This is weird and I'm really freaking awkward right now. Ok Hi
YouTube this is a weird. Okay. I haven't filmed a video in a very very long time and
and I haven't done like, a video by myself in a while... in my bathroom
WHY AM I SO AWKWARD?
But, um, I'm really sorry to everyone that has like been begging me to make more videos, I've just been very
busy and
very
Focused on like my friends right now
And I've been hanging out with them and making them like my number one priority and it's been really really fun
I've also just been like really
unmotivated to
make youtube videos only because I
Don't know what to film and I don't know what you guys want to see please
let me know what you would like to see because I feel like I'm very boring and I personally don't think that I'm
Well, I am kinda boring sometimes but I can be really fun. I think I'm funny
Sometimes I think when I'm with summer and I felt videos with her
I feel so much more myself when I'm doing stuff with her and I want to be comfortable with that on my own
you know, so I'm basically
coming to you with another boring video in my bathroom, and I'm going to
Get ready with you guys because I was watching me in Summer's Cabo get ready with me on her channel, and that inspired me
To come in my bathroom to film a video. I just showered that's why my hair looks like a wet dog
I've acne on my chest and it's really annoying
I don't know why and I'm also my skin has been going through it. It's finally clearing up
I do have a couple pimples but like being a teenager, I guess that comes with the territory. It's just like really annoying
I'm just gonna
Moisturize my face. Well, okay
My... I'm just using this it's from my dermatologist and it's like really really good
Um, has like sunscreen in it
But basically my dermatologist said that it's not so good to like moisturize my face and I like am obsessed with moisturizer
I just had this urge to moisturize my face. I'm not able to... Do you guys care? Probably not
Why am I doing this video? I'm actually dumb. I'm just gonna moisturize my lips
With this pop rock (?) cream from Australia. It's my favorite. It's so good. Becca concealer. I-
Haven't been working as much and
My sister has been working a ton
Last year was my busiest year for me and I really needed this time off. Damp beauty blender.
Blend it in. My mirror is over here, but I'm also looking here
But I'm supposed to look here and I'm just really about YouTube here is the thing
I made YouTube videos like and I have a channel
Obviously that's like what you're watching, but I like, don't consider myself a youtuber
I consider myself as a dancer and an actor and an author.. no i'm joking
I don't want to take credit for being a youtuber because I
don't put as much work and dedication as actual youtubers do. When people come up to me and they're like
You're such a good youtuber, I love your videos and I'm like, oh, thank you, but I'm not a youtuber because I
Don't want to take credit for that, you know
But I'm really sorry
If you guys thought that I was able to like put out a video every week
Like I just don't really have the time to do that and I'm really sorry if I've let you down
Why is my arm... I've literally been blending my concealer with my arm like this
Like, what is wrong with me?! Now that my pimples are kind of covered
Just gonna move on. It is so hot in here. Like actually, I'm sweating. Charlotte Tilbury powder
R3 brush. Ew!
What is that? (x2) I just want to set
Concealer a tad. So that my pimples don't budge
I didn't really think this through this video because I just thought I'd be like getting ready
But I also don't want to make it like a makeup tutorial and now I have nothing to do
I just put this up on my story
Waiting for people to ask me questions
I'm using that Anastasia Beverly Hills brow pencil. That brow up looks tragic. Do you wanna say hi?
*I don't look pretty*
Yes, you do, you know you look good like, you literally dressed up today
I didn't dress up but I like my hair but it's a little
My makeup's not as good as yours. You're laughing because you know you want to be on camera
I don't! I'm not on camera~ I don't want to be on camera...
Look at the camera! You know you want to be on camera!
No, I don't.
Say hi.
You actually look so cute. (I like this outfit.) Look at my outfit. This is from my new Tom's (?). They gave me the inspiration because they all wear these
YOUR BODY LOOKS SO GOOD!
Aw, love you! You're my bestie!
Okay, I wouldn't take it that far.
Hi, I'm filming a youtube video right now.
Yeah. Ohhhh! Oh, you did one!
(Yeah)
AWWW!
Hi everyone~
Okay, love you. I'll call you back. (Hahaha)
(I love you, bye) I love you, bye.
Cameron Field is my best friend
I'm obsessed with him. I love him so much. No, we are not dating!
He's my literal everything. Like, I would, I don't know how I could live life without him
What's a character you would have loved to play? Using this Chanel bronzer.
I have so many roles that I want to play. One that I actually did for the Sia movie, that role
will be a role that I will never be able to forget it was-
the most life-changing
-experience and like I know I would never play a role that special again. Anyone saw what I dressed up for on Halloween
I, if you've seen the movie, the professional, Natalie Portman, then you would see why that would be a dream role for me
She plays like such a strong role and that's like just a dream for me
I want to be able to play a leading female role, I want to be able to lead the whole movie as a strong female
So that's honestly just my big dream. Do you have advice on how to be more confident?
this is a really sticky subject for me because I
Struggle with self-confidence every day. All my friends can tell you that
I'm one of the most insecure people. The only time I really feel confident is when I'm dancing
You see girls on social media and we think that we have to
be just like them and we think that we have to be perfect and
Hide all of our insecurities and our flaws, but honestly, I've learned that and I'm still learning that
Your flaws and your imperfections are what are most beautiful. It's so hard because online
We get judged so much and I personally try not to pay attention to it
But sometimes it's hard because no matter what you do. You're going to get hate
even if it's something that you're proud of at least like
92% of people are going to be nice, but the other eight will
Pull you down just because. I think it's important as young girls and boys that
we use social media for positivity and we use it to encourage each other and
support each other rather than
Pull each other down
Because everyone does that nowadays and it's so hurtful and I have wanted to delete my social media so many times
but for my work I can't and
I know that everyone that follows me loves to see what I'm doing
But sometimes it gets really hard because there's always people hating on you. I kind of switched the subject here but being confident is
Being comfortable with yourself
And being confident in your own skin and not trying to be someone else and trying not to look like someone else
so try your hardest to
Maybe give yourself a compliment in the mirror
Sia has actually taught me this. To just to look at yourself and say I am strong. I am beautiful. I am-
-caring. Honestly, it's just gonna help you
I'd say my friends honestly help me with my self-confidence the most. They really are the sweetest people and I know that they mean it
Um, yeah, I don't know? That was a huge thing, but
Hopefully that helped or made sense
I'm just highlighting with this Dior highlighter I use this one. How tall am I? I think I'm five-
-six and a half? Five seven.
What's your favorite song right now? I have a few favorite songs right now
Sorry, I had to see what I was doing. Goody bag by still woozy
Breakaway my lemon Stella. The good side by Troye Sivan
I am obsessed with that song. Full with you by HER. When the party's over by Billy Eilish
I'm filming a youtube video.
(Hi) Hi~
(Hi, YouTube. That's my camera!)
(Bro!)
Mom told me to use it.
(That's my camera...)
I'm also wearing your tank top.
(Bye, love you). Bye, I love you.
Do you still ship Gen-Zie?
Of course. Recently, I've been doing this and I don't know why, but this is the Mac
pencil in... oh, in subculture
I was gonna say unscripted but, oh. I don't feel like defining my lip line recently because I think
It makes it look better. I don't know. This is glossier
Am I a youtuber? I think so, I actually-
-am obsessed with this stuff. Lastly, I'm just gonna set my face with
the Mario Badescu lavender stuff
I'm not gonna do anything with my hair
Because I'm too lazy to do that. I'm just really hungry and I'm gonna post mate food now. Thank you
Well, thank you guys for watching this. I'm sorry if it was like boring or
just, just really
messy. I feel like this video is not put together.
I just want to thank you guys so much for supporting me through everything
Uh, it means a lot to me
Um, because as much as there is hate online, I do get so many positive comments and it means a lot to me
So thank you guys so much. Other than that
This is the end of the video Until we meet again - whoo!
Okay, bye