I think the seizure and delirium are secondary to hypoxemia
and inflammation from COVID -- possible early sepsis.
Let's just watch him
and, uh, see how he responds to treatment.
Okay. Oh, hey, Shepherd. Didn't realize you were back.
Welcome to...hell.
Just consulting on Koracick.
Oh, right, 'cause he needs somebody to cover his service.
On him, not -- uh, not for him.
Sats dropped, he's got a fever of 103,
and he seized when they brought him in.
[ Sighs ] Well, I hate everything.
Woman: [ Over P.A. ] Dr. Cade to the ICU. Emma Cade to the ICU.
I was wondering if you get used to this,
but I'm guessing that's my answer.
How's the baby?
Uh, yeah, uh, well, he won't let me sleep,
but other than that, um, yeah, I can't wait to get back to him.
Leo and Allison are with Owen's mom.
I'm just -- I miss them like crazy,
but with both parents treating COVID patients,
it just -- it doesn't seem safe.
Uh-huh.
So, um, guess you heard what happened.
Yeah. And I have feelings.
But I've also done
more hurtful and complicated things in my life
than anyone I've met outside an NA meeting, so --
some of them to Owen.
Owen won't say a word to me
that doesn't have to do with the kids,
and everyone is ignoring me
or treating me like I'm wearing a scarlet letter.
What about Tom?
He's hurt, too.
Well, um, I'll keep checking on him.
And, uh, thank you for getting Mer into the trial.
Oh, yeah, uh, of course.
[ Sighs ]
[ Monitor beeping ]
Hi, Grey.
It's me.
I'm gonna say it.
I miss you.
[ Sighs ]
When I was a kid, I had big thoughts.
Big feelings.
And I never knew where to put them.
Physically, they ran through my body like a high-speed train.
And anytime I felt the train coming,
my mom could see it.
So she took me around the corner to the park
with this strange, twisted tree.
Said it was my tree.
And I could scream at it, hit it, hold it --
and it would make the feelings small enough
that they would fit back inside of my own body again.
So I did.
And it worked.
But now I'm an adult, and tree-hitting is...
[Chuckling] frowned upon.
I can be your tree.
My mother has Alzheimer's.
I never told you
because she's older,
and I didn't want to bring up any old pain
for your or Richard.
But it would be a lie
to say that it hasn't been hard.
Or painful.
Even as a doctor who knows about the disease,
I feel like...
I didn't know crap.
...like I don't know anything.
It's difficult to talk about it
with someone who hasn't been there,
been through it.
♪
No one understands that you are
watching your own mother die...
twice.
I'm so sorry, Bailey.
[ Crying ] I wish you were awake. 00:04:01.575,00:00:00.000 ♪♪