Paradise has been a lot for me like and it's a lot also like self-discovery and
a lot of like realizing some things about myself like I'm like a openly
fluid person and like I like guys I like girls but I've not really made that
public at all yeah like being into both and I'm here and I'm having so much fun
with Derek and I'm enjoying my time with him and I do like him and I'm enjoying
like pursuing him and having a good time with them but I've been seeing someone
before this and I am so thinking about her and I am also constantly meeting
about pursuing Derek and it's just like a cluster and I I mean not he doesn't
know at all I'm just gonna ask no he doesn't know at all are you thinking
about telling him I think that it's not gonna be something he wants to hear it's
just like a very uncomfortable topic but I also hate that you feel like you have
to hide behind such a strong shield and not be who you really want to be if you
told him and he was accepting of it like how would you feel I mean it would be
amazing it would make me feel better it would make me like possibly like fall
for him more so is this something like you would date both of them I don't know
uh I'm trying to figure it out and it sucks right so what's your biggest fear
I am afraid that Derrick might want to give up we've just been like flirting
and having fun and it's been really easy and not very serious but this is some
real what if you tell Derrick and he doesn't take it very well
I don't know what being in love feels like but I feel like with Derek I could
get there he is truly a good guy and he is someone who would be an amazing
person to have a relationship with I don't want to think ruin that
this is like nothing negative so don't think that we don't be worried about it
to talk to you about okay that is hard for me to talk about like you know
you've been like asking me a lot lately like you know moments date and stuff
like that and I've kind of been avoiding that
yeah so
the reason that I've been avoiding is because it's something that is like it's
taking a lot for me to kind of get comfortable talking about it in general
and
I have like been casually dating someone and it's a woman
and I've been like uncomfortable talking about it since like scary to talk about
that and it's like I've always plan on coming here and
being open to stuff I don't want you to think that this
changes like something between us like I'm so very much interested in
it's important to me to know how you feel about it yeah because it is part of
like who I am while I appreciate you
feeling close enough to me there's involved
saying that I know that's not like an easy thing to open up
for the first time so thank you
using the toxin a doctor the biggest thing
going through my mind is how can you both consider that
me simultaneously like and have this be just as meaningful
I mean like how are you thinking about that it's a friend like both of them are
different like how I feel about you and how I feel about her it's very different
I I really like you a lot and Charlotte but
I I'm okay with slow yeah yeah that's that means like so much thing
because it does take me and just keeping open and
straightforward to me yeah I can't imagine what's been going through your
head
at all feeling inks just you know but I know you've said that a few different
times and now I think I see why there was even more
imagine so yeah it's like feeling anxious but it's also
like the liberation is very much you should feel that way
it could not have gone better I feel like how he handled it was so perfect
and I feel so good I feel so relieved he exceeded my expectations like entirely
like yeah that was amazing I knew you're a great guy and you just
you continue to prove that to me well like you can see if I see you what
matters to me is feeling connected to you the way that I could I'd do and I
hope you know that this doesn't slow my like resolve towards continuing
developing
it's not easy to hear that there's somebody else in her life that's been
you know significant enough to bring up here but I'm appreciative of the fact
that we're very different types of people so I think like the positives
that I see in that is I should just maintain and continue being Who I am and
it makes me feel closer to her to know more about her
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