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i have something to show you wow look at that reflection thank you so much for helping me
get this i'm actually very excited to film this video because it's been a while since i've just
spoken to the camera without planning out a super detailed script okay i did write out some bullet
points but i can't help doing some planning it's just in my blood so let's get the basics out of
the way first i am 19 years old i am five foot and about one and a half inches oh you're right
it is like rapunzel i wanted to get a pearl but they said my hair was too damaged but i still
wanted to do something that felt like a big change and i bleached my hair last march and so i've had
light hair or like half light hair for a long time now so i got this color and it's honestly
not that far off from my natural hair color but it feels like a really big change and that was
what i wanted i also got a haircut because the ends were just dead they were a disaster and
i also really like that the dark color makes my hair seem thicker because it is extremely
thin honestly i might even go a bit darker this is like a baby step and it's also a demi permanent
hair color or whatever it's called and so it'll start to fade out but yeah i love it so far my
myer breaks type is isfj which is the defender which i share with beyonce pam from the office
and selena gomez i've consistently gotten that result over the years but i don't really feel like
i relate to it i definitely prefer the enneagram and i think i'm an enneagram three oh this one's
interesting i thought my entire life that i was a sagittarius because i'm right on the border
between capricorn and sagittarius and normally they say that capricorn starts on december 22nd
and my birthday is on the 21st little did i know however i downloaded the co-star app i
don't really believe in astrology but i thought it would be interesting i wanted to see what the hype
was about you had to put in your exact birth time and i was born at about 6 p.m in lithuania and so
i guess that was enough to put me into capricorn territory favorite bts song ever probably saved me
currently your eyes tell bias jungkook bias wrecker demon this is so funny to me because
i have this box of like family photos that haven't been scanned and then i also keep all my bts photo
cards in here how did i get into k-pop it was new year's eve 2018 and bts performed on the
dick clark near special and i was like wow this is pretty good and i never went back hidden talents
nope what you see that's it oh my gosh 10 years i don't really know where i'm gonna be in one
year i'm just trying to go with the flow at the moment what is something people get wrong about
you well i think a lot of people assume that i'm just always productive and always motivated and
obviously that's not true that is not true for anyone i think i'm more chill than people think i
am i think in school people who didn't really know me well or they just knew of me assumed that i was
like super serious and super studious but that was not really me i played violin for five years
i wasn't super serious about it i really enjoyed it but i did not enjoy learning music theory i did
not want to take private lessons or anything like that so that's why i quit in high school
i've been thinking about learning how to play the piano but i just don't know how to do that
in an affordable way because first of all i probably have to get a piano so we'll see
and it just sounds like you're swearing a whole bunch go somewhere far far away i don't know man
i think the flat earthers are on to something i like my eyes a lot there aren't that many movies
that i can watch over and over i'm generally a watch it once and be done kind of person
but i do really like the hangover movies only the first one and the second one though the third one
is trash hi girlie or bra i'm gonna go with bra but i would say outside of those
two options probably like dude i think i say dude a lot or at least in texting
i don't know how anyone could pick a favorite vine or tik tok so here's one that i really like
anything for you beyonce that's a classic i would love to try like a periwinkle blue or
a bluish green for the moment i'm really feeling the darker hair so i'm going to stick with this
and i also need to take better care of my hair if i want to dye any fun colors in the future i
don't see myself dating until college because first of all during covid how am i going to
organically meet new people and i'll only be here for another year so if i
fell in love that would kind of suck if i had to leave so soon what is your perspective mindset on
life that is a very interesting question and honestly something i've been thinking about
i think my mindset has been shifting a lot from like achievement and more towards connecting with
people and fun and living a good life as cheesy as that sounds i feel like in high school it was
really difficult to see beyond like the test scores and the grades and the extracurriculars
and now that i've been out of high school for a little more than a year now i think my idea of
what i want out of life is changing my advice for people who want to start a blog is just start the
blog write your first post make your first video set up that instagram account the nice thing about
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how did i decide to name it the bliss bean so initially i intended for this to be a food and
wellness blog and so bean was a food but it was also the first three letters of my first name and
the first letter of my last name and then bliss was alliteration but also i just like the word
because i wanted the blissfiend to be a happy and motivating place so the voice being would
i rename it i definitely had a period of time when i was like why did i name it the bliss bean
that's so weird i thought about changing it to my name but unfortunately i have a very long and
difficult name i also thought about doing just my first name so it would be beatrice but then that's
problematic because people think it's pronounced beatrice and lithuanian it's pronounced betriche
patricia is like a hybrid version that i came up with so that it would be easier for americans to
pronounce so i decided to just stick with it and honestly i have grown to like the bliss bean more
and it's kind of nice to be able to dissociate myself from it in a way where it's not like i
am the youtube channel i am just a person who runs the bliss bean when you're just starting out from
zero it can definitely be very difficult i would just say pick a topic that you genuinely love
and put time into making videos that you're proud of it's just a matter of patience and perseverance
and so if you're not genuinely passionate about the stuff that you are writing or making videos
about then yeah it'll probably be really difficult to get over that hump in the beginning where no
one is paying attention to what you're doing but if you really enjoy what you're doing then
you'll be able to do it even if no one is watching you balancing youtube with school and life etc i
currently am not really balancing it with anything so i'm in a very lucky position but during high
school that was definitely a challenge and one thing that really helped me was setting boundaries
so during junior year i had a role for myself where i would not do any homework friday to sunday
so i tried to get as much homework done at school but then the rest of it i had to get done between
monday and thursday evening friday and sunday then were reserved for all of my extracurriculars
and vlogging and things like that that helped to ensure that i was doing things efficiently
and that i had time for both of these sides of my life i think it also made school like more
bearable because i had a three day break from it every week basically senior year it became less
about boundaries and more about reorganizing my priorities because i'd gotten through the
most academically challenging part of high school and now i had all this extra time and energy to
dedicate to blogging like i had all these study halls in my schedule and so then i started to
work on my blog a lot during the school day like my monday newsletter i always wrote that during
my first hour study hall every monday morning so i guess my advice would be to set aside weekly
times that you are going to dedicate to school or whatever versus times that you are going to
dedicate to blogging whether that is a certain day of the week or just like a period of time
between classes on thursday when did i first consider myself a youtuber probably this spring
if you watched my how i started my blog video i explained how march 2020 was a very good month for
the bliss bean numbers went up a lot and i started doing my first sponsorships and because of covid
youtube was basically the only thing that i was focusing on and so then i was like yeah i guess
i'm a youtuber that has been an adjustment though i was at a coffee shop one time and i was filming
some b-roll with a friend and this woman came over to us and i'm not really sure what she was
even asking i was very confused but she saw that i was like writing in a notebook and pretending
to read a book and stuff and so she asked if we were doing something related to education
because she said she worked in education and i was like no i have like a productivity and personal
development youtube channel and that was really like a big moment for me because i'm not used
to just like introducing myself to strangers in public and being like yes i run a youtube channel
i am a youtuber obviously i wouldn't just randomly say that to a stranger but going from the point
where i wasn't telling any of my friends about my youtube channel to just telling this person i
just met that was a pretty big step for me most favorite would probably be building community
least favorite i don't really know how to put this into words but like the identity struggle
i have some examples so let's say i make a video and i say that i'm gonna be trying something new
like some new habit or whatever i have a new goal we as people are constantly changing and i don't
know about you but i struggle to set long-term goals because even if it's just like a six-month
goal by the end of those six months i feel like my life and how i view the world has changed so
much that those goals just aren't really relevant to me anymore and so if i share something online
and then i decide that it doesn't really fit my life then i just kind of feel bad about it or
maybe my stance on something will change between when i film the video and when it's supposed to
go live or sometimes the way that i post and share about things kind of accidentally makes them seem
like they're a bigger part but a bigger part of my life than they actually are like photography
that video did really well but then all of a sudden i had all these emails and dms
asking me about photography questions and what i plan to do with my future photography career
and i was like guys it was just like a part-time job for me i really really enjoyed it but i don't
envision myself being a photographer in the future at this point i've stopped doing senior portraits
the season isn't even over but i just got really sick of it sometimes videos become outdated so
when i did my why i don't like bullet journaling video a lot of people who had watched my very
first video where i shared a bunch of facts about me pointed out that in that video i shared that i
was more into paper planning than digital and then lo and behold about two years later i completely
flipped sides on that argument and so overall i guess what i'm just trying to say
is that it's frustrating that my online presence will never be a really accurate depiction of who
i am wow i phrased that really well what to do if you are overwhelmed by your to-do list
first of all i would just have one to-do list i don't know if you literally meant that you
have multiple to-do lists but if you keep all of your stuff organized in one place that definitely
helps with overwhelm in situations where i'm like coming home from a trip or i've just kind of been
out of it for a couple of weeks and i need to get back on track then i will grab a good
old-fashioned paper notebook and just sit down and write out a list of everything that i need to do
sorted into categories assign it to different days and stuff in those situations where i need
kind of like a reset then working with a paper and pen really helps me notion so many people
commented this on my digital planning video i have tried notion i didn't really like it it was
just like too complicated and kind of clunky for my preferences i'm scared that people are gonna
attack me now but basically what i do now works for me i gave notion a try and i don't want to
invest more time into trying to make it work for me i am trying to use it to manage my content
ideas because that was getting kind of messy but like everything else in my planning system is
running smoothly so i'm fine i think i should make like an unpopular opinions video and one of them
is that i don't really like notion that much my worst decision in high school honestly i thought
about this for a long time and i could not think of anything i honestly have no regrets about how
i spent high school the only thing that maybe i could say is like sometimes i would say yes
to stuff that i probably shouldn't have said yes to i don't mean like dangerous things i mean like
taking on projects that maybe i didn't really have an interest in or didn't have time for but even
those were lessons in how to say no so no regrets yolo how can you stay awake doing homework at 1 am
have a well-lit environment take breaks to move around definitely do not be lying down while
you're doing your homework i feel like i shouldn't even be giving this advice because i should be
encouraging you to get a proper amount of sleep but i understand i was also there one thing that
i used to do sometimes was i would get an ice pack and i would just like put it on my eyes
um the facial area and that would wake me up a little bit i got a bunch of questions about my
school and college situation i will not be going to college next year i decided to take a second
gap year i just didn't want to go while the pandemic was going on because i feel like i'm
really excited for college for the experience of it like meeting new people and going to classes
and learning things more than i am about like getting the degree i don't really view it as a
stepping stone in my career so i'm not really in a rush to go and i would rather wait until next year
to have something that is more like the college experience that i envisioned a lot of people ask
me how i've been doing or why i didn't upload a video last week so thank you guys for checking in
with me it feels weird to like transition into this topic because so far this video has been
pretty upbeat and fun honestly i've been really really struggling for the past few weeks when
i did my mid-year review video and i was like going over the different categories of my life
i said that mental health for the first half of the year was going really well and that was
not a lie quarantine was going really well i was handling it i was thriving quarantine had nothing
on me and it was like pretty much right after that video that things started to get a little worse at
first it would be like one day out of the week that i wasn't really feeling like myself feeling
good and then it would be the weekend and then i had a full week straight where i just could barely
do anything and then most recently was the worst it was like a couple of weeks in a row where i
just could not get myself to do anything and i was so sad and i didn't understand why because
literally nothing in my life was going poorly and so i felt kind of guilty for feeling the way that
i did but i just have to keep reminding myself that there doesn't have to be a reason for your
emotions to be valid but yeah i just like couldn't bring myself to get anything done and then as the
stuff that i wasn't doing um started piling up then it became more difficult to get back
into things i did a video a while back on how i struggled with disordered eating in the beginning
of high school and i've been seeing some of those issues resurfacing a little bit and it makes a lot
of sense to me in a way because in the beginning of high school i was kind of bored in a way like
i wasn't being kept busy enough by the stuff that was going on at school freshman year was
just pretty easy and i'm kind of having the same thing now where like my youtube channel is keeping
me busy but nowhere near the level of busyness that i was used to in high school and so it's
almost like when my brain is given this free time and space to do something else then it focuses on
weight and self-image and things like that so yeah that is what has been going on i definitely feel a
lot better today like just the fact that i'm able to sit down and film this video and actually be
like upbeat and cheerful for it yesterday i was able to get myself to pull out a notebook and
like write out a plan to get back on track by the end of this week and i've just been executing that
plan today and i'm already feeling a lot better but i'm very hesitant to be like yay i'm feeling
better now because i've had this like up and down pattern for a while now and so i just i'm working
on figuring out how to not slip back into the down and just stay in the up so one thing i did was
yesterday i wrote an email to a therapist that i'm looking at looking for a therapist is something
i have procrastinated for ridiculously long considering that i have like a productivity
youtube channel and i literally made a video how to stop procrastinating but i finally took like a
baby step in that process so hopefully it'll be good to like get some external help one of the
reasons why i'm hesitant to share about mental health is i don't want people to think that like
oh all of these habits and routines and planning and stuff that she does really like backfired now
she's burnt out because it's not really burned out the habits and routines that i have that's
what keeps me well it's when i slip up and i fall off the wagon and i stop doing all of these things
that i just don't really feel like myself and really i feel like some of the busiest times
of my life have been the happiest times and some of the times when i've struggled the most with my
mental health are when i have the most free time so yeah there there's a lot more i have to say
on this topic a lot more that i've been thinking about recently but this video is not solely about
that so i'm just gonna end it there thank you for listening and thank you for being patient
with me as i took a break from the internet for a little bit so that's everything i hope you enjoyed
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