercising like okay. I'm injured. I've been injured for ten months now with my knee and I, he's like okay.
Well try to bike or swim like okay, but honestly right now.
I can't bike because I'm in so much pain, and I literally it's like 11 a.m.
And I went to the bathroom seven times already to poop. It's not fun, okay?
I come up and on my bike and like shit myself on my bike.
Umm
So I am just in a place where I'm like severely depressed right now,
and I can't you and the horrible thoughts that I had in my head are
Increasing and increasing because I'm not exercising so. I don't really know what to do.
Umm, I don't believe him that there is nothing that I should avoid eating.
I feel like there are a lot of things that I should avoid eating.
But I don't know what to do and I know everybody with ibs or with issues with their digestive system is different.
So I can't be like oh some people say yes to corn some people say no to corn.
Umm, my friend who also has digestive issues.
We started this hashtag, hashtag ftm's with digestive issues or female to digestive issues?
So if you're one of us join us on Instagram, please or Twitter.
Instagram mostly, ftm's with digestive issues.
Umm, so I don't really know what's going on right now and I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to eat. Everything that I eat hurts. I had soup yesterday. Oh my God, I was in pain. I had rice.
I was in pain. I had bland food. I was in pain. I had oatmeal. I was in pain.
I had a smoothie. I was in pain.
Everything I eat is a pain and I'm in pain right now, and I actually really need to run to the bathroom. But I'm not going to do that.
I, umm.
I-I don't I just...
I don't know what to do and I feel very defeated. I know, honestly.
And, umm.
I have some friends online who are very great and who have found a whole bunch of recipes and diets and stuff that I can follow.
But here's my issue. I had to relearn how to eat when I went vegetarian
I had to relearn how to eat when I'm vegan I've been vegan for over seven and a half years now.
The fact that I have to relearn how to eat again is just killing me right now, and I can't accept it.
It's very hard for me to accept because I,
I'm such a busy person. I'm working on my thesis. I'm doing YouTube.
Yo, I don't even, I'm so busy. I don't have time to relearn how to eat and relearn how to cook things and.
It's just getting to be a little too much for me. I don't know what to do.
So I think that the biggest thing is that I need to just figure out,
what to do so I'm asking for your advice.
And, umm.
Recipes that are vegan.
That may help with my digestive issue because currently what my doctor has told me to do. You know that four liter jug of, uh...
Stuff that you take before a colonoscopy it's peg light, is the one that I'm taking it's fruit flavored.
It doesn't taste like shit. Don't worry for me. It doesn't taste like shit. Umm, for a lot people like "it tastes so gross".
I'm like this actually tastes good. I'm fine.
Umm, it just tastes like flavored water I had to drink almost that whole thing.
He wanted me to drink like more than half. I-I don't know, I think I have a liter left but I'm not gonna drink it
Umm, in order to clear out my system.
And now I have a laxative that I have to take every single day Laxaday.
I have to take that every single day like a cap full every morning, and I'm not comfortable with that,
but I have no other choice honestly because I guess it's to reactivate my,
umm, digestive system, my bowels and my colon.
So it's just, it's just a lot to deal with right now, to be honest.
And I don't really know what I'm what. I am to do. What's the boy to do?
So yes, that's what I wanted to say I guess, and I feel like this video is like so unprofessional,
and I'm like sloughing, and I'm not standing and I'm not in front of my wall,
and it's not all lights blinding and background and stuff like that, and my voice is really low and like like really silent.
I feel like I'm just all over the place lately, and I'm sorry about that
I just want to say I'm sorry and I just don't know what to do and I'm feeling very defeated.
I just I feel like it's like stupid to be crying and to be so upset about this stuff,
but I I don't think people understand how busy I am.
And this is just adding so much more stress. Oh by the way. They said, it's probably related to anxiety
Isn't that fun. You know the anxiety that impact for last year. It's like crazy crippling anxiety. I can't barely go outside
I was doing better for like 3 months, 2 months. 2-3 months. I was doing better
I was like, finally doing better, and then I get this fucking infection, and it just ruins everything and I'm just so defeated.
I'm so anxious
I'm so physically exhausted, mentally exhausted, emotionally exhausted.
And I'm just so lonely and I wish I had somebody to be here to help take care of me.
And I feel like that's me being a big baby, but I just feel useless.
That's my story. That's why my digestive systems been all messed up.
That's why I've been complaining about pooping so much on Twitter, follow me on Twitter. You get some really good stories honestly.
So follow me on Twitter.
But yeah, that's why I want to tell you guys, if you have any questions, let me know in the comments below.
Any vegan recipes, should I avoid gluten? I don't know what to do.
I know I could just google this but when I tell you I'm busy.
I feel bad, but I need like the internet to do this work for me honestly right now.
But anyways, thank you so much for watching and hopefully I feel better soon.
Have a great day. Love you. Bye
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